Jesus Freak

friday blues

2007-09-28T21:43:00.000-05:00

everyone loves fridays.. went for the movies near smithaven mall today with a dude from BASIC.
The movie's entitled "The Kingdom" starring Jennifer Garner! (*yes!!!!)
When she first made her appearance, we sat up straight and smiled..

going to Long Island Picnic tomorrow in Queens. IVs from 3 Long Island varsities will be attending including Stony Brook. MMmmmmm BBQ, i can smell it know.. I'm getting hungry..

I've been spending most of my time thinking bout this and i can't wait for the Black Friday sales where prices are slashed mad crazy.

*ps: i miss my girl friend back home. but i'm gonna get her replaced.

new york city

2007-09-14T23:47:00.000-05:00

The holidays are here! No classes from Thursday to Sunday due to the Jewish holidays of Yom Kippur.

I just came back from a chinese buffer (yin yang chinese buffet near stony brook), with my room mate who drove there. food was crazy, we ate like shrek (esp my room mate who tears and munches the alaskan crabs). Oh yes, alaskan crabs are HUGE! its shell is not brittle, but tough and flexible, we had to use a nut cracker to break into it.

The M'sian gang took the LIRR (Long Island Rail Road) to jamaica, queens. then bought a day pass and switched to the infamous new york subway. yes, it's dirty and humid at the bottom. despite it's infamous reputation, it is life line of new york city.
we went to the lower and midtown of manhattan isle.

places we visited:
little italy - ate in a fancy italian restaurant at mulbery street.
chinatown - oh yes, it does look like petaling street only bigger and much more diverse
battery park - seen liberty isle with the famous lady of liberty at a distance, we lie down on the grass and chilled for an hour
city hall - just the outside
rockefelle center - just seen it at a distance, it's close to MoMA (museum of modern art which i planed to visit even when i was still back in m'sia)
6th street - where we lined up for 1 hour just for the famous chicken and rice
1st street - where we ate at a friend's japanese restaurant
serendipity - an ice cream shop famous for its $1000 ice cream sprinkled with gold dust, this shop was featured in a scene from serendipity
world trade center site - pretty touching to see a site where once 2 buildings stood now destroyed, names of the perished now immortalized on a plaque

i was kinda blur throughout the whole trip, i didn't talked much, so kinda forgot where we actually went. but i enjoyed myself. i haven't got a dSLR yet :-( but i can share pictures from my friends' camera.

conclusion? returning to the city is definite. i can't wait to take pictures of balding trees, blanketing the ground with its yellow and red leaves.. what a picturesque sight it might be!

of B.A.S.I.C

2007-09-10T21:51:00.000-05:00

Gene sharing the word and introducing the fellowship
From L to R: Lysha (m'sian), NZ girl, Irish girl ( i4got their names! sigh..)
Yared (guy in red,biomedical engineering grad, from Ethopia)

It's so refreshing to gather at the Union, room 236, 8pm and meet with fellow Christians on campus. I really felt relieved and felt a sense of belonging even though I haven't met all of them. B.A.S.I.C stands for Brothers and Sisters in Christ, a campus ministry by a local church: Full Gospel Christian Centre.

Met a lot of people, from a new zealand twin girls(4got their names!), a new zealand guy (ben-really friendly), an irish girl(4got her name), african americans (dominique-really funny, she's like whoopi goldberg!, andre, dell, lionel), an asian girl(esther), a filipino girl (shelly), an ethopian guy( yared who is doing biomedical engineering in grad school, looks like john legend though), mike (physics grad school, he's a Teaching Assistant for physics!, I could ask him to help me in physics) and loads more which 4got their names.

Met Gene a white guy who happens to be a parole officer cum youth worker on Stony campus for 17 years. I must say he looks like Steve Austin of WWE only much more friendly not violent!

I invited a local friend, Evan and a Junior year, M'sian friend Lysha to check out BASIC. We prayed and worshiped with a radio. Since the keyboardist (andre) has to attend a meeting. Really funny though, cos I haven't worshiped with a CD before.

Worship was so good, songs were really familiar (Heart of Worship, This is my Desire, I could sing of Your love etc.). When we prayed I felt so relieved to hear the first prayer on campus. Finally am assured and secured that there are Christians on campus. Christians to pray with. Christians that I can relate to. Without Christians friends to hang out with I'll die spiritually. I thanked God continuously..

There's loads of other Christian groups to check out. Korean CF, Chinese CF, Chi Alpha CF, Inter Varsity CF, Graduate CF and many more. I can't wait to meet more Christians on campus for these CFs work together and sometimes have joined events. Things are looking up now. Rest assured, now that I know that they are other brothers and sisters I can relate to.. Thank You Lord...

of a new enviroment

2007-09-07T09:43:00.000-05:00

My first few days of this week has been hectic for me. trying to get my classes right and getting an approval from the BME dept (which happens to be on the 18th floor of the university hospital, 20 mins walk from main campus). Dr.Frame (BME undergrad director) told me that I have to do well for this semester (esp. BME 100) in order to get into the BME dept.

And later, I found out that the my advisor on orientation day, gave me the wrong math class! Gosh! What's worse? the right class for me has been closed! Spent like 2 hours trying to find the AMS 210 instructor so that he could let me in.

Our M'sian gang lined up for nearly 2 hours just to get $5 tickets to Six Flags (One of the largest theme park in the New Jersey). It was all in vain after 2 hours, for the tickets are sold out. We opt for LIRR (long island railroad) $6 tickets to Jamaica. Yeah, we're checking out the city next wednesday..since it's a holiday. (hope that the trains aren't packed)

And then, I met Sharon's Brooklyn high school friend, from HK. Had lunch and she told me loads about campus and how Brooklyn's like. And then I met her friends. we later checked out the apartment she live in. Sweeeet, she has a large bathroom and a double room (2 inhabitants). And i met a Greek guy from the EST 325 class there. Really friendly dude.

Oh well, I kinda like my dorm (even though we're the only ones staying on the ground floor). Loads of amenities are in close proximity; kitchen, restroom, laundry eg. Suite mates are fine, but they get noisy night.. ( I don't really mind unless I'm studying). They're a funny bunch.

How am I lately? Again, I did not do well in my final semester in INTI. 1 B+ and 2 B-. Maybe it's my fault or is it the lecturer's fault? (1 guy allows cheating). At least I know I that I did it without cheating. But I can't take it as a bargaining chip with God to bless me cos' it's partly my fault too ( i guess).. Discouraged now, a song echoes from the depths of my mind..

All I can Say, David Crowder

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

And didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down

Chorus:
And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give

Bridge:
I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

The Lord's been good to me ever since I got here. He's been granting me favor. I've got permission to get into the classes I want even though they're closed already. But He gave it to me. About BME 100 (Intro to Biomed Eng), there were problems with admin (i was initially not given permission by BME dept. but Dr. Frame can't do anything bout it now, but to give me the course) but He gave it to me anyway... There is light after walking through a long dark tunnel. There'll be light at the end of the tunnel. A glimpse of hope, worry not about the destination but the journey. Cliche statement, but profound. That's the word of God.

of campus life

2007-09-03T19:54:00.000-05:00

it's been 2 days now since i moved into Kelly Quad. dorm mates are super friendly. my korean roommate is a christian and has a car!

he took me to wal-mart today to get some supplies 5 minutes drive away from stony brook.
to my amazement, i met a couple of m'sian students! it's so rare! but we're all happy to see each other and conversing in our accent comfortably with an american twist.

i met this malaysian guy who happens to be from Help college, and lives in kota kemuning too!! oh gosh! we laughed till we our stomachs hurt!!

tomorrow's the 1st day of classes and we're all sleeping early. i'm equally excited as them.

here's a song of praise to Him which i find has a very refreshing tune:

Open Skies by David Crowder

Praise Him under open skies
Everything breathing praising God
In the company of all who love the King
I will dance, I will sing
It could be heavenly
Turn the music loud, life my voice and shout
From where I am
From where I've been
He's been there with me
He's built a monument
His very people
So let his people
Sing, sing, sing

And it's so wonderful
Just to be here now

CHORUS:
Praise Him under open skies
Everything breathing praising God
In the company
Of all who love the King

Praise Him under open skies
Everything breathing praising God
In the company of all who love the King
Let us dance, let us sing
It could be heavenly
Turn the music loud and sing

Lift your voice to heaven
Lift up your head and sing
To the One who gave his love
This is our offering
Lift your voice to heaven
Lift up your head and sing
To the One who gave His son
Here our lives we bring

From wherever you are
Wherever you've been
He's been there
So let his people sing

And it's so wonderful to be here now
Wherever you are wherever you've been
He's been there

look at the blueness of sky, ponder on the greatness of Him..

things are looking up now...

2007-08-31T23:01:00.000-05:00

it's been a week since i got here. settling down was relatively simple (i guess) thanks to the Lees for making transition easy for me. they have been such great hosts, making me feel welcome and getting used to the lifestyle here.

today we went to white castle for breakfast. famous for its small rectangular burgers (and cheap too, 56cents per piece). you could have it in just one go. and for lunch, the Lees brought me to Flushing, Queens. Chinatown to be exact. ate in a malaysian restaurant. to my amusement satay, char kuey teow and hokkien noodles tastes 85% authentic. and in the restaurant i can here, m'sian cantonese dialogs going around, and a wall painted map of m'sia. it really felt like home, since the owner hails from ipoh.

on the way back in the car, i listened to this song called "Blessed be Your name" over a Christian channel. it's lyrics made me remember of how God has been faithful to me. He has brought me this far... and He'll continue His work in me until my very last breath.

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name

Stony gave me permission to take BME 100: an introductory course for Biomedical Engineering. which is good, if i do well in it, it'll be a ticket for me to get into the Biomed Dept. (since i'm give a conditional offer. i'm actually in college of arts and science instead of college of engineering). looks like the Lord's been good to me. He has always been. It's just that i fail to see it at times. hard to imagine, all the hard times i've been through were actually molding times for me. and i thank Him for that. i read a scripture yesterday which really shot me. so relevant to me that i need to share it:

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1 : 2-4

I took up biomedical engineering because I like to contribute to saving lifes like what a doctor does, but I like machines too. Hence biomedical engineering, the machinery part of medicine. It's like saving people's lifes not with a knife but with machines... Now that's my passion...

How can I not thank You??

I've got the credits!!

2007-08-30T19:30:00.002-05:00

Oh yeah! They gave me full transfer of all my core subjects! (Physics, Calculus, Chemistry, Differential Equations). Pheeewww, what a relieve! I need not take any of these courses again and need not take the pesky math placement exam and the writing one too!

Thank you Daddy!

Sutherland was like looking at my calculus course description; he goes, "uhuh, yeah, good good. that'll do".. awww thank you so much!

Guess I'm a Junior now (3rd year student) which means I have 2 years more to graduation!

Thank you all for your prayers. Thank you Daddy for hearing me..

Thank you Daddy....

I've got the credits!!

2007-08-30T19:30:00.001-05:00

of orientation day

2007-08-29T20:46:00.001-05:00

*Charles B. Wang Center

*staller center of the arts (trains performances and organizes on campus shows)

*yawns, boring speeches

*replica chariot

*neat architecture (Wang Ctr)

*Jasmine (for those who are homesick)

*where's the water from those fountain heads?

Yesterday:
Stony Brook is indisputably one of the most diverse campus in the States. Yesterday was orientation day for undergraduates. Met a lot of people (but we left for different paths after campus tour). Here's a tiny scoop of diversity I've tasted:

1) A Korean girl - freshman, very friendly, gave me her contact, biology major
2) A German girl - blonde, 10 month exchange student, music major (classical piano), from bavaria (to be exact), transfer
3) A Brazilian Korean guy - speaks portuguese, freshman, economics major, had snacks together
4) A Canadian girl - approached me first and asked, "Where are you from?", toronto, freshman
5) An Indian guy - didn't talked much, computer science major, exchanged a few words and then left
6) A Filipino guy - freshman, business major, migrated to NY
7) A Japanese girl - my orientation leader, got excited when I told her I'm Malaysian (cause she knows another Malaysian guy who happens to be funny too), gave her my email, sophomore, politics major (i guess), really really friendly

After campus tour, I get to wander around campus and I came upon the Charles B. Wang Center (motto: "Sharing Asian and American Cultures"). Went inside and took a look around. Pretty neat. It boasts a chapel, lecture halls, theaters, Jasmine (restaurant that serves Indian, Japanese, Chinese, Korean food). Sometimes, there'll be cultural performances held in the Wang Center and it has a replica of a bronze chariot on display too! Neat!

Today:
Was up since 4am to study for my math placement test later this day. It's called the "Crammer" by the locals. You cram and stuff all you can into your head before and exam. Spent bout 11 hours revising (breakfast, lunch and nap in between) before I left for Stony. And when I'm there, I met this Japanese guy who followed me to the Math Dept for the placement test. They gave us iMacs to do our tests. Cool. While waiting, I logged into my yahoo mail and then...

"RE: ENQUIRY"
Dear Kevin,
I don't think the placement exam is necessary for you. I will formally evaluate your courses on thursday, at your orientation (it would help if you have a description and can bring it with you, even if it isn't in English). If it turns out that the placement exam is indeed necessary, you can take it later.

Prof Sutherland.

What??!! I was up since 4am to study and now you're telling me that I'm exempted?!! I emailed him yesterday evening, and I just got a reply this afternoon. Aww man..
I told the person in charge that I've gotta leave. He told me to talk to the guy in black which happens to be Sutherland. Seems to be a really friendly guy. He remembered my email and that he'll see me tomorrow to evaluate my math courses. Oh well, I'm relieved I need not take this test, but I've wasted time travelling here and preparing for the test. I called Prof Lee to take me home. Sorry....

of churches

2007-08-26T15:57:00.001-05:00

The basement cum dining area

Tina sharing about Harvard CF

Long Island Alliance Church

It's Sunday now. Followed The Lees to their Chinese Church in Dix Hills, probably 10 minutes drive from home. Name's Long Island Alliance Church. The congregation consists of mostly Chinese but has a White pastor and some Blacks too. Some Hispanics too. First, Sunday Schools (kinda like bible study ones for all ages up to college students, not just for kids. ) and the Chinese Service run simultaneously (Mandarin and Cantonese). Then it'll be snack time. Tried the classic New Yorker's breakfast; bagel. They look like donuts, only less sweeter and tastes like bread. They slice it into half and spread cheese all over it.

After that, the English service commence. I would say it's pretty conservative and much quiet but it's fine. Oh yeah, I made a few friends today; (Kevin, computer scientist; Egel, Indonesian computer scientist; Tina Tang, Harvard grad currently serving in Harvard-Radcliffe CF; Don, Stony Brook freshman). Kevin (getting married next year) told me loads about dorm tips, the dos and don'ts. It appears Tina knows a Harvard friend of mine (Hoong Ern). "Oh yeah, he's a good kid, he helps out alot and plays the piano".. says Tina. Oh yes, I met another
guy, Alex who plays the guitar (owns a $900 ovation semi acoustic) and drums.

After service lunch is served at the basement. Most Chinese churches provide meals but it ain't free. Well, since I'm a guest, I had buffet down there for FREE. hehe.

After that we went to "Bed Bath and Beyond" to get some pillows and towels. Paid $58.62 for; 2 pillows, clothe hanger, 1 towel and 6 hand towels. Gosh, why am I writing this??

Next door is Circuit City (electronic chain store). PSPs are cheap here, it costs $159 (approximately RM500) and I checked out the PS3 (*whistling tone; sweeeeeeeet graphics!!!).

Oh well, that's it for now. Ever since I'm here, I don't know what to write. Seems my writing style has changed though.

of Dix Hills escapades..

2007-08-24T08:44:00.000-05:00

*interstate 495 will take you all the way to manhattan

*a big tree

After a hearty breakfast cooked by Mrs Lee, I decided to do a little recon around the neighborhood. With my trusty PDA, I took some (not-so-decent-pictures-taken-by-a- 1.3MP) of some houses and the neighborhood.

Houses here in the suburbs are huge. Boasting their own mini basketball court, swimming pool, garden and a garage. Thick greens blanket this middle-class neighborhood.

of jet lags

2007-08-24T05:29:00.000-05:00

hate to admit it, but i'm experiencing minor jet lags.

0255: woke up.
0300: tried to sleep.
0315: went online.
0330: read dSLR reviews.
0335: oh yes, friends to chat with! sat on the throne while reading a book, read bible...
0400: tried to sleep again.
0410: can't... oh well, what's the internet for?
0420: "it's you again?" chatted longer..
04(something): tried to sleep...
0500: 20 odd minutes of shut eye.
0530: say, it's sunrise!
0600: online again.
0634: blogging now. listening to some jazz.
0700: probably opt for a morning walk around Dix Hills.

*in new york time.
* it's a rough estimate.

about Stony.

went there yesterday. it' s not as big as i expected, but it's pretty decent for an education. was room assigned to Hamilton College, Kelly Quad. Roommate? A Korean guy, Lim.

checked out the engineering buildings. pretty impressive. (pulse lasers, loads of weird looking machines, some geeks playing with their laptops :-p). stony's real famous for its physics and chemistry..

*thanking you friends for chatting with me online, i'll be real lonely in the wee hours of the morning. God Bless ya folks!

new york day #2

2007-08-23T15:00:00.000-05:00

I've adjusted well I think. It's strange though, people say you'll need 1 week to get used to the local time. Stranger enough, I haven't felt any jet lag. I woke up naturally at 8am today.

Just came back from Stony Brook. Got to see the college. It's not that big though but has a decent environment for an education. They assigned me to a room near by my classes. And best of all, it's near 7-eleven and Long Island Railway (it could me all the way to NYC!!).. Say my campus is really multiracial.. Got loads of Koreans and Europeans. That'll be neat!

Got a Korean room mate. Hope to know more about Korea through him.

Guess i better take a nap now.. ZZZZZzzzzzzz...

God Bless!

reached..

2007-08-22T16:05:00.000-05:00

finally, i've arrived to the Land of the Free.. after 2 years of prayer (well, i wasn't that a fervent prayer..)

thank you all for sending me off and am really appreciated it.

due to my recent exposure to korea, i began to fall in love with its language and country. reached seoul at bout 930am (m'sia time) and begin walking around the transit terminal. it's huge!! wish that i could snap pictures but i've got no camera :( i just love the way the air stewardess speak the language politely (korean airlines from kl-seoul-jfk). spent rm50 just to get 10000 won to get a decent meal. and since i was in korea, i wanna try some authentic korean cuisine but can't find. Went for KFC instead but later found out that there's a shop selling korean cuisine opposite to KFC! sobs

and i left for JFK by 11am (10am m'sia time). 13 hours on the seat is really tiring and gave me butt sores. the remedy? this korean dude introduced himself to me. i appears he's back to New Jersey a summer's long break. we talked about each other's countries and later found out that he's a Christian too! Double amen. He's name (man shong-something, sorry dude i forgot). i'll just call u man anyway.

touched down on JFK on the 22nd August 2007 (1155am New York time- 2355 m'sia time). it's 12 hour difference in time. Me and Man queued up to clear customs for nearly an hour!

Finally my father's friend picked me up and brought me to Queens. Brought me to this district called Flushing (don't ask me why the name). Flushing appears to be nicknamed United Nations. Wow, just look at the number of Asians (Chinese, Korean, Pakistani, Japanese) walking around. It doesn't feel like you're in America though. Then he brought me to a thai restaurant where u can find fried kuey tiow and ice kacang. not bad. Just had curry beef. (not as authentic as from m'sia, but it's the close as u can get). Now i'm in his house in dix hills, long island. nice house, and he has a large back yard (kinda like a small forest with all sorts of vegetation). but i haven't got a dslr! :(

how's the temperature? Cooling, 14-16C. feeling way sleepy now, that's why my writing's weird. like genting when it's at night.

jet lag? (shut eye a little while in car). kinda feel little sleepy now...

till then, God Bless!

just counting...

2007-08-21T03:37:00.000-05:00

all is packed...
just counting the hours..
praying, music,

Lord be with me

thank You.

2007-08-20T10:47:00.000-05:00

Finally, my life's next chapter is beginning to unfold. After 2 years begging God to grant me favor from New York, I'll be flying there tomorrow. Thank You Daddy...

Last night's party gave me much sweet memories of friends that I've met along the way. Thank you all for coming encouraging me. Thank you for your presence and gifts. And thank you for dunking me into the pool (twice). Thank you, relatives for helping me out. Thank you parents (esp Mum for organizing the party). (for pics, click on Kev's flickr link).

Time is really a precious gift from God. It cannot be recycled but only use once. Like a star that shoots across the night sky. It's shimmering glow comes and go briefly It's beauty will never return. I hope I had more time to spend with my family and friends...

Through it all, He sustained me. Held my hand and placed my feet on solid rock. Walked with me all the way. College was tough for me. And I'm glad He gave me what I asked for. Found peace and hope through this verse:

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

Great Expectations by Steven Curtis Chapman

The morning finds me here at heaven's door
A place I've been so many times before
Familiar thoughts and phrases start to flow
And carry me to places that I know so well
But dare I go where I don't understand
And do I dare remember where I am
I stand before the great eternal throne
The one that God Himself is seated on
And I, I've been invited as a son
Oh I, I've been invited to come and ...

Believe the unbelievable
Receive the inconceivable
And see beyond my wildest imagination
Lord, I come with great expectations

So wake the hope that slumbers in my soul
Stir the fire inside and make it glow
I'm trusting in a love that has no end
The Savior of this world has called me friend
And I, I've been invited with the Son
Oh I, I've been invited to come and ...

We've been invited with the Son
And we've been invited to come and ...

Believe the unbelievable
Receive the inconceivable
And see beyond our wildest imagination
Lord, we come with great expectations

*another beautiful song to suit this season of my soul

Everything Glorious

2007-08-15T21:45:00.000-05:00

I've got a C Programming paper in 4 hours time (what's the need to study? i'm leaving next week!). Below is a song that I would listen when I'm down. The lyrics clearly states that our Lord makes everything glorious including me, you and everything around us. Plans He has in store for you is glorious. Look at the birds chirping on those trees! They're glorious as well. Look at the stars that glimmer in the night sky, they're glorious! Look at the great oceans, they're glorious! Above all, He is glorious.

"When one feels like in a dark pit, remember that there's ONE who IS glorious who can shine in the darkest of places and deliver one from any place no matter how dark the depth of one's soul"

Everything Glorious by David Crowder

The day is brighter here with You
The night is lighter than it's hue
Would lead me to believe
Which leads me to believe

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
What does that make me?

My eyes are small but they have seen
the beauty of enormous things
Which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory
You are glorious You are glorious
From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious
Which leads me to believe
why I can believe that

*my eyes are small, but they have seen the beauty of enormous things...

Life's Uncertainties

2007-08-15T07:13:00.000-05:00

It's been a grueling(not so) week for me. Papers are tough I would say, and I can hear New York calling me.. I imagine myself strolling down the legendary streets of the Big Apple. I picture myself taking pictures of Central Park and dropping by Columbia U(that Ivy league-university you see in Spiderman 3) to visit a friend. Just like Ben Stiller's "Night at the Museum", I would visit that historical establishment. Mingling with locals, joining them in their daily commute to work armed with a bagel in their hands as breakfast. It took me sometime to realize, from the moment I said "No" to Iowa and "Yes" to New York that God has plans for me there...

Street ministry has always been my passion. I love conversing with street people, sharing and showing them the love of Christ that radiates from within. I would love to capture smiles on their faces in pictures (looking at them just the way our Father looks at us with a smile on His face).

A few more days left in this country. Yeah, I get emotional at times. I could use a little more time here and do more things, but my time is up. I've got to go. I feel that I'm leaving something very important (like a part of me that I can't let go). I miss my cell group. Still remember we started at about 5 people. Then it grew gradually. 7 in attendance is fair. And we moved to different locations for our gatherings. And then we'll get a drink in SS2 and sometimes some nasi lemak near Maybank. And I still remember I prayed with my cell 2 years ago, begging Him to give me favor from New York. And now I got it. I miss chilling out in Oasis though. The people I've met along the way. I miss the ping pong sessions (sorry if i made a lot of noise!).

New York will be full of uncertainties. Will my expectations be met? Will build a close circle of friends? Will I find my other half there? (How's their food? :-p)... Questions like these pound my heart like the Blitz of London 1940. I just want the Lord to be with me. Closer than a buddy, closer than a girlfriend and closer than a parent. Be with me on the plane, in Seoul, over the Pacific and to JFK and beyond that.

"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path" Ps 119 : 105

Here is a song i find truly sacrificial and had taught me to offer everything to Him (though it's hard).

Offering by Paul Baloche

The sun cannot compare to the glory of Your love,
There is not shadow in Your presence,
No mortal man would dare to stand before Your throne,
Before the Holy One of heaven,

It's only by Your blood,
And it's only through Your mercy,

Lord I come,
I bring an offering of worship to my King,
No one on earth deserves the praises that I sing,
Jesus may You receive the honor that You're due,
Oh Lord I bring an offering to You,
I bring an offering to You...

*listening to this another beautiful piece by Baloche, makes me ponder on how sacrificial his(Baloche's) heart is. "I bring an offering to You", may I sing that to the King who lives within us.
"I bring an offering to You", may these words be my daily meditation of Him...

Of Sunday School Kids

2007-08-12T18:48:00.000-05:00

A friend of mine once said that I was good with kids. She told me that I should try serving in Sunday School. So why not? I opt for the 3-4 age group in my church (Glad Tidings PJ).

After a whole year of serving there as a teacher assistant, I was finally "decommissioned" by Jessica, "my boss" for she gave me one month (June) off before I leave for the States. Oh yeah, about the kids... There were a mixed bag of nuts. Some are really quiet and shy (esp the girls), some just wanna have fun (esp the boys) and there's this particular pastor's kid (can't remember his name though) who always take the front and assume being the "Sunday School Teacher's Assistant". Really funny though! When it was worship time, he goes to the front and tells the kids to follow him in song ( while referring to the teacher). When it comes to the Word, (remember those cartoon bible characters your Sunday school teacher sticks on the white board?) he deliberately sticks them and repeats what the teacher has said about them.

I have to admit it, the most amusing time is during the art time. As the teacher gave the children the art work (kinda like printed papers you find in your coloring book), the kids begin their unique style of coloring. They gave people purple skin or perhaps colored the whole picture with a single color. David (a 4 year old) gave Jesus a brown afro! Talk about style!

I get pushes at the back at times and sometimes when I'm standing, David will come hugging my leg begging me to carry him (so that he'll feel like Spiderman).Oh yes, kids do fight here! Fight over toys especially. Well, that's Jessica's job though. She's the expert.

I never knew kids could be this fun.... Kinda teaches me to be like a father though. So, hear ye, hear ye, all creatures of God, do serve in your local Sunday School. Rewards are plentiful (and hilarious at times).

See the boy in green? That's David during Word.

During art time

A quiet boy( I couldn't remember his name. try zooming into his name tag)

The girls.. Quiet as ever (they finish the fastest and neatest)

A night with Him.

2007-08-11T06:25:00.000-05:00

In the silence of night, armed with my trusty pencil and a soft rubber in which its particles are scattered all over the make-shift table, I began studying. I can't believe it. From circuits to inductance, large amounts of data are processed and stored in my "organic hard drive". At times, I grabbed the guitar struck a few notes accompanied with song. A moment of solitude..

Last Thursday, I was stranded in college until late at night. I was actually in Oasis alone. Well, not alone I guess, a friend of mine over to get a book and later left after a brief moment of conversing. And then I was alone. Alone.

I lay lazily on the couch and began to wonder in amusement how much God had brought me through life. Through high school, through college. I hate to admit it, but I'm going to miss INTI. Such irony! I used to dislike INTI's policies and now I'm on the verge of dropping a tear. Not INTI, but the people, the friends I have made and the friends I had bid farewell. That's life.

I talked to God. Telling Him how wise and sovereign He is thanking Him of all the things he has and is going to do in me. Of course the cliche description would be that of God is the Potter and I am the clay. Mould me as You wish. I would like to picture myself as a canvas. God is the Painter. Paint me as You wish.

I've got approximately 1 week left before I embark on a journey of discovery in the States. I prayed for the people I will leave behind and for the people I would meet there. I believe that God gave me pictures. Pictures of people I would meet there. He speaks to me with pictures.

After 30 minutes, I got a call from Mum. She'll come pick me up at 2315 hours. Guess, I have to move on. Move on to a different phase of life.

Here's a song that stirred up my passion for Christ. It sings of how sovereign our Lord is. Even His name has divine power. A name so powerful, that mountains bow down to His name.

Your Name by Paul Baloche

As the morning dawns and evening fades,
You inspire songs of praise
That rise from earth to touch Your heart
And glorify Your name,

Your name is a strong and mighty tower,
Your name is a shelter like no other,
Your name let the nations sing it louder
Cause' nothing has the power to save,
But Your name..

Jesus in Your name we pray,
Come and fill our hearts today,
Lord give us strength to live for You,
and glorify Your name,

*Bless Your name, Lord.

Mama-mia, Food

2007-08-09T19:11:00.000-05:00

Here's an essay I wrote for my university:

A Truckload of Thoughts.

Since the dawn of civilization, human has always strived to advance politically, socially and economically. From the monuments of ancient times to the elephantine skyscrapers of the present, food is the prime factor behind all these accomplishments. It is food that made the world population reached the sixth billion marker. It is food has the power to kill or to heal.

This four letter word subject has come a long way through history. It was food that our ancestors raged war amongst each other; it was food that brought great civilizations to their splendor and glory and it was food that gave rise to technology. A growing population needs more land to cultivate food. When there is a land struggle issue, neighboring tribes will launch warfare against one another. To work, humans need food to produce energy. An ample supply of food will guarantee the prosperity of an empire. Ancient Rome, the Mesopotamians and Egyptians recognized the importance of food which in turn helped these great civilizations achieved their golden age and left a permanent mark in history. Food brought about technological advancement to societies encouraging them to further improve cultivation and harvesting techniques. An anthropologist once said: Food is the catalyst for progress.

In our present society where time is precious, society will always look for ways and means to carry out tasks in a fast and efficient fashion. Since the establishment of the fast food joint, our ever hasting society would make it a point to dine out with an excuse of being “In a hurry and there are much better things to do”. We stuff our bodies with huge amount of fast food classics like burgers, French fries and carbonated drinks ignoring the fact that this diet causes great harm to our body system.

As the name suggests, fast food is fast food. For the sake of speed and time, traditional wholesome cooking methods are replaced with the unhealthy deep fry technique. Tonnes of processed burger patties are submerged into hot oil. With the high temperature and the good conducting properties of oil, cooking process is extremely fast. [Adapted from Deep Frying at Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deep_fry].

The fast food entrepreneurs claim that fast food is the way of the future; “..it is future food”. I could not imagine its detrimental effect on our health being. If majority of the crowd embraces this new fast food philosophy, I believe that the average lifespan will decrease to 50 odd years. Imagine walking down the street in the not so distant future, “admiring” the huge bulk humans have carry on themselves. It could be a “heavier Planet Earth”. Obesity is already a big issue here in the States. More and more people are dying of heart attacks rather than from automobile accidents.

Due to globalization, the fast food culture has spread to all four corners of the world promoting itself as a trend. Fashionably trendy, fast food has been assimilated to local cultures which lead to the invention of various local equivalents. In South East Asia where rice is the staple diet, Kentucky Fried Chicken (KFC) joints have used local knowledge and integrated this worshipped grain into their menus. Their chicken dishes are served with rice. Furthermore, Pizza Hut in this region has made a few gastronomical pizzas. Browsing through their menus, one can expect unique flavors of pizza such as Tandoori Chicken, Masala and Kebab. Like the spread of Far East cuisine to the West, fast food is an exchange to the East.

Like designer clothes, fast food has a unique marquee in the market. The food industry tends to offer immediate satisfaction through the consumers’ taste buds. This is one of the strong selling points of fast food; it not only satisfies one’s hunger but bring instantaneous joy and amusement through the one’s taste buds. It is been promoted as a luxury, a social event and above all, a trend. Food advertisements on the media such as billboards, internet, and television all have something in common. Food advertisers make it a point to visit a fast food chain as if one pays a visit to a their local fashion boutique. A fashion accessory it seems, many have fall “victims” to these advertising campaign to the point many feel pressured to eat at a fast food joint because it is promoted as the “in-thing”.

“[In fact], food is the place where the needs of the body and the needs of the soul converge, to offer nourishment and the meaning in equal measure.” This phrase from Roger Scruton’s; Eating the World gave me an insight of how much food had developed into our private life until it has a significant spiritual value. I am a utilitarian. I believe that the moral worth of an action is determined solely by its contribution to overall utility. Food has no spiritual value; it is tangible, physical, designed by our Maker to offer us nourishment for our bodies. A chemical factory [body] it seems, it takes in raw organic materials [food], processes it, and outputs manufactured products [energy and nourishment]. This simple illustration clearly demonstrates the role of food to our bodies. It has no spiritual value, not a “need of the soul”. If one needs food for the soul, turn to God’s word for it is written: “Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.”

I agree with Scruton’s description about food being perceived differently amongst cultures and people of different social classes. Poor societies have no time admiring its presentation but simply consume food for the means of survival. However, the rich view food as “a luxury, an ornament, and an invitation to excess” [Cited from Roger Scruton’s; Eating the world]. If one shall compare food eaten by the rich and the poor, it takes little effort to distinguish its [food] respective aesthetics. In a nutshell, the poor “eat to live” where as the rich “live to eat”.

Though society will have various perspectives, food will always remain a vital part of our lifes. Food will continue to evolve with our ever changing society.

Big Apple it shall be.

2007-05-20T09:52:00.000-05:00

It's been a whole week of thinking and praying(not that hard though), finally Stony Brook U, New York seems to favor me more. Here's my reasoning, U of Iowa gave me very little credit hours (38 out of 50 credits) and they'll continue with my transfer GPA (my GPA now is 3.01, not that good for an engineer). Well, Stony on the other hand, gave me 40+ credits and my GPA will be reseted. Down side is, they gave me a conditional admission, meaning I have to show them some improvement before they put me in Biomedical Engineering. I'll be placed in College of Arts and Science instead of College of Engineering until I show them I can get a GPA of 3.25 and above of any semester. Well, it's going to be exciting and they'll keep an eye on my math( I must get at least get a B for my future math courses). Sounds bad eh? Not! It's the opportunity to do some ministry here, baby. If I improve, then they'll see the dramatic change and they'll know that Daddy(God) is with me dogg!

Here's something to spice life up:

The Hip-Hop Prayer:

"Yo wassup JC! How's it going Dogg? I'll be hanging around Your crib sometime later but I gotta do your thing here now, yeah? How's G? Tell him I said "hey". He must be real busy taking care of business. Oh yeah, remind him to tell his boys to come look after me yo, it's crazy down here! Listen Bro, You gotta help me with my thing yeah? You're the Big Daddy, and I'm Your boy yeah? Feel me right? You gotta help me Man.. Life in this ghetto aint't good, peeps doing crazy things, I gotta tell them bout You. I wanna be phat just like You, looking cool doing Your thing. I gotta run now... I know You've plenty of benjamins yeah? Well send me some yo! I wanna get some wheels to move around. Fo' shizzle You'll bless me! I know it Pops! Oh gosh I 4got! You'd just remind me! I can't serve benjamins and You the same time! I gotta remain loyal to You, cos' I'm Your boy. Heaven yeah! I gotta run now Dogg...Holy Nikes!!! Sweet kicks man, they look real white and sparkling! I love your bling-blings too! Peace out yo and Amen JC. "

*Note:-
G-Gabriel JC-Jesus Christ phat-cool benjamins-cash crib-heaven

New York miracle!

2007-03-24T11:47:00.000-05:00

Baby, yeah! Stony Brook University gave me a place dude! Talk about double blessing from Daddy! U of Iowa and now this! It's the 2 best universities out of the 4 I applied for. Indeed God has the best for me! After 2 years of struggling in college, finally something end up for good.

Stony is pretty competitive for admissions. Why? 1. Cheap 2. 40 minutes to Manhattan 3. Pretty good reputation. 1 out of 8 international applicants will actually get admitted. They require a 3.3 GPA but I'm a 2.97! Talk about a miracle baby!

Now, the Lord has blessed me, I've got to pray for which is the one is best for me.. Yeah...Iowa or New York? U of Iowa is more established (ABET since the 70s) but is more expensive. Stony is cheaper but they just got ABET for Biomedical Engineering last year(2006)! I've got an insider's tip, Stony's lecturers are pretty demanding, and someone told me that Iowa's is pretty tough too.

Now I'm in a dilemma.

It's a miracle baby!!

2007-02-25T08:49:00.000-06:00

Oh dude!! You gotta believe this, I got into U of Iowa!! It's a miracle baby! I'm below their requirements and my transcript has Bs and Cs everywhere. They gave me an unconditional offer! Plus, they're are a very selective school and only enroll 7% international students! Instead of getting red packets this Chinese New Year, I got a WHITE PACKET with FedEx on it. And in it, instead of cash, is a letter of acceptance and a visa application form!! Oh yeah! Daddy gave me a white packet alright! Yeah! Dude!!Till now i can't stop laughing with joy, when i'm driving, in the shower, sleeping.. Let's give a shout out to the Dude up there who runs the show! WOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!

After 2 years of struggling in college, finally something end up for good! I have been reminded of the scripture :-

"And we know that for those who love God all things end up for good for those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

Praise the Lord. Finally something end up for good for me.. Thanks Daddy.

All things work for good

2007-01-14T10:08:00.000-06:00

It's been almost two years I started college. My grades aren't working the way I want it to be. Still experiencing God's favor in the midst of sorrow. I strongly agree that the love of God perpetuates my determination to press on, strive in times like these.

"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose"
-Romans 8:28

A verse so relevant to my current struggles. Give thanks to God for that. It's good that the Lord still is listening to His son's daily cry for help and replies with a timeless verse like this.

J's with me BROTHER!!

2006-11-28T09:29:00.000-06:00

* J= Jesus

Oh man, God is good! Yesterday I met in an accident, well a really minor one. A car crashed into my right rear side. She seems to go straight, but her lane is for only turning right. Yeah, she crashed into me because I have the right to turn right.. (OH I KNOW YOU'RE CONFUSED!)

Let's just keep it simple... She was in the wrong. She insisted me to pay her eventhough she crashed into me! We parted paths and went on home. But I didn't leave, I went back to the crash site and sketched a detailed map of the area. It appears that I was right all along! I gave her a call, and disagree with her.. So, the whole day has been frustrating.

I asked my friends to pray for me. I showed them what happen, and all of them agree that I am right. I was kinda pissed of at that girl ( don't worry, she's just a short one with tomboyish looks...don't think it's a hot chic!).

So I went to get the car and went to the police station with my two friends, Joseph and Jason (say, the J's eh?). I so happen to see that girl too. With a look of confidence, thinking of that she's so right she asked for my car plate number. Deep down I know that I'm right.

I prayed for God's peace and strength. I even asked for a kind and wise not a bias inspector to see this case. Earlier, I told my friends with enthusiasm, "I'm gonna get her and make her pay for it! J's WITH ME!!".. It's just me, when I'm enthusiasm and full of determination, I'll go on speaking like that.

Well, that tomboy went to the inspector first. It took about 20 minutes before she comes out. (Gosh! Isn't is that much to say when you're in the wrong?) After that it was my turn. The inspector seems like a nice dude with signs of white hair and wrinkles giving me an estimate of he being 50 something. He seems like a nice guy, he gave me a piece of paper and I drew and told him how exactly it happen. He happens to be busy on the phone. Well, nevermind.. I notice my friends appeared beside me.

The dude nodded and said that I was right. He asked the girl to come in. He then told her that she's wrong! (Haiyah!! Take that!!) Man, he's such a good dude, he pulled back the report and told her that you can settle this outside, exempting her from paying impound. Haha!! J answered my prayers! What a moment of relieve! GOD IS GOOD DUDES!!! HAHAHA J's for JESUS and HE IS REAL BABY!!!

Man! that's good, after that, I took her to my car wanting to show what she has done. The dent she insisted me to go to her brother's workshop to get it fixed. Immediately, I said no! My friends helping me too. This is my right and your wrong, I have the right to get where I wish my car to be fixed. I have this impression that she was doing some damage control, trying to play cheap with me. Well, the repair will cost around RM300.

We shook hands and parted. I told here to be expecting my mechanic's quotation within this week. After that, I took jo and jas to salmon steak to treat them for helping me. OH yeah! LORD HELP ME NOT TO BE GULLIBLE. I need you to be my advisor, my guide. HELP ME

Well, I'm gonna get the car fixed and make her pay for it! muahaha!

GOD IS GOOD!!! Hooray!! What a sign of relieve!

HALLELUJAH BABY!!!

"Finishing is better than the beginning"

2006-10-18T06:12:00.000-05:00

Life is full of ups and downs, like a cosine or sine graph that waves constantly up and down. One minute everything is smooth sailing and then a split second comes, your life comes crushing down. Ever wonder that to everything that happens, there is a reason behind it?

Recently, I've been feeling way discourage about my academics. I might not be working as hard (partly of me to be blamed) but things seems to get worse and worse. I cried out to God only when my exams come and when there ain't any, I won't beg God like crazy. Sounds familiar isn't it? We treat God as if He is the "Ultimate problem solving machine" while we neglect His love and peace and joy that He'll so gladly give to us if we ask. Someone told me when we pray to God, don't look to got but LOOK AT GOD. Look at His beauty and splendor and His love for us. Hehe of course, I've been naughty sometimes... :-) Man, I've been playing too much PC games and my finals are like in two weeks time!

Well I've been reading Ecclesiastes since this week. And the first impression I got was that this book is primarily about "WISDOM". And this morning while I was seating on the "throne" (if you get what I mean, I bet you do that too every morning!) I came upon this specific verse saying.. "The finishing is more important than the beginning" and it has been ringing in my mind for the whole day everytime I fret about my studies. Currently I'm a second year (sophomore student) and am not doing so well. Maybe God is trying to cheer me up and to just press on and finish my degree for the finishing is better than the beginning.

A note of encouragement to those depress dudes out there like me, don't fret, just press on and end it with God in style!

Cool!

PTL!!!

2006-09-28T07:12:00.000-05:00

Praise The Lord!!! Amen to that dudes and dudettes!! I don't what to say, but Praise the Lord.. Let everything that has breath praise the Creator forever! GOd is great and mighty! Words can't explain how wise is He who sits upon the throne, governing the universe and all the lifeforms on it. Praise the Lord forever and ever! Let every part of you praise Him from your arms, legs, head .. down to every cell in your body down to the nucleus of every cell!!! Praise His name for He is the great Jehovah, the Lord of the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end! Praise His name!!

National Dean's List 2008

2006-08-24T08:55:00.000-05:00

Aww man, Kevin? National Dean's List 2008?? Haha! I know what you're thinking, a dude like me struggling with college especially Calculus! Hey it'll come true! God willing! If I work hard towards it, with faith and strength divinely given, hey! Why not? Perhaps a Nobel Price Laureate? Hey, I have big dreams man! Dream big, pray hard, work hard; there's a BIG GOD UP THERE! He'll never stop untill He has finished His divine plan for your life! Yes, and He is well working in me! Amen to that!

Life isn't about doing well in exams, getting good grades and getting into an Ivy League. Here's a question. What lies beyond that? Upon graduation, your focus will be on your career. Then, you will experience a paradigm shift to impressing your boss, getting a life partner, buy a big house, big car, CEO at 27 and retire at 30. What's next? Another, shift.. Another life transforming process. Now, your wealth will be invested into your health. And your aim could be living a healthy life, leaving a legacy and making sure your kids will not follow your mistakes and to live a good and prosperous life (hopefully they'll be better then you, in all aspects, not to make mistakes; as some would say having a high probability percentage due to traits inherited in their genes, courtesy of you) What happens next? You breath your last, the final puff of oxygen. From the very first you breath as a baby crying (a newborn baby's cry is seen as a good sign medically; that you are functioning properly). You closed your eyes. And the very moment you open it again... Where would it be? Reincarnation? Hell? Heaven? Ressurected? Having your physical entity being dimished? As a Christian myself, I believe that you'll be in God's arms. He'll give you a hug- like a brother, like someone you've known for so long, like a parent who'd waited patiently; expecting the return of a child :- "Well done my good and faithful servant" this will be the very words He'll speak to you. Oh yeah some folks might ask what language is He speaking to you? An African, a Japanese, a Portuguese and believers from all nations will be using a heavenly language only understood by those who speak it. Don't ask me. I've haven't been there, and I don't know what it sounds like.
And we'll be with Him forever and ever.. Sounds like a fairy tale right? Not! It's better than that! It might sound rather gay. ( for guys, you've probably heard of phrases like "Jesus loves you", "I love Jesus" or " Jesus is my Lover") You might think that Jesus is gay, or He is rather someone who loves everyone with no particular reason. You might even argue that He is loves everyone so that He could win people's hearts (kinda like lip service?). As a matter of fact, LOVE of Jesus is not a gay love or "one night stand love", it is a love that is absolutely perfect for us. He loves(perhaps it could be replace with; He's crazy over you!) us unconditionally. Not of the way you look like, who you are, your grades, your name. No! He accepts you just the way you are. Just the way you are.. He knows your heart's deep desires, your thoughts even right now when you read this. He is delighted over you. He even knew you even before you are born, he knows your name knowing what your parents will name you. He knows eveything. EVERYTHING.. Hey, not to scare you. Don't treat God like some Intelligence Agency, He just knows everything for He is God. Oh yeah, you might aslo heard of the "Holy Spirit/ Holy Ghost". Trinity? What nonsence is that? You might ask.. Well, you know chemistry, one matter could exist in three form? Solid, Liquid and Gas (yeah I know plasma, the forth state of matter, lets just leave this out for a moment). Same goes for the Trinity (which consists of God the Father aka Big Daddy aka Jehovah aka he has many names, Jesus and the Holy Spirit) all members of the Trinity coexist simoultaneously. Trinity =three in one. Get it dude?

Well, I hope you understand what I've been typing so far.. You've probably watched movies having actors and actresses so happen to curse using God's name.... Exorcism, or maybe the famed Da Vinci Code. You have plenty of questions. Wherever you're from, you could be God loves you just the way you are. Need more questions? Approach that Christian friend of yours. Ask him/her what's this Jesus thing all about. The answer is more than your question. Perhaps even deeper the meaning. Don't believe me? Give Jesus a try..

Doulos, what a blessing!!

2006-07-23T08:06:00.000-05:00

Wassup Jesus lovers!! I'm so blessed coming back from a trip to doulos, the ship with a lot of books and chics!! hahaha Seeing people of different nations on that boat working 2gether bringing glory to God...It's good Praise God..NOw i really wanna join them,.. and if they're sailing to US, i'll ask them to drop me in NEw York next Fall!! haha.. Save money on air tickets!!! hhahaa... Pretty smart eh?? I can't wait to go to NEw York!! Only one more year.. Actually, i planned to leave on August 06 last year..but due to my bad grades... It's delayed 1 more year... shucks!! Maybe God wants me to stay longer.. It's not the right time now though,. Oh well, 1 more year GOd!! Bring me there!! When i was driving home, I talked to GOd about how cool Doulos is despite its old age.. my reply was; "Do you know what makes me happy? Seeing people of different backgrounds united serving me".. Yeah.. the crew was so diversed.. I shaked hand with an Italian dude, and saw chics from Finland, America, South Korea..., Aww man, chics on board!! woohoo!!

"The Interview with God"

2006-07-09T07:54:00.000-05:00

Ever wished you could interview God? The One who made the universe and everything in it..The beginning and the end? aka. Da Man, Daddy, Friend, Brother, Father....He has many names though.. Well, i came upon this website "The Interview with God" check it out..and i was really touched with the poem there..

And there is the World CUp finals, the grand finale after a month long of fierce competition of football... My favourite team(brasil) is out courtesy of the French, that's why i want the French to lose and the Italians to win.. hahhaa... if not, the Italian mafia will treathen the French.. Nah, just joking!! hahhaa

Well, do pray for peace before, during and after the match.. Crazy things could happen...

Well, that's all folks see ya and God Bless and have a good match

FOOTBALL FEVER!!

2006-06-11T00:01:00.000-05:00

Goodness!! It's finally here!! FIFA World Cup 2006!! It's the time where guys all over the world unite in spirit of brotherhood to witness the world's most famous pastime in action live in Germany!! Woohoo!! Not to mention it's the time where all girls out there dread, of losing their fathers/husbands/brothers/boyfriends/what-so-ever to football!! Oh yeah, guys unite for the World Cup!! Woohoo!!

Sweeter with You too!! hahahha

2006-04-13T11:28:00.000-05:00

Aww man.. it's been such a looooooooooong time since i'd last wrote something here! Exams, Exams, assigments!! Don't blame me!! I'm not a super human you know! No time to blog too. Last week was like super hectic for me!! First there's this History Court trial where i'm the lead prosecutor..Mission?? Get a witch hanged from Salem!! The judge is who else?? Prof Borges with his "hammer" and his impersonation of judge adressing the court... With him saying.. "Order! Order!!!" We put up a great show.. esp when it comes to submit our "evidence" ranging from a voodoo doll, to a broom seat (u know? witches fly on brooms???!!!!) The whole "court" their heads off..And then there was the Defence attorney..Man!! SHe's good! Well, we lost but we had fun! It took 3 hours for the whole case.. We got so tired after that! Guess what?? I've got another assigment due on Friday!!. Sigh... We slept late at nights trying to finish up on our website for assignment... It was a last minute thing.... and we got 9/10!!! Praise the Lord! Then after that, there was finals!! Oh man! I'm seriously burnt out!! Sleeping late at nights and waking up early.. Finally the harder papers are finished.. Now i have a final paper on Monday.. I'm taking the whole day off for me!! hehehhee..

There was a time i went to church.. During prayer, i sensed something telling me... Look into Isaiah 55:5.."You will aslo command the nations, and they will come running to obey, because I, the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, have made you glorious.". Wow! What a revelation! Command the nations thingy.. THis is the first time (i think) that i got such super cool stuff from the bible that a voice just told me to turn to a random verse. Cool... heheh The Bible's an ocean of treasures.. Dig well and study it's treasures.. hehhehe God's been gracious.. Too good to me in my exams.. NOt to say that my papers were super easy... No there weren't.. (except calculus., it was moderate) esp CHemistry 2!! The whole class was like showing their sad faces after it... Seriously.. tough...But i managed to answer all of the questions... not sure off my answers.... they look like nonsense... Well, mom cheered me up today by printing me an email she got on9... It was a marked question paper with super hillarious, lame answers!! I laughed my head off till my stomach hurts!! mauahahhahahahaa!!! Seriously!!! Perhaps my paper wasn't that bad if compared to that email.. hahahahahha!!!

Untill then, it's getting late.,. My next paper is on Monday.. Then there is CF camp...Praise the Lord.. Easter's here too!!! THe day Jesus died on a Friday and rose on the third day (Sunday).. yeah... Tat's right.. Easter's got nothing to do with the bunny but it's actually about Christ's death and ressurection! Amen!!!

Faithful YOu are..

2006-03-15T08:39:00.000-06:00

It's been such a looooong time since i last updated this.. Been busy but a little too lazy to update my blog.. hehhee.. Well, how am i the past few weeks?? Hmm.. fine i guess. Am still alive by God's grace... I've been juggling my time wif so many things untill i end up tired and slept.. Guess, life's pretty tiring now... But i'm still grateful that GOd's been good.. TOday, my whole calculus class had our test 2.. Yeah, look at our faces after it... Sigh.. We've been "murdered" mentally... Gosh... Calculus...Ppl were like talking to each other and lamenting over it.. Yeah, me too. It bothered me for almost the whole day. And after the trauma.. as usual i get the most "conviction" to study! I went 4 lunch wif Adrian and Phoebe.. in AYA CAfe.... We had fun sharing bout lots of stuff bout God, and girls.. hehehee (Phoebe of course mentioned bout guys!) Heheh, it was great! Then i chilled in Oasis till 2. and We had meetinhg till 4.. Then i went to the library to "study" upon conviction!! hhahaa.. Never really been studying though...

Anyways dudes, God's been great to me.. Seriously, i've been not spending much time with HIm. Yeha, i'm gonna do it after this.. I really need to study as in study and increase my CGPA b4 i leave for US... Yeah, increase too in spiritual growth.. I'm the King's kid.. and alll blessings will flow to us who love Him.. But sometimes.. the blessing's already there.. we just need to claim it.. TO work for it... Yeah,.. God's gave me something.. I just need to work for it, to claim ownership to it..!!

Man, i feel tired

2006-02-19T09:03:00.000-06:00

It's been some time since i last updated my blog. I've been pretty busy though.. Tests, assignments0.. I even slept at 3 trying to finish studying my History. Gosh, i feel tired...My Tuesdays are a killer... lectures from 8-4pm.. No lunch breaks.. But thank God there's hourly breaks in which i tend to call it "extended breaks".. Instead of 10 min break, i'll strectch to 20minutes. Hehehe.. DUn blame me!! It's a long day for a dude like me.. Thank GOd i can have Mum's car untill Tuesday.. Yay!!!!

Yesterday was long.. i went to coll in the morning to paint banners and then went home to chill at bout 3pm. THen at 4:45pm, i left for church which starts at 5..(yeah, i know, i'm gonna be late). Worst still, a dude bang me from the back at the roundabout.. He seems real calm (so am i) and he paid me cash, gave me his number and namecard... Well, my car wasn't tat badly damaged.. Just a dent... But that dude's car bumper came off!! EVen worst still, there was a heavy rain later... Oh man, i'm gonna be super late 4 church. So i decided to lepak in Pyramid.. LAter i went for Orientation Nite in coll.. It lasts till 10 somethng. Later Jo, Joel, Daniel and me were at McD's.. We chatted for a while and gave an African fren, Louis a call..
We went over to his house and prayed untill it was 3am! Had loads of fun hearing his jokes esp, his immitation of a african american pastor preaching!! Hhahaa..

Been busy lately.. Got so many things to do.. I know that God's shaping me... Let us not get caught up wif our busyness untill we lose our focus on God.. Ultimately, God is everything that is good, He is way bigger than any of our probs and busyness... Yup, i know God's shaping me now.. Changing me for the better... It's good to live a CHristian life eventhough it's never easy.. It is filed wif hope and love that God provides.. Now, i need to spend more time wif God and to fall in love wif Him once again...

SO sweet wif YOu!!!

2006-02-08T09:29:00.000-06:00

Hey dudes!! Wassup?? Yesterday was super taxing for me! Can u imagine? 8 hours of classes! From 8am-4pm.. Oh man.... Plus, i'd chemistry test and Calculus quiz..So much for the ADP (all day party). Gosh, but thank God that i got the strengh to carry on.. Even though i got tired, i'd just carried on.. Then after tat, i crashed in Oasis' sofa...Ahhhh peace.. I got a nap which i don't how long i slept, till Siva woke me up.. ANd then there was practice at night... Can't sing well, my voice.. sore throat.. Then i followed Gabriel to give me a lift home..

Today was not as tiring as Tuesday.. just got 4 hours of classes. Then i went to "jaga" the valentine's day booth till it's 2pm.. Got some ppl to sit wif me too hehee.. By God's grace, managed to get 7 ppl to order!! Woohoo! Hallelujah! After the me.. I dunno that the past few days, i've been walking up to strangers and having a chat wif them..I got to know 2 Dutch dudes. (we had chicken rice in Asia Cafe), 2 Africans brethens, A dude from HArbin,China and some girls from Indonesia.. MAn.. My socializing skills are improving! Hahaahah!!

God's been great to me.. At times, i just feel that He's silent, some other times, we get have quality Buddy times together!! GOd's great ya know.. I've been listening to "Sweeter" by Lakewood church TX for almost 20 times already!! I've not bored wif it!! It's a great song reminding me that our everydays are a blessing from Him.. Good days or bad days it seems from our own eyes, everyday is a day God gives to us wif delight. It makes me know that God's telling me: "Hey, have an awesome day today! It's my gift to you today, and tomorrow and 2moro..HAve a great day dude!!" Oh man! God is too good to me that i'm left speechless.. He's so graceful that i don't deserve all His blessings.. It's not of what i am but who He is that He wants to give me the best. Same goes for YOu too!!

Sweeter by Lakewood Church TX

Everyday with You Lord,
Is sweeter than the day before,
Everyday with You Lord,
Is sweeter than the day before,
Every morning i will worship,
Every evening i adore,
Cause everyday is sweeter,
Sweeter than the day before..

What a privilage to know YOu,
Like i know YOu,
To be loved like YOu love me,
WHat and honor to worship,
Truly worship,
From this heart that YOu have freed,

From the rising of the sun,
TO the setting of the same,

What a wonder to live life,
Really live life,
Overcoming everything,
What a reason to lift up,
Freely lift up,
Everyday my everything

Amen guys??!! God's great right! I've learning to not look at life's circumstance, but look up..there's God smilling down on u and me wif great delight!!!

Of CNY fun...

2006-02-02T12:31:00.000-06:00

Hey!!! Wat a day is it for me... Woke up bout 11 something and lazed around..Then i left home at bout 4:30pm and went to PJ... Then i met up wif old high skool frens .. Actually we are having dinner atTelok Gong, but i'm in PJ now..I shud've drove straight from KK and not waste petrol!! ALl thanks to a fren saying that we're using federal hiway which we used Kesas..Man, i passed KK in my fren's car, but my car's in PJ!! Yeah, dinner was great.. We booked 2 tables, 11 ppl each... Crabs, fish, vege, taufu, noodles and err something else... I even met some new ppl.. the ones who r doin form 6 in my skool but previously from another.. We had dinner and chatted till it's 10 something...I followed Joseph in his car wif a whole lot of noisy bunch!! hahah !! THe fun part is, my naughty fren, decided to do some paparazzi business.. Since a fren of mine was driving alone wif his girlfriend, They were like!! WOhhH!!! Leaning on each other!!! My fren even showed his fist to us!! All of us were like laughing our head of in the car.. We even gave an applause for it!! Then we sped of.. Later when we saw them in the car again, they pretended like nothing happened!!! Haahahah!!! Wat a night of laughter!! We even crack jokes.. "Chemistry jokes!!!" Exothermic reaction!!! Hahahahhahaha!! GEt it???!! Then we reached PJ at bout 11 and i took my car at Atria.. Then to visit a fren's house.. Then drove to Asia Cafe and played some foosball wif the same bunch of ppl again!! We finally left at about 1 something... Wah!! 4pm-1am!! NOt bad... Wat a night of fun wif frens!! ahahaha

I think i'm not tat close to God these days, i get sleepy when i do my quiet time.. This is wat i've got to change,... I've better be attentive to HIs voice... THat sweet, gentle,loving voice. which calls out to me in the dark, in the solitude of night.. I love to turn of the lights, draw the curtains, look at the night sky and worship wif the guitar. Wat a nice experience.. the only thing is that it's so dark, i depend on the moonlight to shine on my guitar for me to play... If onli i can share this moment wif a close fren.. We chat and share about life's issues and to pray for one another.. I've got a Friend too that is so close to me... Too close, He's next to me now.. embracing me.. Yeah, Jesus is the best Friend anyone can have.. So personal that He knows everything and is interested on wat's goin on in Your life... I've missed moments like these... Maybe it's time for me to do this after this.... Jesus, what a Friend i've found...

Kev's back dudes!!!

2006-02-01T09:29:00.000-06:00

Blessed Chinese New Year ppl!! I hope u all are having a smashing time playing fireworks and collecting angpows!! woohoo!!! I just came back from Taiping, arrived at about 8pm something!
Taiping was great man, though it was unsually quiet this year, but at least i enjoyed myself! On the first day of CNY, i visited a Phoebe's church in Taiping... Wuh,., she was worship leading wif the keyboard.. It was awesome to visit a church here in Taiping.. and i got to meet her dad and her youth pastor too! Due to intensed boredom, i followed my young cousins to the zoo at night!!! Well, it was fine, the zoo was as huge as i thought.. But it was dark, and i never got to see much... Some animals were not in action too, most were sleeeping!! Then on the next day, EVe, Mei Ling and I went decided to hav a jog around the Taiping Lake.. IT turned out to be a walk though.. We got to see some monkeys ( i got to see some wif red butts!! hahahha!!!) and lotus flowers(they aren't blooming yet) too.. Thank God it wasn't that sunny and we walked round the whole lake.. Pretty nice scenery.. Then we had some dim sum wif Eve's mum. yeah it was fun to meet up wif frens here in Taiping.. Hmmm i didn't ate that much this year, i ate a lot of meat, Steamboat.. but not too much CNY snacks. Hmm pretty weirdfor me this year.. The following day was a little boring, thank GOd i brought back my laptop and i got to watch an entire series of anime!!! ON Tuesday night, i followed my aunty and Grandma to a food court near the Lake and we ate till we were mad full!! OH man, the food was great, but the price is like of KL's!!! I really do miss my guitar back home..

NOt to mention, this is my last Taiping here for the next 2-3years...I'll be in US next year though.. I just got a whole year left here to do something for God, to leave an impact.. HE's teaching me to trust in HIm.I still doubt and am confused, but not as much as before... NOw i feel the peace and have hope.. Life has a reason to live.. Jesus is the reason that you and me are still alive now..As long as we're still alive,we hav a purpose in us that isn't accomplished yet.. I think this is a humbling time and a time of trust in HIm.. He's preparing me for the future...There's tis song that really cheered me up.. "Sweeter".. THe chorus goes- "Everyday with You, LOrd is sweeter than the day before.." Perhaps, God's telling me to enjoy HIm.. NOt to look at life's circumstance, but to just enjoy each day wif Him for each day is a blessing from Him..I just want my everyday to be sweeter wif Him..

Happy CHinese New YEar dudes!!!

2006-01-27T09:54:00.000-06:00

Yoyoy wassup dudes??! The hols are here finally!! 1 week of fun and collecting ang pows! hehehee.. College has been fun.. Now we have a break dance gang.. Members: 2-5ppl, Practice, some evenings, "president": Jackson. hahhaa.. It's fun breaking and learning new moves.. Yeah, this is wat i wanna do, hip-hoping in NEw York and then telling them bout JC.. Kinda like a street gospel thingy.. Oh man!! Sounds so cool!! Ok ok, enough of that... so, classes ended early 2day.. Everybody was like in a holiday mood, i bid my lecturer farewell and left comp class at 9:30!! ahaha... CF was great today.. I played the guitar.. NOt so good though.. i played the wrong chords man!! THen i followed a fren to Sri Muda for some bball.. Ahh, as usual, i get thrashed again! sigh.. Wat to do??? My bball skills rots! I went for some mamak session with some KK dudes just now.. Mark and Beng Wei was there.. Plus 2 more dudes.. Mark told me that they're playing fireworks near his place.. i walked back home only to find out that my mum's car is out of order!! I walked back to mamak and they were missing!! Shucks!! THey left me!! Now, i'm in the process in packing my luggage.... I'm leaving for Taiping 2moro at 6am man!! I just can't wake up...

Lately, i doubt a lot..Many a times i cried out to God, whether this is from Him or not.. And my reply was, Trust.. Guess it's a tough word for me to follow...I'm not a guy that is good at things.. I'm not so good in sports and i'm kinda like "Jack of all trades, master of none.." sigh.. I lack in many areas of my life. I guess this is a humbling time for me.. I feel that God's constantly testing me almost all the time.. To trust in Him,. Seriously, i see myself as a weakling.. streching out for GOd's gentle hands to pull me out from the the doubt i am in now... I asked GOd many times, why choose me for this task? You've got the wrong guy.. He had chosen me, even since the whole began, even before i was ever born, He knew me well,...He had set a plan to prosper me.. All He said is that all He wants is my heart.. He doesn't care about our ability but our avaiability..Rhymmes right?? hehehhee.. Sigh,... i'm just gotta trust God..I'll just see how He's gonna work in this "weak and struggling child" of His.... IF it's from HIm, then it'll stay for a long time.. if it's not, then it'll go in a little while longer... I feel so weak now... All i have to give is my heart..."For if there is a change of heart, there will be a change of feelings.." This is wat my Youth Pastor told us in a camp.. Really relevant to me. It's like it struck my heart. Gosh, God speaks! And speaks with a blast too! Like a sword piercing your heart.. real hard that it just gave you a "mega nudge".. That's what i get sometimes..I wish God will do that to me again.. I don't want to believe in a lie..All i want is to live in His ways, to put a smile on His face..Everytime i look up, want to see God's smile on me..on the people of this world that He loved so much..It's just all about God, i've got to decrease, so that He'll increase in me....
Lord tonight, i call upon Your peace to be upon me. Let me fall in love with You once again..Bring me back to the Secret Place..

Awesome W33k!

2006-01-21T09:51:00.000-06:00

Hey wassup dudes! This whole week's been really awesome.. It's Intima Week where clubs set up booths to promote their clubs.. Had real fun taking care of the CF booth. Met a lot of ppl this week! About 60 newcomers signed up for CF! Praise the Lord! I got a shock on MOnday's SUn newspaper.. My fren got on the front page wif her face full of clippers!! hahaha... That was the previous week's FlyFm crew who did a roadshow in coll. REal shock man! Anyways.. on friday, CF started their first meeting.. Many ppl came 4 it! And i was in a real hurry to set up things in time.. Praise the Lord, everythings done almost on time.. I stayed in coll till 5 something and then followed a fren to PJ.. Got church that nite.. hehhee.. I went to church but i felt real tired.. There's this pastor from India gave a pretty good sermon.. but my eyes were like can't keep open.. I was so tired..!!! So sorry Lord!! I got back to Grandma's place and crashed..! Wuh..so sleepy..!

Then on Saturday... i woke up at 7 and got ready.. I called Joseph for transport...As usual, he's still asleep.. and we'll be late for coll.. I took bout 15 minutes to walk to his place.. and later we were speeding of to coll. We had a nice time painting 2 banners and i stayed in coll untill it was 6!! Gosh i got no transport and coll looks so deserted on Saturdays.. Thank GOd i've got my laptop to keep me company!!

LAtely, i don't feel much of God..Too much emotions going on..And i come to realise that we do not need emotions to determine our spiritual life. It's the faith that counts.. ANd i began to realise that Chinese NEw YEar is around the corner.. and it'll be my last here... so is CHristmas, and my birthday.. Everything seems to be the last one for me this year b4 i leave for US next year.. GOsh.. i hav only a year left to do something for GOd here.. I might not get a chance to fly back becos of expensice air tickets and might remain there for 3 years..! But GOd is the same everywhere.. no matter where i go, His WOrd is a Lamp unto my feet.. directing my every paths. All i got to do is to surrender my ways and to obey HIm..

NIce 13th Friday... hahahhaa

2006-01-14T09:25:00.000-06:00

Friday 13th??! Hahaha, waht nonsense! THat's superstition! Nothing bad happened to me or to my frens.. COm'on guys, don't be superstitious!! hahaa... Friday was fun! My computer class ends at 10 and i'd hanged around campus..AHhh so bored.. Did some calculus in the ADP office.. untill a fren came finding me... Actually i sent the wrong sms .. and i apologized.. hehe sorry for causing any confusion.... Then there was tis FlyFm crew who were challenging the students to do crazy things from eating cat food, guy-waxing leg-while-singing, eating salted eggs wif the shell still on.., bball shooting and lots more.. 3 of us were caught and "forced" to do the skipping rope.. It's guys vs.girls in this.. And sad to say.. me and a fren being such "gentlemen" let the girls beat us.. And there were lots of crazy challenges kinda like "I bet u will" on MTV.. Hahaha onli tis is less crazy.. A fren of mine sacrificed his pants for rm50.. Another won rm26 in some clippers-on-face game.. Haha.. i even get to meet some Persian students.. we told them that we shud play bball once in a while.. Then i went to PJ.. Actually i was planning to visit my old skool CF and do a little catchin up.. BUt i was told that it's canceled.. Oh man.. Perhaps some other time la.. hhehee.. Then later at night i went for Cell Group in SS2.. Ahh... it's the first one of this year and i'm glad that i'm here.. eventhough, my guitar playing was not that good... hehhee.. sorry guys..We threw a surprise Birthday party for a fren 2day.... hahaha.. Went to mamak till it's midnight and a fren gave me a lift to Grandma's home.. Ahhh it's good to be here again... In this room i've been sleeping for the past 5 years... I did a little flashback on my high skool years and the years i've been growing up in Grandma's place... God's been faithful throughout my high skool years.. He still is now..

Then on saturday.. i spent the whole day at Grandma's, fetching my bro, and then later drove back to KK.. At night, i called some frens 4 bball, but non are free.. Oh well, it's me again.. alone on the court... wif the night sky,onli me , the ball and the hoop.. Lonelines.. hehhee ..

Been thinking on how God's gonna bring me through to my years in US.. It's my last year here, and i might not be coming back for the next 3 years over there becos of air tickets are expensive... I wonder how will i be.. HOw are things gonna be like.. I'm still confused about things... Doubt in it once in a while..But a few nights ago, during bible study, i read about "spiritual confusion".. It says on how confuse at times.. Confuse about God's voice.. However, it further says that God will make Himself even clearer after we being confused.. He'll make His voice and plans for us even clearer for us to see..It kinda struck me even though i'm sleepy at that time.. BUt i know, GOd will make things clear for me.. ...

Oh SiLLY Me!!!

2006-01-10T08:52:00.000-06:00

Hey guess what?!!! hahhahaa, my TOEFL score isn't 203,!!! it's the range between 203 to 260!!! hahhahaa Oh i felt like a "dungu" worrying the whole day yesterday!! Oh man!!! Oh u silly kevin! Anyways, today was a very err.... awkward day.. My parents' car broke down in the middle of no where.. and i got to drive to them and buy petrol.. It took me bout 20minutes to reach there.. But i got them Engine Oil, instead of petrol!! Then i drove back to KK again and bought petrol.. Have to fill it up in water bottles since they don't sell containers!! Ahh!! It's the first time i was petrol.. It's yellow in color and very liquid... I thought it's kinda thick..! hahhaa... The whole process of rescuing them took me bout 1:45 hours! sigh.... I'm late for meeting too!.. THen later i drove to Subang Parade but parked in Carrefour.. We chatted and planned for this CF's schedule and bout camp.. THen the Nilai dudes came.. we.. chatted longer and discussed many things... At bout 6, we went for steamboat.. (buffet!!) It was good man, but i was kinda full though.,. I had a great time getting to know the INTI Nilai CF ppl and got all of their MSN contacts! muahaha... I fetcthed some of them to the KTM station and drove home...

Yeah, there's no need to worry becos it only makes things worst..! Seriously, what i've learnt yesterday, i hope that it will be a lesson well learnt and not to forget it.. Hahaa, GOd is too good to me.. ANd about "rescueing" my parents, i'd learnt patience and not to throw my temper around.. Yup, it's good that GOd is teaching me things... Blessing me with the Fruits of the Spirit.. Amen... Well, it's the "Year of Increase" this year, that's my church's theme of this year.. I want to see God increase me in every areas of my life, including my CGPA!!! hahaha.. THank You, Lord for being just the way YOu are, all loving, forever gracious..

You know better than I, taken from the animation: Joseph, King of Dreams..

I thought i did was right,
I thought i had the answers,
I thought i chose the surest road,
But that road brought me here..

SO i put up a fight,
And told u how to help me,
NOw just when i had given up,
The truth is coming clear,

YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let go the need to know why,
FOr YOu know better than I..

If this has been a test,
I cannot see the reason,
BUt maybe knowing i don't know,
Is part of getting through,
I tried to do what's best,
And faith has made easy,
To see the best thing i can do,
Is put my trust in You..

I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky,
I saw a bird and thought that i could follow,
BUt it was You that taught that bird to fly,
If i let You reach me, will YOu teach me..

FOr YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let the need to know why,
I take what answers YOu supply,
YOu know better than I,
You know better than I....

Indeed, God knows better than we all do... The path we choose might seem the best for us, but sometimes, GOd wants us to take another path, another direction.. It might seem strange.. but, in the eyes of God, HE sees that it is the best for us.. He has the best things in store for us..He has a plan for all of us..

--For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.--
Jeremiah 29:11

Year of Increase indeed!

2006-01-09T10:25:00.000-06:00

Hey! It's like 12:31am now.. I'd a nice time 2day goin to KL to take my TOEFL test.. I arrived at the centre at bout 11 something and went in to the room with a heart that needs GOd's strengh and comfort. It took me like 3 hours to finish it. Then, when i finished my essay, i saw, the unofficial score ...203/260??!!!( excluding essay with a max marks of 40, therefore, 40+260=300) What??!!!!!I just hope that my essay would pull up my score untill it is sufficient enough to meet my Uni's requirement.. THe test was like quite moderate and i double checked my reading section. Oh man!! What happened dude??!Y is it so low??! I've been speaking English since i was a kid and am quite ok with tis language.. Y so low score??! Anyways, i left the centre and took the monorail to Imbi.. My mind was too preoccupied with my score.. I got down the station, bought some snacks, looked around and went back to the monorail with a ticket to KL Sentral. As was in the monorail, i realised that i was heading the wrong direction. Sigh, wat's goin on man?? Y am i such a "dong" 2day?? Then i finally reached KL sentral and took the LRT to the station closest to Mid VAlley... Waited for quite a long time and resulted in taking the cab instead... Haha, he asked for RM5.. Reason?"New Year la" Double sigh... Oh man... wat's goin on dude?? I went to MPH to find a college text bout found nothing, then to some computer stores and can't find what i wanted..(a slim case for my laptop).. Man., i took the bus back to the LRT station and went KJ.. Took mum's car and drove to Chris' place. told him wat's on my mind and we prayed for one another... It was really refreshing. LAter drove to Grandma's.. SHe was really excited when she sees me.. SHe's living alone now.. since my Uncle moved out.. GOsh, she must be real lonely now... That's y i'll stay with her every Fridays when Celll Group starts... Took a quick dinner and dropped Chris at SS2 and went to KJ Station to take the bus to Sunway.. Btw, Break dance class was real fun today!! Thought us how to do back and front flips (the lower kind) and find that our backs and heads hurt a little.. in the learning process..hhehehehe.. Then later we had a little "bboy battle".. we challenged each other on turtle and frog stand.. Man, they were like cheating by disracting us.. we did the same too. hhehehe.. Then i talked to the person in charge of the centre, Joel.. He seems to be collaborating with CDFM (Christian Dance Fellowship Malaysia) and with Liang( a hip-hop dude from my church) and with Altered Frequency.. man., sounds cool and i really want to be a part of it..! hhahahha... Not to mention this is one of my break dance classes.. Mum wants me to study.. sigh....... Nvrm i can learn from friends and from videos then.. hahhaa.. I'm cool..

About worrying, i learnt that there are far more better things to think about than to worry,,.. I was worried about my Toefl score.. On my journey home,i saw a crippled beggar and a lonely old lady.. I saw the ppl's faces and i feel the need to pray for them.. Yeah, GOd's teaching me to see things through His eyes! it's good, it's good..Hallelujah.. Worry only makes things worst... It's like a spec of dust to the runner.. Can a speck of dust block a person from running?? Certainly not! Same goes for us... don't worry.. for it is worthless.. I've justs found out that Stony's toefl requirement is 213!! haha i tot it was 220 or 270!! Let's just hope now that my essay could pull upmy score untill it meets the 213 mark.. Please Lord.. Help me!!! LEt the examiner be lineant on my essay.. Now i'm feeling the peace.. hey, it's not that bad after all.. Well, thank YOu Lord that i can sleep in peace now.. thanks my Daddy up there.. hehehe...

Not feeling so good man.,...

2006-01-07T08:54:00.000-06:00

i'm not feeling so good now.. Got a sore throat, headache and a cough... sigh....Plus my TOEFL is on Monday.. I need to be healed b4 that! God please heal your child here! This whole day's been pretty lazy.. Lazed around the house catching some naps and doin house chores..I've just came back from Good Tidings..they have this singer, Bobby Michaels from US...Pretty good singer with a passionate heart for GOd.....He shared about his experience on his overseas concerts and how GOd see him through... Pretty good testimony he shared.. He used to be a drug addict and a heavy drinker..Well, i was blessed going for it tonight...

I'm real sleepy now with a headache that's constantly "pushes my head to the sides".. like a heavy feeling on my head.. it hurts when we move our heads.. GOt a cough that gives out flems..In spite of this, it's only when i'm sick.,, perhaps most of the time, God speaks to me the most.. becos'
of that i've got no strengh to resist HIm... Yeah.. that's right.... lately, i think i need to spend more time wif God and that i'll hav a close intimate relationship wif Him..No doubt that He has a great plan for us, plans to prosper us and plans to do us good and to give us hope... Jeremiah 29:11 says so.. ANd there's even a song about it too.. Yeah.. the future's look uncertain.. only He knows better than me.. Only He knows what's best..

Loooooong Day man..!

2006-01-06T09:03:00.000-06:00

hey dudes, i'm doin great know! What a long day today it is.. i'd returned home at about 9:50pm!! WHole day out in college!! The day started of me goin to SOCIT and having my Computer class.. from 8-10am.. this is my only class on fridays! THank God that Fridays are really free and fun! hhahaha....Then i'll be lingering in the concourse untill it's 1 something.. The funny thing today is that me and a fren brought our laptops and grabbed a chair and sat near the rear entrance of college.. Reason?? "Steal" starbucks' wifi!! muahahah!! Free internet!! She was playing maple story while i was downloading things.. hehehehe!! Many ppl were like wondering why are these 2 jokers with their laptops siting near the wall! ahahah.. who cares?? Free internet!! muahaha.. then later we went to McD's seats outside,, exactly behind starbucks!! Guess what> the signal was stonger!! muahahahhaha!!! THen i had a meeting in the library untill it's 3pm.. then i went to the canteen and mingled around there while watching the banners been drawn upon.. then James came over.. Found out that he's no longer in INTI but in Sunway colllege now.. Man, that gave me a little shock.. And we mingled longer in the canteen till it's 5:30pm.. then we walked to Pyramid.. (since i've got no transport untill it's like 8:30pm by Mum and nothing much to do anyways...) for like about 30 minutes.. hahaha.. nothing much to do there.. THen we "lepaked"in Starbucks.. it was really raining heavily..so, he couldn't get a taxi or walk back to INTI.. We're practically stranded..we stayed there till it's like 8:30 he went for a taxi and we say our farewells.. Now i was alone till it's 9:15 when Mum called me.. Thank God, i'm outta here! *sign of relief.. 2moro i'll be goin to Good Tidings in Sri Muda to check out this singer from US there.. hmmm sounds cool though.. hehheehe..

Nothing much to say here.. the best part is that when i'm walking with James to Pyramid when we talked about Jesus.. and shared a little.. it was a great experience to get to know each other better.. Yeah.. God BLess you dude! I've got my TOEFL test tis Monday in KL... Please pray for me.. it's pretty scary.. since it costs rm500 to register!! Ahh,, i fear the speaking section in this test.. God please help me...

hey tis is a good song...from Psalms 91.perhaps named after it though... for those of you out there.. God is your protector..He'll secure you under His arms..

Psalms 91 by Lincoln Brewster

I won't be afraid anymore,
Of the terrors by night,
Of the arrows that fly by day,
And though a thousand might fall by my side,
And though ten thousand may fall,
To Him i put all my trust...

Chorus*
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High,
shall abide in the shadow,
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High,
Shall abide in the shadow..

I will hide in YOur wings always,
Your angels stand by to keep me in all my ways,
ANd though a thousand may fall by my side,
I will say in Him I trust..

Chorus*

And though a thousand may fall by my side,
And though ten thousand may fall,
I will say of the Lord,
That in Him I put all my trust..

Year Of Increase!

2006-01-01T23:36:00.000-06:00

Hey BLessed 2006 dudes! On New Year's Eve, i went to church for watchnite service... wat a great service it was! The pastorial team performed a super cool skit!! They dressed up like ppl from Matrix, with black jackets and sunglasses! hhahaa... ! Then it was a the countdown to 2006....This year's church theme is "Year of Increase" Yup, it's 2006 alright, it's gonna be a year of great expectations.. Yeah, 2005 is gone... Thank GOd for 2005, the college He brought me to and the friends i have.. Thank God for them.. COunt your blessings dude..... Then we had some snacks prepared by church.. Nah.,. it wasn't enough.. so me and some dudes went for mamak session in ss17.. It's pretty cool that even the mamak stall had their own fireworks!! hahah.. it was fun to watch.. but later i got a little annoyed by its loudness... We chatted till it's nearly 2am and it's time for me for the drive home.. Actually i felt like goin to Grandma's place but, something tells me to go back to KK.. On the way back, i was expecting a smooth almost, zero-traffic, to my amazement, there was a jam near Summit!! There was even a police roadblock!! hehhee.. nice..

2006 is my last year here in M'sia.. I'll be in US next year.. IT's the last year here, to do something for God, to impact lifes, b4 i leave this place.. It's year of preparation for the next.. It's a year, i'm gonna expect great things from God...i want to serve Him, to tell my frens bout Him...It's a year of increase.. THe following day, i went for sunday service.. again.. again, i had doubts and i felt troubled of GOd's plan for me.. i tend not to believe in it.. I told Him tat if it's not from Him, then take it away.. cos all i wanna do is to please HIm, to do HIs will... But then later, this voice spoke to me.. with peace.. It told me to believe in Him, for it's for His glory.. God told me to rest in HIm, not to feeel troubled.. Believe.. Let every part of me believe in HIm.. 100%.. 110%!! Believe in Him..trust.. and have peace in HIm... I felt peace in me.. God has ministered to me alright.. yeah... Funny though.. CHristian songs seems to speak to me.. like during the chorus...it seems like a verse speaks to me..It shoots me like a sword piercing my heart.. Never i felt like this b4.. Even during bible study, a verse just pops up to me.. it pierced me.. This song spoke to me.. the chorus says, Believe the unbelievable.. Receive the inconceivable..Really..struck me.. Maybe it's God speaking to me in many ways... Trust in Him..yeah.. Great Expectations...

Great Expectations by Stephen Curtis Chapman

The morning finds me here in heaven's door,
A place i've been so many times before,
Familiar thoughts and phrases start to flow,
And carry me to places that i know so well,
But dare i go where i don't understand,
And do i dare remember where i am,
I stand before the great eternal throne,
The one that God is seated on,

And I, I've been invited by the Son
Oh I, I've been invited to come and..

Believe the unbelievable,
Receive the inconceivable,
ANd see beyond my wildest imaginations,
Lord I have come with great expectations..

Of course He wants us to believe in HIm.. TO expect great things from Him...Yes, Lord, help me to believe... Give me the peace that transcends all boundaries.. AMen.

GUess.. who's back..DUdes??

2005-12-29T09:46:00.000-06:00

Hey hey! i'm back from YOuth camp in Melaka... Had smashing time!!... It's buffet eveyday! Buffet breakfirst, lunch, and dinner!!.. ohh,. ate so much till my waist got bigger! muahahaa! MEt a lot of ppl too.... Esp, those dudes in my apartment.. We had great time of worshipping at night wif the guitar.. hahaa.. The whole camp site is a resort.. There's go-kart, kayaking, bball court.. much much more... and even a replica of a wooden ship! cool! a swimming pool.... is i guess pretty murky.. and i don't know y ppl still like swimming in it.. errr.. thank God i didn't jumped into the pool.. if not i might get rashes over! hhahaaha.. THey got even really weird names for the teams..Sci-Fi Squadron, Comedy Crew(haha very funny!), Drama Queens, SUspense Gang(my team) etc.etc.. ANd the end, we ended up 2nd... (we expected first!) And Ps.Julie was great! Really annointed pastor.. Although i felt sleepy at times during sessions, but i can see that God speaks through her.. HEr sermons are so relevant to me.... Thank GOd for pastors like her..

I still have doubts about God's plan for me.. MAybe it's just my selfish desire... I asked God to changed my heart..for when the heart is changed, then the feeling will change too.. I feel troubled at times... but on and on... i felt this peace inside of me.. MAn, the peace is there.. but i'm still struglling to believe... This shows how much i need GOd.. we're all struggling humans needing GOd's mighty hands to cover us wif His love.. NOw, i'm still not sure about His plans.. 50/50 shall say.... I met a youth leader too who's back from US studying... He told me bout US...bout keeping your faith alive.. He told me tat u need to make this last year here as a preparation spiritually.. U need to prepare yourself spiritually for they're lots of temptation over there... He added that u'll feel lonely admist the ppl.. sometimes u might think that u're the only CHristian around... He told me too that u'll get disappointed.. (depending on where u are, as in hopefully u land in a good CHurch and CF) of the CHristians there.. (not being stereotype).. THey are CHristians only by name.. but live a pagan life...He told me to keep your faith alive in times of loneliness and never give in to the crowd.. Stand for Jesus.. MAn, i've got like 1 year left here in M'sia. After tat, i'll be over there.. I' better prepare myself spiritually and to grow in GOd...I'm gonna expect great things from GOd in year 2006 as 2005 is coming to an end. let me not forget of the blessings i had in tis year.. of God's faithfulness to me...

MErry CHristmas DUdes and DuDettEs!

2005-12-25T10:09:00.000-06:00

Hohoho.,. MErry Christmas ppl! IT's the season tobe jolly! BE merry, don't be sad even u don't get any presents for it ain't bout presents but it's about love and sharing! Went to church this morning for CHristmas service.. then went home for a rest...then later at night, went to PJ again to celebrate CHristmas wif relatives..I ate a lot and we had fun wif carols... Hmm i kinda guess my CHristmas is pretty simple.. just went for church musical.. and for service, party wif relatives.. and tat's bout it.. But 1 thing's for sure.. CHristmas is all about Jesus!! IT's remembering His birthday, the 25th of December some 2000years ago.. yup tat's wat Christmas is about! I've done my luggage packing.. I'll be off 2moro 4 youth camp in Air Keroh, Malacca..Guess it's gonna be fun.! I'll be back on thursday.. I'll pray for a heart that's ready for God's intervention durin camp.. Oh well, i better sleep early..now,..it's gonna be a long day 2moro... God BLess ya folks!!

Guess after CHristmas comes the 26th of December... The day the tsunami struck Asia...Let us remember the victims.. Let us pray 4 them..the friends and families of those who perrished last year.. I even watched documentaries of the tsunami... MOm told me it actually swept a train carriage packed wif ppl for some 100-200 metres.. A Sri Lankan parent said tat they would rather lose their house then to lose their children.. Guess the 26th of December will hurt them the most of this tragic incident..
"Lord, comfort those who are broken at heart.. and i pray that YOu'll be close to their cries and sorrows.. and their mourning... Though they might know YOu, i pray that YOu will speak to them words of comfort this very instance.. Tell them about the peace YOu are giving them.. Bless them and give them a roof over their heads,clothes to wear, and food to nourish them.. AMen... "

The Lord is close to the broken hearted..

Merry CHristmas dudes!!

2005-12-24T09:49:00.000-06:00

Ho.. ho..ho!!! CHristmas is in the house dudes! Merry CHristmas.. be blessed and be merry! hahhhhaa.. CHristmas is a time of love and sharing, forgiveness and reconciliation..... It's not about presents, santa, turkey..but it's about celebrating and remembering Jesus' birthday some 2000 years ago.. Jesus was born on the 25th December..Let us now spread the joy of CHristmas and to tell about the TRUE MEANING of Christmas! IT's about Jesus' birthday! LEt's celebrate it wif a blast dudes!

The whole day i've been lazing around again.. gosh i better not waste time.. and spend more time wif God.. I'm feeling real tired now.. gtg now.. i want to spend CHristmas wif Jesus now.. in solitude.. Then i'm goin 2 church and celebrate it wif joy!! Blessed CHristmas guys!!! Let there be love amongst brethren!!

Blessed CHristmas Eve!

2005-12-23T11:45:00.000-06:00

Hey dudes, wassup?? The whole day was kinda normal.. Fetched Mom and bro to Summit 4 a movie.. and then i went to Pyramid... THen got home and rest, then of to Summit again to fetch Mom and bro again... Then i drove to church about 7:20pm... Thank GOd i managed to reach at time...TOday was a blast! Just came back from church's CHristmas Musical.. It was.. man!! Awesome! everything was great... esp the choir! Later we went for Mamak session in Centrepoint b4 sending frens back.. And i reached home about like 1am.., Thank God, my parents are asleep,if not.. they'll be questioning me of my late return,... hahah guess wat?? IT's CHristmas Eve and CHristmas is 2moro!!Happy BIrthday Jesus!

Ahhh.... rock climbing was fun.. I went wif my cell group to 1U this wednesday... It was tiring but i've got a good experience... I scratched my hand on the rough wall..OUch.. hahha After a few climbs, my arms got tired.. and guess wat? My muscles actually got tensed!! so we guys, compared them... ahhahaha! Nothing better to do!

As i was driving home just now, i talked to God about many things.. I told Him that i wanna serve Him and be busy for Him.. THe response was like.. Doors will be open 4 u to do so.. As a matter of fact, serving Him is not nessacary in church... Living a good testimony, praying for someone, helping others are serving Him too..THough ppl might not realise it, but God does and He takes it into account..YUp, GOd is a GOd of hearts, He doesn't care about our ablities but of our hearts.. As long as we have a heart to serve... God will be pleased wif it.. A fren told me about a story of a US pastor who once wanted to serve in church.. B4 he was a pastor, he asked a leader whether that he could serve, His reply was.. to vacuum all the carpets, clean all the chairs..(there was thousands of chairs), clean the toilets, wipe the toilets.etc.etc.. Tis dude here, did this for 3 years.. b4 he became a pastor.. Wat i learnt from this is that i've to have the servant's heart.. a heart that is simple and sincere.. aiming to please my Maker......No matter wat i do, i choose to please Him. YUp, tat's right..It's 2:09am now..... i've got to go..Blessed CHristmas Eve folks!

FAithful YOu are..

2005-12-22T10:46:00.000-06:00

Hey dudes, wassup?? Tis whole day's like other days b4.. Being in KK one whole day wif my bro.. ahh thankfully he ain't naughty... although occasionly he disturbing me...hehehe Been lazying around the whole day...At night bout 8:45, i went to the club again.. Again to the gym.. Met the same uncle again in the gym... THe uncle and me talked about his dream to open a bakery shop.... Well, he has a dream.. i told him to go for it.. even though there's obstacles...

It all starts wif a dream.. If you hav a dream,( a dream that glorifies God, u know that it's from Him, u know that's ur purpose for u) then go pursue it!! GO for it!! With God's strengh working through our weaknesses.. i believe, dreams will come to pass..Tat's wat i'm goin through now.. I've got a dream.. I believe it's from Him... I pray tat the doubts will go and the confidence will set in.. YOu see, i hav doubts and every time i asked for God's confirmation and signs.. And every time i get those signs but i still doubt.. becos i think that this dream here is a little selfish from my point of view..Gosh.,. life's like tat.... It's about a person trying to live each day.. LIfe ain't easy brothers..! The Lord can't promise a life free of afflictions and troubles.. but He promises to give us the comfort in life... He's like the car suspension.. smoothing the ride of a car moving over rough and rocky terrain..

I've been so, dry lately... I've been wasting my time away wif other worthless, unbenificial things...like TV and internet..etc.. I got to get back to the basics.. My first love wif God.. Got to spend more time wif my Friend.. my Lord...I've learnt wat this song means... It talks about a person being transformed in life..now tat he's free to live life and to embark on an adventure.. and adventure of life God has set for him.. Perhaps life is like an adventure? a marathon? SOmething tat requires endurance to endure?

NO Regrets by Jennifer Knapp

Should i be bold enough to speak
In tis moment?
A reverent heart must surely be unbroken

With no regrets
SHould i be,
With no regrets
In my head,
Faithfully shared,
SHould i be rich or poor and scattered in my dreams?
With all the figures that surround me
live unguarded

And free from the worry
free from the darkness that lives in me
Free to embark on the passion that
YOu've favorable fashioned in me..

Should i be rich?SHould i be poor? What will become of me in 10yrs time? WHere will i be? Who will i be wif? These are the questions i ask the Lord..Maybe, i've to stop dwelling in the future but live in the present.. and to continue on this journey.. Knowing that He'll see me through His grace and love and faithfulness.. Cos i know tat He is ever faithful and loving..

hmm..

2005-12-20T09:27:00.000-06:00

Guess it's just another mundane day in KK.. Did some house chores like laundry and cleaning fans.. Hmmm guess i'm adddiceted to computer games again.. Gosh.. it's so boring but i feel the need to play it.. Oh man.. it's wasting my time and i gotta control it and do something else that's more benificial. THen later at night, i went to the clubhouse for some workout.. Thankfully, the dance dance hall is enpty! alright the air-cons are on and i did some break dancing.. woohooo! Man, i gotta improve in my balancing if i wanna be a good bboy..hehhehe Well, practice makes perfect.. ANd the gym was like.. almost no one there!! I met this uncle who looks super fit but is above 40 in age.. We talked about stuff like CHristmas and then i bid him farewell.. GOt to the sauna and jumped to the shower... Drove home and now i'm here in front of the computer.. huh,.. really got nothing better to do but just type crap.. haahaha.. 2moro, i'm going for rock climbing wif some church frens in 1U. Hope to enjoy myself and not havin the fear of heights though... Btw, it's pretty expensive .. rm10 an hour!!!

--patience--

2005-12-19T09:46:00.000-06:00

WEnt to get my IC done tis morning in Shah ALam.. took number at 7:39am, got it done by 1:35pm.. Gosh!! So long!! At least it's not like in PJ where the queue stretches for 200m!! and takes 45minutes for u to actually get ur number!!! MAdness!!! At least it's faster here in SHah ALam.. ehhehe.... Break dance class was fun.. Need more practice.. Thank God, the pain on my back got better.. My right hand feels numb too....

As i was goin from class, i thinked about wat GOd is working through me now.. He's shaping me to be a better being... like a clay shaped into a vase with perfection under the skillful hands of the Potter... Yup, He has a great plan for me and i choose to pursue it... Guess i need not worry bout 2moro for 2moro will worry about itself.. Ya...worry not.. I think God gave me "patience" as a gift.... I've been experiencing many situations where it requires patience.... holding in the temper and not bursting, not sounding the horn when caught in a jam..,waiting for things to be done.. etc.etc...

Man, i'm real tired now... I woke up since 6am.. and wish to end tis day wif God.. Guess i'm gonna turn of the lights, draw the curtains, look up the night sky and sing a song for Him.. nites...

kev, happy 18th...

2005-12-18T10:05:00.000-06:00

Wat a day 2day... Went to church and it's the last youth church 4 tis year.. 2day's service was abou ppl giving thanks and at the close of the service..SHe called out the "December babies".. I was the first... (heheh can't help it, the cameras were flashing at me.. hahahhaa) Then later we went to SS2 4 lunch.. THen at 5 something went for swimming in KK clubhouse..Guess wat, i found out that the clubhouse has a dance studio!! Wooohoo! it has air-con too making it super cooling for a guy who sweats too much like me! Now i know where to practice for free!! Praise GOd tat all of a sudden, my Sony CLie is working again!! Yay!! It's like oh man,... the touch screen is not haywire but back to normal!! Praise God!! Thank YOu!!! Just when they told me to replace the touch screen (which costs rm360!!!!) it was working again!! HAhAH thank YOu Lord!!

It's just 9 minutes past 12 and i'm 18th!! Yay1! Another year older, another year.. wiser( i hope).. It's goood to know that r birthday is here.. Makes u think of GOd's plan 4 ur life.. As long as u're still alive, God has a purpose 4 u.. tat's right, I'm still alive and kicking! waiting for my life's purpose to be fulfilled.. Learnt bout tis when i was reading a book called--"Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. Yup, it's all about living ur life as a CHristian and finding one's purpose God has in store us.. It's goood to be a CHristian, to have hope and a future... becos' it's all in the hands of God.. Like wat Ps Julie told us 2day.. wat every CHristian shud discover is their life's purpose... I felt this statement somewat true and profounding.. Yup, GOd has a great plan for me... and i've discovered it already.. NOw i'm letting Him shape me till like how a Potter shapes His vase into perfection...

Christmas mood

2005-12-17T10:23:00.000-06:00

Friday- What a long day was it.. I was at coll since 7:15am.. waiting for ppl to turn up for bball... As usual.. M'sian timing.. Anyways, we had a fun time painting the CF camp banner and bball to--eventhough i got thrashed twice! Sigh...Then i took the bus to PJ at 3 something... LAter i drove to Giant KJ to get some nuggets for 2nite's Cell Christmas Party.. Hahahah we had a smashing time at cell..seeing some dudes eating "wasabi tuna sandwich" as penalty! hahahaha.. They even went to the toilet to throw up!! I can still remember the look on their red faces!!! hahhhaa.. real funny!

Saturday-- nothing much...cleaned up my room in Grandma's place since i'm not really staying there anymore... just on fridays i'll be there.. Went to 1U again and had some dinner.. Hhahha seriously nothing much to say bout 2day...

It's the season to be jolly.... falalalalalala. yay!! It's great to that Christmas is just around the corner.... It's gonna be fun! Everyone seems to be real busy but i seem to be too free... Hmm i wonder wat r they up to.. I hope that busyness wouldn't break the CHristmas in them... as in not forgetting the "One True Meaning" of CHristmas... It's the day the Greatest Savior of mankind was born.. 25th December some 2000 years ago.. Yup, it's Jesus' birthday! Christmas is a time of rememberance of the Lord's coming and appearing as flesh before man... It's a day of joy and a day of hope.. Maybe i need some hope in my life.. Need the faith to believe the inconceivable..yeah....and never doubt too...

AwESOMe!!!

2005-12-14T10:22:00.000-06:00

Followed Mum to PJ today.. took her car and left for 1U at 11 something... I met a fren back from Australia.. (practically he got the whole ALias season 4 DVDs wif him!! muahahaha!! borrow fomr him!!) Bowling was fun today!!! hhahaha.. never knew i'm good at it!! Hhahaha!! i got my first strike too!! Seriously!! If u r feeling the "holiday blues", then go for some bowling and some burgers!! hahaha Be sure to take some frens to tag along too! After that, i bought some Christmas gifts.. met CHris and Shannon who had just finished Narnia at GSC.. I get to see the whole ex-CF ppl too! It's great to see them again.. ahahaa.. Later i met a fren who's back from Australia.. We talked old times as we sat on a bench.. As we were talking tis i saw another familiar face! SHe was like looking back at me in familiarity.. Hmmm looks familiar.. Said "hi" and i remembered her name! Hahah Praise God for good memory when i needed it most.. It's funny.. i met so many ppl and old familiar ppl too today! All in 1U! Praise GOd for lost contacts.. meeting again.. hahhaa

I'm gonna finish Numbers by the end of tis month!! Gotta finish it! I dun wanna break my promise! Pretty weird though...Hols pass real fast..! It's like yesterday my hols started, and now, it's december! Christmas is near! Gosh! Time really flies esp when u're having fun.. Not to mention there is a time for everything though.. a time everything.. a time to rest, play, joke, etc..etc.. Time is limited.. and our time here on earth is limited,, NO one lives forever here on earth.. Tat's y i wanna make my life count for Him... We dun hav much time here on earth.. WE gotta enjoy every single moment of it(good clean fun)! WE got only one life, let's aim to do good wif it! To live it for Jesus!! It's YOu i live for everyday Lord!! He's the reason i'm still alive now and kicking! Woohooo!! Praise Jesus! Let us now live it for the King! TO do great things for Him, for we hav just ONE LIFE, LIVE IT FOR THE KING!!!

---GOd is still the same yesterday, today and forever.. He's a miracle God.. and is working in me now...for HIs promises will come to pass, same goes for you if u acknowledge Him..

-burger and BoWLing-

2005-12-13T10:14:00.000-06:00

Hey ppl!.... Lazed around the whole day in KK today.. Due to boredom, i did some laundry and did some TOEFL preps.. Played guitar in what of the most unusual places.. the toilet..It's pretty cool ya know.. THe acoustics..hehhehe... I think the neighbors could hear me singing wif the guitar.. Hhahaha... super fun and another crazy thing to do too!! Did some balancing on my head..OUch...it hurts on my head though.. but as the saying goes..."no pain, no gain".. Hhaha break dance takes time and patience... Played bball wif myself again.. Feel so bored playing wif myself.... SIgh.. Need some competition to make me play better... hhaha even though i'm not that good at it.! hahhaa..!

I've been reading Numbers... the first few chaps... i Plan to finish it by the end of this month.. I've ald promised to.. It's great to be a CHristian.. EVeryday seems to be a day of new hope and joy...! IT's like u r no longer being in bondage to wat u're struggling in..U're free! Do wat u want.. but make sure it's pleasing to the Lord's sight.. Do wat is pleasing to His name.. 2moro, i'm joining my youth to go for tis thing called "burger and bowling" (basically, chilling out having some burgers and do some bowling).. at 1U.. Hmmm sounds interesting... hahhaaha...

Ahhh nothing much to say lately.. THank GOd that He healed my toe... it doesn't hurt tat much now..Well, tat's all folks! God BLess and take care.!

Hey..!!!

2005-12-12T09:41:00.000-06:00

Hmmm got nothing much to say..... Tis whole day's been revolving around Sunway.. I dropped Mom and Bro at Sunway Lagoon in the morning. I walked around Pyramid for a while and went for a hair cut(Mom's been nagging me of and on to do so) in one of those saloons.. NOw, i feel that my head is lighter...due to my hair trimming.. Hahahah... Later i drove back to KK and went 4 some bball..Later drove back to Pyramid to pick them up.. Then went back to KK ... Few hours later drove back to Sunway for break dance class.. Wow! 6 times i've been driving to and fro SUnway..!! World Record!! hahhaa .. GOt to learn how to stand on my head.. Gosh.. my head hurts when i'm doin that.. They taught me another move too... but i seem not to get the hang of it......hahhaha...It's funny only 4 guys turned up today..WHere's everyone??

Nothing much to say. I'd promised to finish the book of Numbers by the end of this month.. I've just finished Leviticus though.. hahhaa.. Anyways... gtg now..

oHH sILLy ME!!

2005-12-10T09:18:00.000-06:00

Friday- I went to PJ in the morning... real early in the morning.. My old skool CF is having a "slumber camp" in a house in Tropicana.. SO, why not? Give those dudes a visit.... Hehehehe.. gave y fren a call telling her that i'm coming.. It's funny i still remember where her house is since the last time i've been there was 2 years ago... Thank God for good memory when i needed it most.. heheheh.. THen i parked my car and rang the door bell.. A "kakak" came out and opened the door for me.. It's bout 8;05pm now.. Then strange thing is, where's everybody? WHere's everybody's sleepers and shoes at the doorway?? IT's real quiet.. The maid told me to wait... Strange the house changed a lot the last time i came here.. I checked out the family photos and strange enough none of the faces look familiar... Weird... I asked the maid where is everybody? "ISn't there suppose to be a party here?" "How many ppl r here?" She told me that there are 4 ppl in the house...and that the HOUSE 2 DOORS AWAY HAD A PARTY LAST NIGHT WITH MANY PPL! Gosh!! I'm in the wrong house!! hahahaha!!!! Wat 7 minutes of guessing and wondering! HahahH!!!! Immediately i told her that i'm in a wrong house and said sorry! I wore my shoe and i saw a man at the gate (whom i assume must be the man of the house)... said sorry and walked out of the house with.. to my amazement a little embarassment.. Walked 2 doors away.. and rang the bell..THis time, it's for sure to be the right house... hhahahaha... Had a great time catching up wif some old frens and Pn Julie.. Had a nice breakfast .. THere were about 40ppl for the camp.. They laughed at my experience just now.. hahahahhah! Worship, Word, and then i left bout 12 to 1U to watch Narnia wif my cell group..

As expected, M'sian timing in action.. 2 fellas were late! Their excuse? "Overslept!" Oh my goodness! Then i went to the toilet and later i went to the screening room, strange enough, the i couldn't find them.. as i was told where they were sitting.. The whole row was full.... I found a sit at the side.. Weird enough, i wonder.. what was showing is the battle.. in wat seems to be the climax of the show.. Huh,, Why is the battle at the first part of the movie?? NOT AGAIN!!! I'M AT THE WRONG PLACE!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!! I asked the doorman where is the 12;45pm screening... Hhahaa it's the room next to this! ahhhh SILLY ME! Two crazy things at the same day!!! 4 hrs apart! hahahah!! tis is life... Lots of fun things that happen! Thank You LOrd for lighting up my life! Went to Burger King for some snacks after the movie.. Went to Grandma's at bout 5 something.. WHole day out... plus i'm sleepy plus there's cell group at nite.. Hahaha..

Saturday.. NOthing much.,WEnt to church for jamming session..Pretty cool.. not many ppl were there... and i've learnt new things too! haahha!!. Bummed till it's 4 in Grandma's then drove back to KK.. I'm still trying to work on my break dance.. It takes practice and lots of patience... I've got bruises everywhere.. pain too...OUch...

Narnia is a 7 volume children's fantasy book.. Written by C.S Lewis..A Christian himself, his story is about Good vs, evil, forgiveness between 4 siblings.. The story itself has many Christian values.. And yes, God did spoke to me in the movie.. The battle scene,.. is like the battle between the good and evil... God was like "The war is on, are you in" Immediately, i knew my duty as aChristian, we're soldiers of Christ and that we're here to fight against the "Enemy" and his forces... All His plans for me are for His glory, not mine.. yeah,, i gotta believe in His plan for me and claiming it for His glory! Amen to that! Another part of the story is when Aslan, the talking lion died in behalf of Edmund, the boy who was suppose to die of his wrong doings.. Aslan sacrificed himself so that Edmund could live. Jesus sacrificed Himself so that u and me could live.. Alsan resurrected the following day, Jesus ressurected on the third day of His death.. Amen to that... what a powerful show this is!.. Another thing i realised is that the love and forgiveness between the 4 siblings... between Peter, the elder bro wif Edmund, younger bro...

Yeah.. tat's waht i hav to share this past few days... God Bless ya folks..Know that God is real...He is real! He is here wif u right now.. !

HIs LOve!

2005-12-05T11:14:00.000-06:00

Yo wassup dudes..!! It's bout 1;28am now.. Breakdance class was cool,.. they taught us 6-step (trying to look cool doing it even though i'm doin it wrong) today.. and chair freeze.(still can't get the hang of it).. My hip kinda hurts doing the freeze... But it's kinda cool though.. ONe day i'll be hip-hoping with the NY kids, spreading the Gospel to them..Yeah! Gospel through hip-hop..!

I wanna be the best for God.. The best student, the best bball player, the best break dancer.. It's like a dream too hard to achieve.. But we're called to the best in whatever we do for God.. Oh, help this struggling child of Yours.. pls, Lord.. Next year's gonna be the last year of being around.. Year 2006, the year i'm gonna get busy for GOd. The year i'm going to expect great things from Him.. Oh pls, show YOur glory,Lord. I need Your power in my life... I want to see a revival in my life.. I'm really looking forward in how God's been shaping me now.. We're like the clay, under the skilled hands of the Potter, we're shaped into a beautiful vase.. That's wat i want to be... "a clay for YOur moulding"..

I read SOng of SOngs this morning.. And in this book, the phrase "DO not arouse love until it is the right time" is repeated numerous times.. I felt God speaking to me in this.. Don't arouse love untill GOd says "Hey, it's the right time now. Go.." Yup, i know this isn't the right time for me now... and that in times like these, we as singles, should enjoy the gift of being single.. A time of self discovery and a time of preparation for the "one" He has installed for us....

His Love by Hillsongs

His light is over me,
Flooding over me,
NIght is lifted,
Heaven over me,
Flooding over me,
I can't contain it,

My cup overflows,
My cup overflows,

Praise the Lord with all my heart,
Praise Him for He has done great things,
His banner over me is lOve,
His banner over me is love,

You brought the sunshine in,
Turn the dark to day,
Made the shadows flee away,
You opened up my eyes,
To a new and living way,
Dawning of a brand new day....

Praise the Lord, for He has done great things.. I thank YOu for sustaining me through tough times... I'm grateful that i'm here, still alive and kicking.. As long as i'm still alive, You have a purpose for me....

-emptiness-

2005-12-03T10:44:00.001-06:00

Woke up at Grandma's place today... TOday was special.. Today's the day of the one girl that brought me up since i was like 5 years old..It's Grandma's birthday.. I went down and gave her a hug and wished her happy birthday.. I could see the joy in her face.. Hahaha.. kinda breaks my heart seeing her being smile in joy. Later Dad came by to take me to PC fair in KL.. SPent like 4 hours there and bought some stuff. Been practicing my breakdance... It's not as easy as u think though.... but i wanna improve myself in it.. I wanna hip-hop wif the kids in US and tell them bout the gospel.. yeah,... Street Gospel.. Bringing the gospel to the streets through hip-hop..sounds kinda cool though..

There's nothinng much to say bout how i am these past few days.. I feel kinda empty.. inside of me.. i long for some sort of peace and satisfaction.. I long for the LOrd's touch.. I still here HIm whisper to me so gently... but i don't know y i feel insecure and kinda feeling that i need to break free of something.. Maybe i've not been spending too much time wif God.. and that maybe He wants me to return to HIm and to be filled once again.. I feel kinda empty now... Longing for the Lord to fill me up.. fill my cup till it overflows..

I've been thinking about this song.. it kind of reflects wat i'm goin through now..

Jesus I am thristy,
Won't You come and fill me,
Earthly things have left me dry,
Oniy You can satisfy,
All I want is more of YOu,

All i want is more of You,
ALl i want is more of YOu,
NOthing i desire Lord
But more of YOu,
All i want is more of You,
All I want is more o YOu,
Nothing i desire Lord
But more of You
More of YOu...

I really need the Lord's touch once again.. needing Him to fill me till my cup overflows...

Ruturn to thy rest..

2005-12-01T11:30:00.000-06:00

My younger bro stayed wif me 2day in KK.. Woke up at 9;45... Well, i was at home the whole day till dad and mum came back and took us out for dinner. Thank God, my bro wasn't up to his "naugthy mode".. He's been an angel the whole day.. although sometimes, he would disturb me... Been practicing the basic stands.. and (this time not the stomach) my wrist hurts.. esp when wif the turtle... Ouch...

God's been challenging me to spend time wif Him.. The hols could be a time of refreshing and a time of backsliding.. Well, i'm kind of a little to the refreshing part in a scale of 7/10 now... I'll try to finish (i mean i promised) Numbers by the end of this month.. A promise i made wif God after He challenged me to do so... Ya.. Well, to all of u out there, who's having a tough time,, rather stressful one.. know that God is ready to give you(thy) rest.. Here's some nice verses..
Psalms 29:11. Matthew 11:28, Matthew 6:25-34..

Guess, i'll go turn off the lights, open the curtains, grab my guitar and serenade God now.. Nites..

No one loves me like YOu

2005-11-29T10:02:00.000-06:00

GUess it's just another day for me. I was planning to go to church 2day for lunch wif pastor.. but i backed out last minute.. felt tired after this morning of bball. My arms and shoulders still hurt right now. Bruises everywhere too. OUch.. I think i'm not using this hols very well. Been on9 almost all the time.. Need to do more benificial things though... It's great that i've been back on writing my journal again after not writing for a few months.. It's good to keep track of how i felt and of personal testimonies all recorded.

I think i'm gaining more wisdom from GOd. despite of my lack of spending time with Him, i sense Him telling me to take courage in doing things for Him. I think back to last month.. i heard a song on the radio, sung by Whitney Houston.. The chorus goes....Be bold, courageous..... Somehow... i didn't knew y this really struck me.. Then i felt something telling me.. BE BOLD. Yes, be bold..Maybe i'm not bold enough sometimes in doing God's will.. I see the oportunity sometimes, but i'm not bold enough to go for it. Maybe i'm afraid that i might not achieve it and that i might fail getting it. Maybe sometimes, i got to stand up for the faith and to take charge. Go for it! Go when God says GO! Yes, this i got to learn.

This song reminded of my first love wif God and through all these time, His love never changed for me. ..

No one loves me like You, by Jars of CLay..

Collapsing was much softer,
Still falling always hurt,
Only after sensing Your love,
For always ever burnt,
You justified my folly,
My affluent disguise,
Removed revealing nothing,
Yet nothing unforgiving lies,
Unforgiven lies,

No one loves me like YOu,
No one loves me the way that You do,
No one loves me like You,
No one loves me the way, the way that You do.....

To touch the rose unfearful,
Is to meet the thorn,
And pierce the heart's emotion,
And feel the emptiness no more,
Emptiness no more....

Took some time I've fallen....

It's been sometime now Lord, since i'd experienced my first love for YOu. Bring me back to our first love... Your love for me hasn't and will never change.. I want to be like David, the man after Your own heart.. Bring me back to You....

OUch, my hip hurts...

2005-11-28T09:00:00.000-06:00

What a nice day it is today. Woke up at bout 9 and the first thing i did was on9.. hahaha. i need to cut down on internet and do more benficial things like reading the bible, building my spiritual muscles. AMen.. Recently, i've been goin to the gym in KK clubhouse.. I want to be fit physicallly and spiritually for the Lord. That's doing God's will, being healthy physically and spiritually. The whole day's been normal for me. NOthing special. Being bored and wanting to be a "good son", i did the laundry and cleaned the front yard so to impress mum when she comes home wif... Hheeh Thankfully, i have mum's car to drive around 2day. Drove around KK and to the clubhouse. THen later i drove to breakdance class.. Class was real cool though.. THey thought us to balancing.. Learnt some new moves- some-- shoulder stand, which caused my hip ot hurt! Ouch... thank God it's not that bad now! hahha.. and i found out later, that all the hip-hop music is CHristian, and i found out that the owner of the center is CHristian.. hahha.. It's good.. THat's wat i wanna do, holy hip-hop. dancing with street kids and then sharing the gospel with them. THis kind of ministry is called "Street Gospel" and is pretty common in US... Yay! when i'm there, hope i can do this kind of ministry with the kids..hahaha THat's why i'm learning breakdance now!

God's been talking to me.. He calls me gently,asking me to spend time wif Him.. He asked me gently to devote at least 30 minutes HIm. Although i get distracted and i would procrastinate on doing quiet time, He'll constantly, gently ask me to spend time with HIm., Gosh waht a gentle GOd we have! And after quiet time, He would thank me and congratulate me for doing quiet time.. Wow, i hav a appreciative God.. It's good to be a Christian, being a child of GOd. I feel a sense of belonging with HIm and to fellow CHristians. Aslo, as a Christian, He told me that we are bearers of His name and must conduct ourselves well, to reflect His standads. Yeah, I've been wearing a cross... ANd He told me that when u're wearing it, you're carrying My name...
This song here reminds me of how we freely surrender to the Lord.. A song of surrender and having a "God-chaser" attitude in it.. Guess i have to learn what being desperate for God and surrendering to God means..

You're all I need, Planet Shakers

YOur grace is all i need,
YOur love is all i ever wanted,
Your presence in my life,
Jesus Your touch is my desire,

My heart it sings for You,
My every breath is Yours my Jesus,
I live to worship You,
Jesus YOu're everything,

You are all i want,
YOu are everything i need,
My soul thrist for YOu,
You are more than life to me,

You're all i need, (x3)
Jesus.....

God's been good to me. His plans are coming to pass... I willingly give to YOu Lord..

Don't pass me by..

2005-11-26T04:05:00.000-06:00

It's good to be back in PJ again. Friday was real fun, went to coll at 9 something anda waited till it's bout 1 something for comm meeting. Then i went to cell at 8;30pm but tis time's it's in my boss' house..hhahhaha. Pretty weird becos the college kids' and the high skool kids are having cell at simoultaneously. It's kinda fun esp during worship.. where i got to play the guitar wif a pianist.. yay! jamming session. hahaha

Then today, i woke up in Grandma's house bout 7 and got ready for an old time sport! Football!! woohoo!! It's kinda fun becos i get to meet wif my old buddies back in high skool... hahah we had a smashing time even though the field is muddy.. esp at the front of a goal post! I can't stop laughing at the guys trying to kick the ball into the goal since the puddle of water will block the ball from going in. Hahaah real funny when Naresh fell into some mud!! hahahah...
I started breakdance class last monday in sunway... Those guys thought me how to stand on two hands.. doing the frog stand.. but for the turtle stand, i don't seem to get the hang of it.My stomach hurts.... i can't even strecth , i was aching all over... ahhhh . the streching reminds me of taekwondo class in which i stopped 4 years ago!! ahhhh NOw i know how low my fitness level is... ahhhh

I'm still having doubts abut God's plan for me.. I express my unbelief to HIm and am confused sometimes. I cry out to God and ask for His guidance. If it's isn't from YOu, then take it away then. If it's YOur plan then , i asked Him for HIs peace.. and everytime He seems to give me the peace.. Sigh we're all struggling beings and when we're down, we'll turn the Lord for help and His guidance... I asked God for more confirmations and signs.. and i think that i notice the confirmation but i feel something holding me back.. I realise that this "holding back" thing is resultant of not moving on in my spritual life. He wants me to grow spritually and bring me to a higher level of faith in Him.. A higher spritual level with the Lord. ya, i need to spend more time wif Him durin the hols... Here's a song that really touched me..

DOn't pass me by.. by Planet Shakers

My heart it longs,
My soul it thirst for more,
For more of You,
I'm reacing out,
I'm waiting here for more,
For more of You,

Cos all i want is You,
And all i need,
Is to be here with YOu,

I'm hungry for YOur fire,
I'm desperate You're my one desire,
Jesus please don't pass me by,
I need YOu more than ever,
I'm thristy for a touch from heaven,
Jesus please don't pass me by...

Don't pass me by Lord,
I'm desperate for You..

I'm hungry for You,
So hungry for YOu...

I'm hungry for You, that's waht i need to be,, I pray that the He will give me the desire to be hungry and desperate for Him.. Lord, please give me the passion for Your name..

Fren Forev3r..

2005-11-20T10:18:00.000-06:00

Today has been normal.. I've been to church.. Earlier this day (1:28am) Gavin called me asking me to print the cell ad for church... Ahhh y this kinda time even though your printer isn't working...!!! ahhhhh Anyways, i woke up and took the deligience to print it!! Hahah real funny though!! it's looks like a criminal warning with the "WANTED!" word and our pics black and white! hahaha!! Real funny! Was laughing till i'm wide awake!

This whole day was kinda normal.. I've been to the gym and worked out till my arms ache.. Need to get back in shape for breakdance.. To keep fit to do GOd's will! Amen! Be healthy physically, emotionally and spritually.. God's been great to me.. Too good till i'm speechless..! I can't explain His goodness..,.. You've too experience it 4 urself and you'll get what i mean..

Here's a song that really touched me..

What a Friend I've Found.
by Delirious?

What a Friend I've found,
Closer than a brother,
I have felt Your touch,
MOre intimate than lovers,

Chorus;
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,
Friend Forever,

What a hope I've found,
More faithful than a mother,
It would break my heart,
To ever lose each other,

This song really made me ponder of how close and personal God can be.. Closer than anything else... He's close to you too right now.. What a Friend I've found...

Of Friday fun..

2005-11-19T09:39:00.000-06:00

Friday was one day of fun! CAlled jo where he is in the morning..Guess what he was in JO's house.. oh wait,(Joseph Leong's house).. I picked Chris up and went straight to jo leong's house. Btw, i'll be in PJ because of cell at night! hahaha.. As we arrived, we had some homemade waffles and a little chat. Shannon, Pi Yao and Huay LIan is there too.. Kinda gave me a shock when they said that they're there since 8am! hahaha weird dudes...Oh man, they wanna play some dota..( don't really like it) but i just wanna hav fun anyways.. I dunno i love fridays so much.. First, it's the last day of the weekdays, second, it's CELL !! woohoo!!! Cell is great!! IT's the time of fellowship and fun all the way till it's late at night! hahaha! I dunno why my guitar skills has improved so much! hahah i could play so much better! Thank GOd! Then we went to Tmn Paramount for some boring dota... ahh real suck in it.. Anyways, it was fun! Later i gave CHris a lift to his workplace in Tmn Tun. SO, working in a skate shop eh?? Hmmm i saw him sweeping the floor, i bid farewell with a wish of "have fun with the floor dude!!!" ..Btw, pretty good pay though, rm5 per hour!! wow!! better than Starbucks.. Nice.. He'll better treat me lunch someday! CHris.. u owe me big time! Then it was cell at 8:30. As usual i'm the first to arrive at 8:15.. M'sian timing.... CG leader's always late! Way to go Angeline!! hahaha!! Word was on "Greater Love", worship by Jeff.. We shared of how we're attracted to the opposite sex.. Hahaha. Gavin loves professional looking girls.. with the chopstick on the hair!! hahahaha!!! Weird dude.. Then it's mamak session at the cliche Sri Kayu.. all the way till it's midnight.

NOthing much happened today( saturday), I drove back from Grandma's alone in the afternoon.. My head kept playing this song, Amazed.. Gosh it's a pretty good song.. Makes u wonder of the greatness of God's love for us.. Yeah.. i've said it and i'll sait again.. God's love is the best.. It's called "agape" the Greek word for love...which literaly means God's unconditional love for us, humans.. Amen to that... How great and how deep His love for us could be.. I will always choose God's love than anything else. No one else loves me as much as God.. He loves you more than others do.

"Greater love has no one like this, that He lay down His life for His friends"- John 15:13

This verse here reminds me of how one could lay down his/her life for his/her frens.. It's a sacrfice of one's life for the sake and out of the love for others he/she loves.. The same too goes for Jesus who died on the cross some 2000 years ago for the love of the world... ppl of the past, present and the future..

Amazed

2005-11-17T09:58:00.000-06:00

I woke up at bout 6am something and went back to bed again, and been waken up by dad at 7;45am just to ask me to fix the pc up.. Gosh, i went on9 for a while and then went back to bed again.. Hahah bed's my best fren now. The whole day's been fine, and i went for some "yamcha" session with Jason, a church fren in Ehsan(the mamak stall at the 2nd roundabout) at bout 9:30pm. Got some nice western food in mamak and later i rushed home at 10:15pm to catch up with Alias. ANd here i am now it's 12 something and i'm listening to Amazed now by Ross Parsley.. It's pretty different from the Desperation one. THis one's has strings and is less rockish, more classical and acoustic.. My kind of music.. the soft and acoustic kind.. Not too much of electric guitar...Through this song, the lyrics seem so simple, so clear.. the song writer expressing his amazement of God. It's good. It made me ponder of the wideness, deepness and the greatness of God's love for all of us.

IT's good to hear GOd's favor to be upon us. It's good that God desires to give us the est. But sometimes, i feel that i don't deserve and i began to wonder what would other ppl think of me. They might wonder how in the world did i get such blessings. I feel that i need to give it all away because the blessings are too much that i couldn't even contain it. But sometimes i wonder, couldn't be unfair to the others?? I mean ppl might get jealous of me for having being blessed abundantly by God? Then a voice told me... that i shouldn't worry about them for He has the best installed for them if they choose to follow Him. Amen to that! God's been telling me many stuff that i forget some of them. During this day, GOd's been telling me to spend time with Him. I neglected, but a whisper told me to at least commit 10 minutes of undivided attention for Him. It's good. It's good that He encourages me to spend time with Him. He seems so gentle to me.After i finished with the 10 mins or so, i felt a sense of peace and He seems to thank me for spending time with Him, How appreciative anc gentle our GOd is! AMen!

I've got lots to learn from God, i need to fire up my spiritual life so that i'll be spiritually fit and be able to let GOd work through me. It takes time, says the Lord, much patience is required, much perseverance, but hey! the rewards are bountiful! The Lord is faithful! AMen to that! I guess i'm awestruck by Him now.... It's good. God has the best installed for us, it's just that we need to fully surrender to Him and allow Him to work in our lifes...

Here's a all time classic:

Potter's Hands
by Darlene Zschech

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour,
I know for sure, that all of my days are held in Your hands,
Crafted into Your perfect plan,

You gently call me into Your presence,
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit,
Teach me dear Lord,
To live all my life through Your eyes,

I'm captured by Your holy calling,
Set me apart, I know,
You're drawing me to Your side,
Lead me Lord, I pray,

Chorus;
Take me , mould me,
Use me, fill me,
I give my life to the Potter's hands,
Call me, guide me,
Lead me, walk beside me,
I give my life to the Potter's hands.

Somehow, this song seems to have so much relevance to me. I'd never really knew what this song meant untill recently. It's a song of total surrender and trust to God. It's good to have a great God!

Whew..!!! I'm back!

2005-11-16T04:29:00.000-06:00

Gosh! i'm finally home, back in KK after a having a nice time in Genting with the CF bunch. We stayed at Ria Apartments from 14th-16th .. What a smashing time it is!! I've got lots of pic and videos.. ANd even a some rapping we recorded while in Siva's car.. Thanks bro for fetching me home! Hahaha!! what a time we had! On the first night, we had some fettuchini.. (some spaghetti with some white sauce). Siva, Weeks, and Adrian were getting into the Italian mood with some putting on some weird Italian accent which sounds like a wannabe!! hahaha! Weird dudes! The next day, the advisors came over for a visit. Ms.Khor was real funny. We discussed about next sem's schedule. MAn, we've got lots of ideas. Later at night, we got some disco in the house..The music was playing and everybody got into the disco groove.. I didn't know that Adrian could do the split!! hahaha!! I've got ur video man!! Then later we got some burgers for supper.. Though some of the meat were burnt, but we sure had a grea supper! Praise Jesus!!!

The one thing that i've learnt from this trip is the confirmatin of God's plans for me. On the second day, in the afternoon, Joel told us to get together and pray. He added that those of us that think that God spoke to you and have doubts, speak to God and ask Him whether it's from Him or that we're just making it up. I remembered my doubt, and i aske GOd to send me a confirmation in this.. or if isn't from You, then take this desire away. As we're praying, Joel asked me to lead in prayer, suddenly i felt a very strong feeling (kinda like a big whooosh into my heart) and i knew instantly that this is God's confirmation. I still have a little doubt now but i'm certain that this voice is clearl from God. AMen! God sent me a confirmation! Still, if this desire isn't from Him then i freely give it away to Jesus. I hope to see more confirmations and signs from GOd so that i will constantly remember God's plans for me. Indeed Jeremiah 29:11 is a good verse. Plans that will prosper us and not harm us,., These plans here are of God's and it is for us. I stronly urge u guys, to always trust in the Lord, for He has the best installed for us.

Glad to be in coll, again..

2005-11-13T18:16:00.000-06:00

Hey, i'm in coll now and it's 8:21am now!!! hahaha.. i was here since 7:45am after Dad dropped me here. NOw i'm seeing M'sian timing in action.. Suppose to wait for the CF ppl at 9am.. I know many will be late and many will come at 9:30am! Hahahahaha.. M'sian timing! Gosh, it's so quiet here in coll.. since the happening ppl from AUP are on holidays, only the miserable a-lvls are having classes!!! ahaha too bad guys....I wonder when's the finals results coming out??? I hope to get good grades and get that scholarship again! hehehehe..... Hmm i don't wat to do now.. I'm bored.. what must i do?? Can i type watever i wanna type on here b4 i get bored?? Ahhhh help me.. i'm bored now!! ahhhhhhh

Sunday, what a day!

2005-11-13T09:38:00.000-06:00

I was waken up by mom today.. We're leaving for church at 8:30am now.. We went to church.. and then to KL for some curry fish head in Stadium Merdeka. Then to back home at 2;15pm.. Wow what a day! Then i decided to visit Good Tidings Youth..hmmm y not?? SInce i've got nothing better to do then! Too Free!! hahaha! They were one funny bunch!! Laughing all the way!! hahaha! It's a blessing visiting churches, because you get to see fellow Christians and how they enjoy themselves at church. YOuth was over at 4:30pm and i decided to do some adventuring in Sri Muda.. Hehehe checked out the skool .. gosh it's as big as my old school..... The funny thing is that the sewage is right opposite SMK Sri Muda!!! hahaha pity fellas!!! hahaha! WEll my old skool is right opposite the LRT tracks so we'll hear trains squeaking on the tracks at intervals of 10 mins! hahaha.. Ex- Taman SEAns are immune to LRTs... hehehe!!! Tmn SEA rocks dudes! Anyways, messed up with the pc again.. now the monitor goes like'.. blank screen and says'--" Over Frequency" Gosh!! I called Gab and asked him for help.. He doesn't know! Ahh Thank God Hoong Ern was on9!! Haha!! The PC expert!!! hahaha! Settle prob! Now i'm guessing how to fix the settings again!! sigh.. Lord, help me! I'd just finished packing my bags for 2moro's trip to Genting with the CF bunch. Haha...

God's been great to me! He's telling me many things.. Trust in Him and never doubt.. It's good.. GOd's great! Ahhh i'm so frustrated!!! i tried to fix the pc but am tired now.. perhaps next time la... hehehe... I'd downloaded this song..

Amazed.. by Desperation

Verse,
You dance over me,
While I am aren't aware,
You sing all around,
But I never hear the sound,

Chorus,
Lord, I am amazed by You,(x3)
How You love me,
Lord, I'm amazed by You (x3)
How You love me,

Bridge,
How wide,
How deep,
How great,
Is Your love for me.

Yeah this is a great song which is simple and plain but strong in meaning. God's love is the best far any other man could provide. Amen to that. God's love is unconditional. He loves you and me for no particular reason, He just loves us. Now that's divine love for you. Today's sermon by Ps Julis is about Greater Love. God loves us mysteriously that we couldn't even comprehend His love. Perhaps this song really completes today's message....

huh... finally made it!

2005-11-12T10:39:00.000-06:00

I'm finally back here in KK!! It's 12;44am now and it's like err.. i'm not really sleepy now but just exicited that i'm here on the internet!! yay!! Yesterday's cell was great eventhough most of the members seem to "ponteng" cell just for Planet Shakers concert! I'm happy i didn't go for it! Amen! GOd somehow is testing me to see how commited i am to serving Him..(i'm supposed to play guitar for cell) or just go for the concert for the hype! Hah! i passed the test! I went for cell and am proud of it! Praise God! Just 6 of us turned up.They said that my guitaring has improved too! hehehehe.. We had great laughs too!! hahaha i'm still laughing at the "boyfriend" jokes all the way till mamak session! ahahaha!

But later during this afternoon, i chatted with a fren regarding the concert, It seems that wat bothers her is that the ppl seem to praise God due to conformity. They jump and get excited becos of the music not becos of God. They jump and get excited becos everyone else is jumping too. I have nothing agaisnt jumping, but it's just that sometimes', ppl go there for the music and hype but not of God. Have you heard about the song, "When the music fades"? It's written by Matt Redman after he fully understood what worshipping God is all about. The song really spoke to me..esp the verse...YOu're looking into my heart.. Yes, it doesn't matter if we jump or raise ur hands, all that matters is that our heart is longing to worship GOd.. Yup, it's the heart that counts. God really spoken to me so powerfully this past few days.. I guessed the concert really got me getting serious with God again. Now i know that He has a great plan for all of us, plans that will prosper and not harm us..( Jeremiah 29;11..) Now i need to spend more time with Him and to read His word everyday. We need to fire up our spiritual life with God in order to hear His voice clearly.. for if we're close to Him, certainly His voice will be clearer.

Recently, i've been thinking about Proverbs 31:10 onwards.. It's about "A Wife of Noble Character". It talks about a woman that is virtuos in everyway, wise, hardworking and so on. But what really struck me is at the verse 31-32 "Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Reward her for all she has done.Let her deeds publicly declare her praise." Gosh.. I pray that God will bless me with a wife like that! hahaha. In fact, God has the best one installed for us and it's up to us to follow His will. Hahaha. this Proverb really spoke to me and to always trust the Lord in this particular area of my life. There's even a Christian Women's ministry named after this.. "Proverbs 31 Ministries".. Gosh, I pray that God will bless us guys with a wife that is virtuos and that God will prepare me for whoever it is... oh man! it's 1;28am now and there's church 2moro!! gtg now!!! be sure to check this site out.. www.crosswalk.com It has pretty good articles and devotionals in it! Till then, GOd BLess!

Another day...

2005-11-10T10:54:00.000-06:00

I went to Planet Shakers concert again in Pyramid.. hehehe.. Today's concert is kinda fun too..though i thought there is the black pastor from US like yesterday again.. but it was fun.. But this time, i got tired from jumping.. My thighs hurt when i jumped, but it was fun.. not the music but of God's presence being so alive in the hall.. His presence just saturates in that place.. indeed it was a place of divine appointment and adoration with our Maker.. Earlier this day, i went to PJ to visit grandma and later drove to 1U.. Hmm i'm so free in this hols,, but i still remembered what Joel said, hols could be a time of fun (balancing play and quiet time) but can be time of addiction too.. (u might tend to stray away from God when u're too preocupied with your own hol schedule).. yeah know that guys.. As i drove home from 1U, i saw this dude wearing blue shirt walking so cooly down opposite SMK DJ.. immedietly i recognised this dude,,, hhahaa James Quah! hahah watcha doin with the bag?? I tried to get his attention since i was drivig away... Then i gave him a call and offered him a ride back to BU..,heheheh we had a great time of bball and "yam cha" session in McD's..

Hmm i'm not really sure bout God's plan for me.. It's my desire too,. but is it the voice i'm making up again?? I'm confused sometimes, but now, i hav to catch up with my spiritual life with GOd.. for when i'm close to Him, i will get to recognise His voice even clearly! For it is said, that the sheep can recognise the Shepherd's voice and respond by following their Shepherd.. This is the same for us CHristians, we have the unique ability to recognise God's voice eventhough we are confused,, u'll just know it... Hmm that's wat i'm trying to do now.... Read the bible and to spend more time with my Lord.. Well, i got to sleep now.. wakin up real early 2moro.. 6:30am!! Ahhhh!!

Jesus rocks!! BIG TIME!!!

2005-11-09T09:36:00.000-06:00

Mark picked me up at the bball court near my place.. Later he went to Sri Muda to meet up with the Good Tidings YOuth.. Great! I finally know how to get to Sri Muda and found ot where SMK Sri Muda is!! hahaha..Gosh!! I just came back from Planet Shakers Concert!! It rocked!! TOTALLY!! God is in da house!!! hahahaha !! We jumped so much and screamed so much till we're totally in to JESUS!! Woohoo!! I'm not feeling tired now... Just feel like jumping an praising GOd all night!!! Yeah! God totally rocked the concert!! All praise to God!! Hallelujah! Thanked GOd for MArk for fetching me to and fro from KK! Thanks Bro!

In the concert, i felt God talking to me.. "Believe in my plans for u, don't doubt, just believe.."
I was like, r You serious?? I just got to have the faith in Him! That's why need to get back on fire for the Lord.. Just need to fire up my spiritual life again.. To be on fire for JC once again.. so that He can prepare me for His plans for me..for i don't want to mess up in life.. Just got to surrender to Him.. We all have to proclaim His plans (purpose) for our lifes.. Yeah!! Proclaim it for Jesus!! It's your life's calling! Do it for Jesus because He loves you and chooses you for this specific calling for your life! Amen!

Dear God, I pray that YOu'll work through my life.. All i have, i freely surrender to YOu.. for YOu know what's best for our lifes.,,, Life ain't easy, I pray that from this point on, You'll have Your way in us.. Lead us through YOur grace and mercy and the faith to believe in YOur promises.,,, Let us recognise the voice of the Shepherd and follow YOu all the days of our lifes.. and ultimately for eternity in Heaven.. You will surely comfort us with YOur staff and protect us from the Enemy.. Tonight, speak to me so powerfully that I'll not run away from YOu but towards YOu.. Bless this night and I pray that You'll give us a good night's rest.. Amen...

Another DAY..

2005-11-08T10:04:00.000-06:00

Wat a day it is.. in KK for one whole day.. kinda normal though.. just that i didn't spent time with God. Gosh.. i hav to finish the bible during the holidays! Well, i went to the clubhouse again at 4 something with my bro. I went to the gym and later to the pool!! GOsh,,, my hands are aching then! Oh man... Worst still my bike is jammed up and the back wheel can't move. Arghhh!!! I chatted on skype with Wei Soon in Russia just now.. eventhough i can't hear his voice clearly.. but i'm glad to hear him in his original self- all crappy, 24/7..

This day is pretty normal though.. nothing much happened, just that i went on9 for countless times this day.. A fren told me that during the hols, we musn't be addicted to something, if not we'll tend to have this addiction as a distraction. Hmm ryhmes right? hehehehe.. Hmm great there's planet shakers concert 2moro! in Sunway Pyramid at 7;30pm! woohoo!! Thank GOd for Mark!! He agreed to gimme a lift from KK! yay!!! Hehehe.. I'm fine now.. GOd's been good to me..

Cheer up!

2005-11-06T02:56:00.000-06:00

I'm on laptop now.. the deskop wants me to register Windows.. since i don't hav the registration code.. i dunno wat to do now... sigh... Hmmm... i think i came up with another song again.. I haven't came up with the lyrics again but i got the rhythm.. Hmm i'm still thinking bout that guy at club adminring my hair.. Hey i'm not gay!! i'm just thankful that ppl like my hair!! hahaaha !! ok ok just joking..

Church was great today! Pastor Vincent talked bout Jehovah Rapha- meaning God the healer of wounded hearts.. Kinda really spoke to me cos this whole week i'm kinda down,.. and confused.. Ya. God really spoke to me.. Yet He challenged me to believe in Him.. the one plan for me.. which i find too hard to believe.. it's kinda like wat i wanted.. but i'm kinda confused whether it is the voice of God or not..i just need the peace of God now,. and His confirmation.. He seems to say to me... I'm going to reveal it to you slowly... You'll know my plans for u.. it just takes time.. and lots of preparation.. Hey, guys, if u feel really down, Psalms 34;18 is for u... God is close to the broken hearted.

bAck to normal life agAiN...

2005-11-05T06:48:00.000-06:00

Woke up at 6 something 2day, and later i fell asleep not wanting to do my quiet time.. Then later at 7:30am i called shannon bout the bball game.. ANd went back to sleep again.. Btw, i'm in grandma's in PJ..hehehehe.. IT's fun to be in PJ again. MEeting up with frens chris and shannon who r now in form 6 in Tmn SEA.. Gosh i miss those days at skool!!! CF was great and ppl were funny!! Esp me!! heheheheh! Well, i went to the bball court in Tmn Megah.. Not surprised not to see those two fellas there yet.. since they invited me for a game at 8am.. It's 8:15am now.. Sigh.. m'sian timing.. Guess wat??They're still sleeping!!! Argghhhh!!!! ANyways, we had fun at 9am.. hahaha.. It's good to be back in PJ again..brings back the sweet memories... of my High Skool days...Mom and Dad came back from Vietnam 2day. As usual, i'm the taxi driver and had to fetch them from KLIA.. real fun u know!! I haven't drove this fast b4!! Just need to feel the need for speed. Later i went to the clubhouse again.. and the same receptionist dude.. told me that he bought Sunsilk! ( he asked me the other day, saying wat makes my hair so long and straight? so i said. use sunsilk. the blue one!)-- seriously! i'm not joking! If u hav hair issues, use sunsilk!! esp the blue one!! Really makes ur hair soft and smells real good too.. haha.. Btw, i went to 1U yesterday with my cell group.. not all showed up.. just 6 of us.. including huay ming's fren.. daniel.. we watched chicken little( eventhough i had zorro in mind).. anyways, it was kinda funny but the plot is a little..errrrr weird?? Go watch chicken little 4 urself!

Gosh,, i'm so confused with the voices inside of me.. At times.. this voice told me something,, and at times,, another voice told me the other.. Gosh..! I've been through times like these.. and i dont kknow what to do?!!! I'm confused! I need to listen to the voice of truth! I don't wanna be pretending that alls well ends well... I need to listen straight from God... and learn to surrender to Him....

Of gyms and funny hair

2005-11-04T01:31:00.000-06:00

Just came back from Kota Permai, Awww.. i'm so tired! Having exercising in the gym, my body aches at some parts now. Hmm guess i better workout. becos' breakdancing requires some level of fitness. Gosh... Am goin to 1U later for cell outing.. Guess we're gonna watch Zorro 2 and.. I'm kinda broke!!! sob.. sob.. Most of my money went to food and stuff over the pass few days.. Hmm i finally managed to recruit some guys 4 breakdance class.. Guess we're gonna check that out next week though. Hehehe can't imagine me doin all sorts of funky moves!! Esp when u go to US, having to see some chinese guy breakdancing! hahaha! Btw, the ladies at the club reception said that i have nice, long, straight hair.. hehehe (i'm not joking!!) hehehe finally found some ppl who likes my hair hahaha!! ;-)

Hey a new song!

2005-11-01T23:50:00.000-06:00

Hey, in moments of solitude, i grabbed the guitar and began to sing a new song to Jesus.. It took me like 20 minutes to write it.. This song really reflects God's plan and purpose for my life. Yet in my heart i'd never really surrender to Him.. but am trying too. I'll sing this song when we meet k?? Haven't gave this song a name yet... Drop me some suggestions on naming it k?

Intro; C,Em, Cmaj7

Jesus Christ, my Savior,
Jesus Christ, my Lover,
Jesus Christ, I love You,
With all my heart,

Pre-C: Am7, Em7, C, D

Though I might not understand Your plans for my life,
Though I might struggle in life, yet You whisper to me so gently,
Saying rest in My love, come on back to Me,
Now I seem to understand and desire for more of You,

Chorus: key of G
I choose to follow You in my life,
I choose to lay it all down for the cause,
For You are faithful and ever loving,
Let me fall in love with You one more time.

Solitude

2005-11-01T20:25:00.000-06:00

It's so quiet here in KK. Home alone, with my parents in Vietnam and my bro at grandma's. I'm here alone in KK being a security guard of the house.. sigh.. Anyway, i can do wat i want in times like this like singing and playing the guitar real loud! yay! Woke up at 10 tis morning, and the first thing that came to mind was the something that keeps bothering me.. Anyways, i slept in the hall it's kinda cooling with the TV in front of u keeping u company. hehe just in case i woke up at the middle of the nite wif nothing 2 do. Guess i'll be learning breakdance during my hols.. at one near pyramid.. since Eximius in my church teaches hip-hop only.. hmm when i go to US, i'll get to minister to the kids, through hip-hop. kinda like a streeet ministry.. pretty cool huh? hehehe.. It's a hip-hop ministry.. Street Gospel!

In times of solitude, i began 2 talk 2 God more.. He seems so personal than ever b4.. Being lonely, i grab the guitar and sing a new song to God. (something i've not done b4).. and u get to feel the sweet presence of God around u. waht a nice experience. I played bball last nite.. Though i was not alone on the court, i began to ponder how great God is.. (don't ask me why) . As i shoot the ball, i look up to the nite sky, and began to imagine, there's someone up there looking down at me with a smile. Wow, how wonderful and loving my Heavenly Father is. Sometimes, God thanked me for doin something that requires patience... like fetching my bro in BU from KK!! and fetching my frens back.. He kinda like said, "Hey, thank you for fetching.. certainly your patience is rewarded." Wow, how thankful our God is.. being so loving and kind. And in moments of solitude, i began to realise God's love is far greater than any other man. His love is unconditional and never failing. Gosh, i have the best lover in the world!! Far greater than any other person could give. God's love is the best! haha, there's many more to learnt from God, and much to surrender to Him. Life is a race..(a marathon) and we just have to finish it with God's strengh. Yeah Amen!

wat a day..

2005-10-31T10:15:00.000-06:00

Woke up at 8 2day.. at grandma's house.. Man, the first thing i thinked about was, Jesus.. and the my dream girl.. (whoever God has for me).. I've been wondering this past few days, what's God's plan for me.. Studying in US and maybe not returning to M'sia and thus working there.. Whether i've be single or married. Hmm whether.. i'll call US my home.. and settling there.. God's reply was.. don't think so far into the futute, don't worry about the future.. Let 2moro worry bout itself.. Yeah Amen.. that's what Apostle Paul said..

Hmm i'm feeling really lonely now.. All alone at home in KK with no one in the house.. except me and Jesus.. that's all.. Hmm real lonely.. Then in moments of solitude, i can do things i haven't got a chance yet.. in the house!! Play guitar real loud while walking around! haha so fun! Play guitar in the toilet( Woohoo!! real acoustics man!) But seriously, i love being in solitude.. In times like these, i can speak to God in total silence.. Hmm great experience... and when my parents are away, i learn to take care of my bro and i began to realise that petrol isn't cheap! Man. just pumped 2day! real expensive! shucks... I'm fine so far.. and wait.. Guy Sebastian concert was nice! Guy appeared in the sunday service with white long sleeve shirt, black tie.. and... tight pink jeans!! hahaahah!! Got lots to say.. but i wanna go hav quiet time now.. gtg guys it's 12.57am now! God Bless!

Lost.......

2005-10-29T00:58:00.000-05:00

Whew, i just came home! Really relieved that i'm finally here typing. Woke up at 7:52am with my mom knocking at my door, "we're leaving at 9".. Gosh! leave so early!??!! Actually my parents are goin to Vietnam today!! Yes!! FREEDOM!! CAR FOR A WEEK! Hallelujah! Then we went to special trip just to Bandar Utama just to drop my brother off in fren's house.. shucks... what a loong drive.. then, it's of to KLIA.. Hug mom and wished her have a nice trip, with a "sad face".. (my heart is pumping with JOY!!!!) So, i took the car and drove home.. I used the Shah Alam exit. and i realised i was lost!!! ahhh!!! i shud have used the Seafield exit back to KK.. oh man! Now the stadium is on my left and i drove around.. wondering where am i.. as a matter of fact, i'm not familiar with Shah Alam. Gave my father a call.. and he mumbled and told me to take follow the Green Highway sign hoping to get back to the hiway.. told me not to follow the blue sign.. .. But there isn't any green sign!! so i followed the blue sign and ended up in Pusat Bandar Shah Alam.. oh man.. i'm lost.. then i prayed and i followed a sign which leads me to KL.. shucks!! Oh man, this time i'm really lost.. felt that i'm all alone in the car.. with no one to show me the way back home.. I prayed... Managed to make it to the Federal Hiway. Then, wow!! that building looks familiar!!! ahaha!! i know this place!! (can see Carrefour at the other side of the road at my right!!!) Yay!! I'm home..!! (in a way) and then it's another 20 mins back to KK.. Total travelling time from KLIA, lost in shah alam, and back to KK. approx- 45-50 mins!! I shud have listened to my parents instructions on how to go home.. but i've replied with ignorance.. sigh.. learnt my lesson.. hehe

Well, thought of the day folks.. God told me something.. In life, if you take the wrong turn, (wrong turn to Shah Alam exit) and you might end up lost.. (lost in shah alam) and you might began to worry( worried when i was on the way to KL)... You begin to feel alone, with no one to lead you (no one's in the car with me). You pray, so that God might lead you back to the right path.. and He will lead you back and you begin to feel relieved.. ( whew! i saw Carrefour!) He will bring you back to the right path.. (found my way back in sunway) with His comfort and peace.. You might stray away from God, not wanting to listen to His instructions.. ( ignored my parents' instructions) and might go your own path.. ending up lost and feeling alone. Always know that God is ALWAYS with YOU.. Just surrender to Him and He'll bring you back to the right way.. Perhaps i need to surrender to God all of my desires and worldly plans.. for He knows best.. yeah that's rite.. We will never regret following His ways.. for Father knows best!

Guy Sebastian concert 2moro.. it's free! and i pray that many will come to know Christ and to give their all to Him.. yeah Amen.. gtg now.. God Bless!

You're Beautiful, it's true,

2005-10-26T01:57:00.000-05:00

Hey guys, i'm not at college today. I woke up at bout 8:30 and went straight to the pc. Internet addict? I turned on my MSN and Sharon came on9 moments later. We talked about New York, and this turn out to be a so called "New Yorkers for Dummies" crash course. Told me that McD is called Mickey Ds in NY!! haha.. DUFF- Designated Ugly Fat Friend. ABC- American Born Chinese, and here's my favourite, FOB-Fresh Of Boat!!! hahahaha! Funny new yorkers! Later, i went for some bball at bout 1:30. Ignoring the drizzle, i tried my best to act cool doing all sorts of weird twist and turns, i had never mastered.. Bball, even the girls in NY are better than me.. :-( Oh well, all of us have our own talents and spritual gifts from the Lord! Amen? In half an hour's time, it bagan to rain heavily. Ignoring that, i took my ball and walked home.. I looked to the sky, and kissed the soft sweet air...( hearing the birds chirping) I said to myself, "ahh how beautiful and simple life is..ahh". And then "You're beautiful, you're beautiful, it's true.." ahh that song sprang out from the depths of my memory bank.. Immediatly i remembered the singer stripping of to his undies and run around in the middle of the rain.. while he sings the chorus... Oh man, shucks....

Thought of the day folks, God has been telling me to surrender things to Him.. of course it's hard for me.. but it's for the better of me. He will never force me and leaves it to my own choice.. Well, He told me not to rush in life and start to take it at a more slower pace with Him always on my mind. It's raining not as heavily as i thought that it would be.. and i began to ponder how majestic God is.. He is all powerful and indescribable.. yet He doesn't force us to follow His ways. Sigh it's hard to surrender certain parts of my life to God. I'm still struggling with this for almost 3 years now.. It's hard.. Wish that i have a close friend to share all my probs with and to be acountable to. To all out there, if you're struggling to follow God's way, I strongly encourage you to surrender to HIm.. It might be hard, but always learn to ask God to lead you through His grace and mercy... for we are all struggling beings and not perfect in any way. Well, Physics 1 is on this friday, 8-11am.. gtg now.got to study.... God Bless

Guess what??

2005-10-25T05:50:00.000-05:00

Guess what?? I'm still in college!! Can't u believe it?? Sigh, no transport home.. waiting for mummy to pick me up.. at bout say, 8 something.. Oh man.... So, world religions was pretty easy today.. amazingly, i managed to answers ALL THE QUESTIONS!! Woohoo! Praise God!!! Well, paper ended at 3 and after it, i thanked my lecturer, Mr Chris Cheah.. Yeah show some sign of gratittude eventhough your lecturer might be boring. Later i went to oasis. finding out that there were no INTIans there except Taylor's CG. I chilled there till it's 4 16 and i went of to the library. ANd now, it's 7pm and i'm at com 19 typing.. Hmm maybe it's not that bad after all, since it's the second last day of college for me.. staying back late has a purpose after all. I met with a friend again after meeting him in Asia cafe.

Thought of the day, earlier this day, GOd told me to surrender certain things to Him.. Well, it was hard, and i sound real selfish when i replied God. I'm, still struggling in certain areas of life. like reading the Bible and having the discipline of doing quiet time. We all have our own struggles and somehow, after contemplating on the troubles i have, i turn to God. it's like a routine thingy, where i Trouble->Contemplate-> Depression->God.. Hmm sounds real familiar to me.. Well, what i've learnt is that I does not seem to start from contemplating and worrying . just look to GOd.. DOn't look horizontally at the probs, just look up vertically: towards God! hmm and another thing is that, don't compare yourself with others.. everyone is made equal with each of us having a spiritual gift from God..
Picture this: Two sticks of different heights being stuck on the ground vertically.. Look horizontally, it's of different height.. but look from the top.. it's just two even circles on the ground.. and this is how God looks at each of us.. from the top.. as equals... This wonderful illustration was told by my dear fren, wei soon who is now in Russia with weeks doing medicine.. God Bless u guys!

hmm it's 7.20 now.. and ,, hey!! there's Guy Sebastian is perfoming live and it's FREE!!! It's on the 39th of Oct. Sunday, 8pm.. if u wanna go, tell me asap... cause i need to get the free passes 4 u guys! k??
untill then, God Bless!

It's r3al hard..

2005-10-20T19:04:00.000-05:00

I'd woke up early this morning(7;30 am when i looked at the clock after staring at my room's ceiling for . i think 10 minutes) even it's a holiday.. guess it's my biological clock that "woke me up".. Hmm i'm kinda gonna miss college cause the 2-month long break is around the corner.. (for some it the holidays might have started.. it's just that there's 2 days of finals and that's it!!) What am i gonna do during this long time of break?? I want to go 4 a MIssion Trip again.. say, to Terengganu again just like earlier this year(january) . U can never stop learning when u're on a mission trip.. I'd learnt many things.. but the most profound and highlight of the trip was "spritual warfare". As Christians, we r constantly on war with the Enemy.. he will never stop attacking us untill his time is up.. It kinda spooked me and my frens out when we felt we were spritually attacked. Hide not, confront we will! We''d learnt that we have the power of God and we as CHristians are above the Enemy, fear not we will.. that's the most profound thing i've learnt throughout the trip.

I wonder how's Wee Kee and Wei Soon in Russia now (they're there 2 study medicine). It's late october now.. and the siberian winter is gonna freeze them!! I wonder if they miss the good days at CF where we had our "Guy's Fellowship" (kinda like a guy accountabiliy group) and met up in all sorts of weird places like the block -D guys toilet!! :-p Well, God is everywhere though! Wei Soon, me, wee kee(weeks), chris, joseph and zhi loon.. we shared our probs.. ranging from girls to guitar! in the process .. we don't seem as strong as we look. We r all humans and have our own sturggles. It's only by God's Grace that keeps us through.. that's right.. Hmm guess i won't be seeing them much these days.. Jo is in college with me. Chris, Zhi Loon in form 6, wei soon and weeks in Russia.. I treasured those days in skool where life was so simple .. where the food is cheap but the exams are frustrating esp. the spm trials!! Miss those days where we stayed back to study together a, sleeping on the tables underneath the fan! Love those days!! Real nostalgia! Gosh it's just like last year and time has flew so fast!

Hey, i've been thinking about US. It's a nice place to be but I think I'm gonna miss m'sia. I asked a fren whom have been to US .. SHe said that it's a nice place to be and today.. saying that's a "really great experience" (pronounced with great awe).. Mom told me that you'll won't miss m'sia and won't even want to return.. that's what dad said too. I might not be returning to M'sia due to job opportunities unless it could be S'pore. I'm still thinking on how to accumulate enough cash to make up for tuition fees when I'm there. And b4 i leave, i want to c my non-Christian relatives and frens saved. I might not be seeing my frens again.. my old classmates.. Eventhough i'd lost contact with my old classmates, but what i can do now is to pray that other Christians might share the Gospel with them. Well, it's hard to leave M'sia... I'm gonna miss u guys! sob.. sob.. College, CF, Church.. the 3Cs! That's why it's real hard for me.. But i know that it's God's plan for me. Test is coming next week and i pray that God will take away this heartache away and let me concentrate on it.. yeah It's hard.. but it has to be done.. Lead me Dear Lord with Your Grace and Mercy..for it's hard..

Rainy day..

2005-10-19T06:02:00.000-05:00

Gosh, it's been raining since 4 ( i think).. today was fine, daddy flew to Laos for a business trip.. and mama took daddy's car.. this means that mummy's car is mine 4 3 days!!! mauahahahaha!!! Praise God!! haha,
Guess what? i had phy test 3 today, pretty hard though( guess i'm gonna flunk in it) sigh, :-(
Neways, at least i got the car and i get to drive home early!! wooohoo!!! Praise God! it's so nice to drive to college! (but the parking is another story.. hehe) After, phy test ended at 2, i went to oasis for camp committee meeting... got to see the first faces of our camp t-shirt (all sorts of cool designs done by citirne and eve)..
after that went to mamak till it's 5 something, and we all went home..
and now i'm here in front of the comp typing this.. hmmm since it rained, it's gonna be cooling in the night! yes! can play bball at night! woohoo!! well, there's finals next week, and gosh! there's a lot to revise on World Religions and physics. better study now!

oh well, GOd Bless!

REal Bor3d!

2005-10-18T05:16:00.000-05:00

Sigh... :- ( , it's been since 12 i'm still in col! real bor3d man! I dunno what to do except study.. (got physics test 3 2moro , pls pray). anyways, i've been thinking about the book i read last year ----- "boy Meets Girl" by JOshua Harris..

talks about a young christian guy (the author himself) about how he courted his wife through CHristian COurtship.. sounds old fashion eh?
not... he says that realtionships should be GOd-centered and not of personal desires, but of GOd's.. hm sounds quite true.. he talks about the "do's and the don'ts" during a premarital realtionship... as in during the courtshipo process.. hmm sounds right..

Well, i've been listening to a song.. and Proverbs 31 sprang out from the lyrics.
In complete curiousity, i opened my Bible and found out that it talks about "Who can find a noble woman". (gosh i hope GOd does find one for me.. ;-p). Say, i'm not really desperate now.. but it makes u wonder, 10 years down the line, who am i gonna wake up wif, to share life with, start a family wif hmmm..

well, whatever it is, He knows best.. . it's 6.34 now.. and dad is gonna come bout 7 something.. .. gtg, got physics test 2moro... pls pray..

God Bless,
Kev..

History Maker...

2005-10-16T06:42:00.000-05:00

hey Jesus Freaks!! This song has been ringing in my head on & on. Hmm maybe God is telling me something.. U're a History Maker! Yeah amen to that ! So, Friday was good even though it's the last CF 4 tis sememter..( 2months without Cf.. sigh).. Nvrm , there's still church.... heheh (I'm from Glad Tidings PJ btw,).. prayer meeting in Oasis was so good, i even get on my kness and wept and wept. wuh,,, presence of God is so strong!

hmm can't imagine it's 3 girls bday this particular weekend.. Huay Ming(CG member,13th Oct), Tze Nie(fren from my skool CF,14th oct ) and Angeline(shcuks, my CG leader!, 20th oct).. man,, what r we guys gonna get the>??
Soft toys? chocolates? Pls gimme some advise.. WHat do girls want 4 their bday?

Hmmm.. i sent them weird e-mails, hinting that their bday is near( like.. Hmm,,, i wonder who's bdy is it 2moro???) hehe sounds fun eh??

Be sure to check this site out.. www.everystudent.com if u're free..

My finals is in 1 week time, pls pray for me.. need to pull up my GPA and that i'll won't be lazy... sigh.. OH well, God Bless folks!

-Jesus Freak-

It's been a while.....

2005-10-12T19:43:00.000-05:00

Man. it's been like loooooong time since i'd last updated my blog..

Hmm what 2 say eh?

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sigh, can't think of anything to say,

oh weeelll, God Bless ya ppl!

Oh man, i'm in Starbucks... again..

2005-10-02T02:46:00.000-05:00

Oh man, I'm here again in Starbucks Amcorp Mall, and I'm here yesterday too just b4 chruch.. THis time, I'm not buying anything.. (too expensive) just sitting here hoping that they won't chase me out.. Oh man, I'm so scared that they'll won't come to me and ask.. "Sir would you like anything?" (subtly telling me NO FREE INTERNET HERE!) this happened to me in Starbucks Summit.. but so far, these ppl here in this starbucks seem not to ask me anything yet.. Hmmmm all you need is a pretty thick face.. and a lot of nerves and ignorance( avoiding they'll stared at you for not buying anything).. gulp.. hahaha Free internet in starbucks.. I was here since 2 something after attending a MAss in SFX( St. Francis Xavier) for an assignment on our World Religions course.

Gosh, it makes me wonder when I'm by myself, I realise God talking so clearly to me. Moments of solitude (I was driveing alone last night) I began to realise that I might not belong in this country anymore, going off to the States and might not be coming back due to job oppourtunities.. Lord, I realise that i have less than a year left in this country.. Good bye M'sia.. Lord, b4 i leave let me leave with doing Your work here b4 i go. Teach me dear GOd. Well, b4 i leave, i better share the Gospel with some college dudes and pray for my non-Christian relatives and friends.. Who knows I might not see my friends anymore..

Physics = Mystery..

2005-09-14T05:07:00.000-05:00

I used to be crazy about physics, questioning nearly everything I see around me. Why is the earth round? About centripetal and centrifugal concepts... I even argue about the fundamental theories of Physics.. But now, the "genius" days are over I can't question no more and I'm weak in a subject I once am so Gung-ho about. I'm "studying" physics now, doing tutorials (worst still, there's Phy test this Friday). Enough of that. Let's not focus on our struggles with own strengh for there is strengh from above! When you think that you're sturggling in something you call as tough and beyond hope of mastering it,remember, God is able to help you. Just open our mouth, ask Him. Help is on the way.

Remember Phllipians 4:13 - I can do all things thorugh Christ who strengthens me.

Pray, acknowledge His power! Amen!

Bored.com

2005-09-12T04:41:00.000-05:00

I feel so bored.. Stranded in college, it is not untill 6 something or so, that my father will fetch me... sigh, I'm in the library now staring at the screen nwondering what to write.. I FEEL BORED.... Class was over at 4pm and it's nearly 6 now.. What am I doing?? I FEEL BORED....

Class at 10...

2005-09-04T19:33:00.000-05:00

Been into too much computer latelty. Not studying at all ( or a little).. Sigh, I need to pull up my grades this semester to at least GPA of 3.0.. God help me! Oh well, I'm in the library now "studying" Physics. BTW, I'm taking Physics 1 and World Religions this semester... and hey, guess what? Physics class has just 6 students! Muahahah get all the attention you want! Oh well, gtg now.. God Bless!

The holidays are over!!!

2005-08-28T04:20:00.000-05:00

Sad day, the two-week holiday is over! I'm gonna face the exam results tommorow.. Sigh, God grant me the peace.. Well, the holidays are quite boring though.. worse still, I didn't find something crazy to do, like spending a night in IKEA.. Sigh, oh well, that will be the November-December holidays.. I hope that my new time table will be super cool, with classes ending at 10 on Fridays, so that I could enjoy the weekends early!!

How am I? Oh ya, fine.. Cliche answer eh? Well, I don't know what to say, but I found two new hobbies! Reading and downloading audio clips. Pretty fun though.. Oh well got to go! God Bless!

You might find this interesting: http://www.everystudent.com/

Haha! It's over! Hello HOLIDAYS!!

2005-08-14T04:29:00.000-05:00

Can't you believe it? It's the holidays! Finals are long gone! Muahahaha! Thank God for helping me!! Since it's the holidays, dude, let's do something crazy.. Say, spending a night in 1 Utama? Or maybe Ikea!! Hehe, they got nice beds to chill on! Yeah, how bout that? Well, if u feel bored of the holidays, be sure to call me! hehe...

Jesus Freak! Yeah!

2005-08-12T09:02:00.000-05:00

Yo Jesus Freaks!! Check this out! www.jesusfreak.net Really cool ya know!! Sigh no cell today due to the haze! Man, thank God the haze is getting better. The Haze index is 200 something for PJ and KL. That's kind of better if compared to yesterday! It was 500 something!! Man!! Thank God for making things better! Fuhhhh.. man, I can smell the holidays coming! Tomorrow is the last paper for this semester! English paper.. shucks!! A lot of writing in that paper....

Friends, don't be afraid of the Gospel, live for Jesus and do not be ashamed of Him! Amen! Live For Jesus!! Testify His love wherever there is a chance! Tell your friends about J.C (Jesus Christ) because if you don't God will judge you on that day ( Judgement Day).. So, I don't wanna get scolded by God.. I hope He'll say this to me; "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

Friends, contemplate about this. Live for Jesus! Testify His Love! Amen!

In Starbucks now...

2005-08-12T04:46:00.000-05:00

Haze.. Haze.. It's killing me.. I'm so bored, played games till I'm bored, and at the end.. I'm here in Starbucks since 4:45.. Spend some Rm 8 on a really bitter cappucino.. Really expensive..! Wee Kee told me there is WiFi connection in his place.. shucks! I should have been to his house and surf the net for free! Ahhh! There goes my RM 8!!

Chemistry = Mystery

2005-08-11T02:19:00.000-05:00

Chemistry, mystery.. rhymes right? Yeah it was tough! Really.. My chemistry finals was just over. It was so tough that during the test, a guy somewhere behind me was cursing the Chem lecturer. I agree she is partly to be blamed for being so lousy in her teaching. I'm not gonna continue Chem 2 under her
I'm gonna do it in US instead.

Real Acoustics...

2005-08-06T08:47:00.000-05:00

I'd just found my new hobby... Playing guitar and singing in the toilet! Think I'm crazy? Not! It's fun! Very fun! You can hear you and your guitar echoing.. Wow, I felt like a singer in a recording studio! Serious! Give it a try! You'll feel like a star! ( I felt like one just now). I had LAN test today.. from 12pm-3pm. I'm not aiming for an A but I just want to pass that's all. Lousy LAN, it doesn't effect your CGPA and it's not transferable ( except that some American University that accepts it). Ahhhh.. exams are next week.. and I pray that God will make me hardworking to study and not to be lazy.. Sigh, I need to do well in my exams.. Please pray along ya? Calculus and Sociology this Monday, Chem on Thursday and finally English on Saturday! Please pray for me!!! Alright gtg now, God Bless!!

Studying "deligiently"

2005-08-03T05:18:00.000-05:00

Wuh, it's 6:11pm and I'm still in the library (was here since 12pm). Mols, constants, calculations.... pretty gruesome huh? I still got like 9 more chapters to go for my Chemistry.. God help me!! Hmmm got nothing much to say, but if you're struggling in your chemistry, be sure to check out: www.webelements.com . Oh well, as usual I'll be in the library until it's 8 something when mummy takes me home... sigh.. What loooooong hours in the library. The next time, I'llm