Faithful YOu are..

It's been such a looooong time since i last updated this.. Been busy but a little too lazy to update my blog.. hehhee.. Well, how am i the past few weeks?? Hmm.. fine i guess. Am still alive by God's grace... I've been juggling my time wif so many things untill i end up tired and slept.. Guess, life's pretty tiring now... But i'm still grateful that GOd's been good.. TOday, my whole calculus class had our test 2.. Yeah, look at our faces after it... Sigh.. We've been "murdered" mentally... Gosh... Calculus...Ppl were like talking to each other and lamenting over it.. Yeah, me too. It bothered me for almost the whole day. And after the trauma.. as usual i get the most "conviction" to study! I went 4 lunch wif Adrian and Phoebe.. in AYA CAfe.... We had fun sharing bout lots of stuff bout God, and girls.. hehehee (Phoebe of course mentioned bout guys!) Heheh, it was great! Then i chilled in Oasis till 2. and We had meetinhg till 4.. Then i went to the library to "study" upon conviction!! hhahaa.. Never really been studying though...

Anyways dudes, God's been great to me.. Seriously, i've been not spending much time with HIm. Yeha, i'm gonna do it after this.. I really need to study as in study and increase my CGPA b4 i leave for US... Yeah, increase too in spiritual growth.. I'm the King's kid.. and alll blessings will flow to us who love Him.. But sometimes.. the blessing's already there.. we just need to claim it.. TO work for it... Yeah,.. God's gave me something.. I just need to work for it, to claim ownership to it..!!

Man, i feel tired

It's been some time since i last updated my blog. I've been pretty busy though.. Tests, assignments0.. I even slept at 3 trying to finish studying my History. Gosh, i feel tired...My Tuesdays are a killer... lectures from 8-4pm.. No lunch breaks.. But thank God there's hourly breaks in which i tend to call it "extended breaks".. Instead of 10 min break, i'll strectch to 20minutes. Hehehe.. DUn blame me!! It's a long day for a dude like me.. Thank GOd i can have Mum's car untill Tuesday.. Yay!!!!

Yesterday was long.. i went to coll in the morning to paint banners and then went home to chill at bout 3pm. THen at 4:45pm, i left for church which starts at 5..(yeah, i know, i'm gonna be late). Worst still, a dude bang me from the back at the roundabout.. He seems real calm (so am i) and he paid me cash, gave me his number and namecard... Well, my car wasn't tat badly damaged.. Just a dent... But that dude's car bumper came off!! EVen worst still, there was a heavy rain later... Oh man, i'm gonna be super late 4 church. So i decided to lepak in Pyramid.. LAter i went for Orientation Nite in coll.. It lasts till 10 somethng. Later Jo, Joel, Daniel and me were at McD's.. We chatted for a while and gave an African fren, Louis a call..
We went over to his house and prayed untill it was 3am! Had loads of fun hearing his jokes esp, his immitation of a african american pastor preaching!! Hhahaa..

Been busy lately.. Got so many things to do.. I know that God's shaping me... Let us not get caught up wif our busyness untill we lose our focus on God.. Ultimately, God is everything that is good, He is way bigger than any of our probs and busyness... Yup, i know God's shaping me now.. Changing me for the better... It's good to live a CHristian life eventhough it's never easy.. It is filed wif hope and love that God provides.. Now, i need to spend more time wif God and to fall in love wif Him once again...

SO sweet wif YOu!!!

Hey dudes!! Wassup?? Yesterday was super taxing for me! Can u imagine? 8 hours of classes! From 8am-4pm.. Oh man.... Plus, i'd chemistry test and Calculus quiz..So much for the ADP (all day party). Gosh, but thank God that i got the strengh to carry on.. Even though i got tired, i'd just carried on.. Then after tat, i crashed in Oasis' sofa...Ahhhh peace.. I got a nap which i don't how long i slept, till Siva woke me up.. ANd then there was practice at night... Can't sing well, my voice.. sore throat.. Then i followed Gabriel to give me a lift home..

Today was not as tiring as Tuesday.. just got 4 hours of classes. Then i went to "jaga" the valentine's day booth till it's 2pm.. Got some ppl to sit wif me too hehee.. By God's grace, managed to get 7 ppl to order!! Woohoo! Hallelujah! After the me.. I dunno that the past few days, i've been walking up to strangers and having a chat wif them..I got to know 2 Dutch dudes. (we had chicken rice in Asia Cafe), 2 Africans brethens, A dude from HArbin,China and some girls from Indonesia.. MAn.. My socializing skills are improving! Hahaahah!!

God's been great to me.. At times, i just feel that He's silent, some other times, we get have quality Buddy times together!! GOd's great ya know.. I've been listening to "Sweeter" by Lakewood church TX for almost 20 times already!! I've not bored wif it!! It's a great song reminding me that our everydays are a blessing from Him.. Good days or bad days it seems from our own eyes, everyday is a day God gives to us wif delight. It makes me know that God's telling me: "Hey, have an awesome day today! It's my gift to you today, and tomorrow and 2moro..HAve a great day dude!!" Oh man! God is too good to me that i'm left speechless.. He's so graceful that i don't deserve all His blessings.. It's not of what i am but who He is that He wants to give me the best. Same goes for YOu too!!

Sweeter by Lakewood Church TX

Everyday with You Lord,
Is sweeter than the day before,
Everyday with You Lord,
Is sweeter than the day before,
Every morning i will worship,
Every evening i adore,
Cause everyday is sweeter,
Sweeter than the day before..

What a privilage to know YOu,
Like i know YOu,
To be loved like YOu love me,
WHat and honor to worship,
Truly worship,
From this heart that YOu have freed,

From the rising of the sun,
TO the setting of the same,

What a wonder to live life,
Really live life,
Overcoming everything,
What a reason to lift up,
Freely lift up,
Everyday my everything

Amen guys??!! God's great right! I've learning to not look at life's circumstance, but look up..there's God smilling down on u and me wif great delight!!!

Of CNY fun...

Hey!!! Wat a day is it for me... Woke up bout 11 something and lazed around..Then i left home at bout 4:30pm and went to PJ... Then i met up wif old high skool frens .. Actually we are having dinner atTelok Gong, but i'm in PJ now..I shud've drove straight from KK and not waste petrol!! ALl thanks to a fren saying that we're using federal hiway which we used Kesas..Man, i passed KK in my fren's car, but my car's in PJ!! Yeah, dinner was great.. We booked 2 tables, 11 ppl each... Crabs, fish, vege, taufu, noodles and err something else... I even met some new ppl.. the ones who r doin form 6 in my skool but previously from another.. We had dinner and chatted till it's 10 something...I followed Joseph in his car wif a whole lot of noisy bunch!! hahah !! THe fun part is, my naughty fren, decided to do some paparazzi business.. Since a fren of mine was driving alone wif his girlfriend, They were like!! WOhhH!!! Leaning on each other!!! My fren even showed his fist to us!! All of us were like laughing our head of in the car.. We even gave an applause for it!! Then we sped of.. Later when we saw them in the car again, they pretended like nothing happened!!! Haahahah!!! Wat a night of laughter!! We even crack jokes.. "Chemistry jokes!!!" Exothermic reaction!!! Hahahahhahaha!! GEt it???!! Then we reached PJ at bout 11 and i took my car at Atria.. Then to visit a fren's house.. Then drove to Asia Cafe and played some foosball wif the same bunch of ppl again!! We finally left at about 1 something... Wah!! 4pm-1am!! NOt bad... Wat a night of fun wif frens!! ahahaha

I think i'm not tat close to God these days, i get sleepy when i do my quiet time.. This is wat i've got to change,... I've better be attentive to HIs voice... THat sweet, gentle,loving voice. which calls out to me in the dark, in the solitude of night.. I love to turn of the lights, draw the curtains, look at the night sky and worship wif the guitar. Wat a nice experience.. the only thing is that it's so dark, i depend on the moonlight to shine on my guitar for me to play... If onli i can share this moment wif a close fren.. We chat and share about life's issues and to pray for one another.. I've got a Friend too that is so close to me... Too close, He's next to me now.. embracing me.. Yeah, Jesus is the best Friend anyone can have.. So personal that He knows everything and is interested on wat's goin on in Your life... I've missed moments like these... Maybe it's time for me to do this after this.... Jesus, what a Friend i've found...

Kev's back dudes!!!

Blessed Chinese New Year ppl!! I hope u all are having a smashing time playing fireworks and collecting angpows!! woohoo!!! I just came back from Taiping, arrived at about 8pm something!
Taiping was great man, though it was unsually quiet this year, but at least i enjoyed myself! On the first day of CNY, i visited a Phoebe's church in Taiping... Wuh,., she was worship leading wif the keyboard.. It was awesome to visit a church here in Taiping.. and i got to meet her dad and her youth pastor too! Due to intensed boredom, i followed my young cousins to the zoo at night!!! Well, it was fine, the zoo was as huge as i thought.. But it was dark, and i never got to see much... Some animals were not in action too, most were sleeeping!! Then on the next day, EVe, Mei Ling and I went decided to hav a jog around the Taiping Lake.. IT turned out to be a walk though.. We got to see some monkeys ( i got to see some wif red butts!! hahahha!!!) and lotus flowers(they aren't blooming yet) too.. Thank God it wasn't that sunny and we walked round the whole lake.. Pretty nice scenery.. Then we had some dim sum wif Eve's mum. yeah it was fun to meet up wif frens here in Taiping.. Hmmm i didn't ate that much this year, i ate a lot of meat, Steamboat.. but not too much CNY snacks. Hmm pretty weirdfor me this year.. The following day was a little boring, thank GOd i brought back my laptop and i got to watch an entire series of anime!!! ON Tuesday night, i followed my aunty and Grandma to a food court near the Lake and we ate till we were mad full!! OH man, the food was great, but the price is like of KL's!!! I really do miss my guitar back home..

NOt to mention, this is my last Taiping here for the next 2-3years...I'll be in US next year though.. I just got a whole year left here to do something for God, to leave an impact.. HE's teaching me to trust in HIm.I still doubt and am confused, but not as much as before... NOw i feel the peace and have hope.. Life has a reason to live.. Jesus is the reason that you and me are still alive now..As long as we're still alive,we hav a purpose in us that isn't accomplished yet.. I think this is a humbling time and a time of trust in HIm.. He's preparing me for the future...There's tis song that really cheered me up.. "Sweeter".. THe chorus goes- "Everyday with You, LOrd is sweeter than the day before.." Perhaps, God's telling me to enjoy HIm.. NOt to look at life's circumstance, but to just enjoy each day wif Him for each day is a blessing from Him..I just want my everyday to be sweeter wif Him..

Happy CHinese New YEar dudes!!!

Yoyoy wassup dudes??! The hols are here finally!! 1 week of fun and collecting ang pows! hehehee.. College has been fun.. Now we have a break dance gang.. Members: 2-5ppl, Practice, some evenings, "president": Jackson. hahhaa.. It's fun breaking and learning new moves.. Yeah, this is wat i wanna do, hip-hoping in NEw York and then telling them bout JC.. Kinda like a street gospel thingy.. Oh man!! Sounds so cool!! Ok ok, enough of that... so, classes ended early 2day.. Everybody was like in a holiday mood, i bid my lecturer farewell and left comp class at 9:30!! ahaha... CF was great today.. I played the guitar.. NOt so good though.. i played the wrong chords man!! THen i followed a fren to Sri Muda for some bball.. Ahh, as usual, i get thrashed again! sigh.. Wat to do??? My bball skills rots! I went for some mamak session with some KK dudes just now.. Mark and Beng Wei was there.. Plus 2 more dudes.. Mark told me that they're playing fireworks near his place.. i walked back home only to find out that my mum's car is out of order!! I walked back to mamak and they were missing!! Shucks!! THey left me!! Now, i'm in the process in packing my luggage.... I'm leaving for Taiping 2moro at 6am man!! I just can't wake up...

Lately, i doubt a lot..Many a times i cried out to God, whether this is from Him or not.. And my reply was, Trust.. Guess it's a tough word for me to follow...I'm not a guy that is good at things.. I'm not so good in sports and i'm kinda like "Jack of all trades, master of none.." sigh.. I lack in many areas of my life. I guess this is a humbling time for me.. I feel that God's constantly testing me almost all the time.. To trust in Him,. Seriously, i see myself as a weakling.. streching out for GOd's gentle hands to pull me out from the the doubt i am in now... I asked GOd many times, why choose me for this task? You've got the wrong guy.. He had chosen me, even since the whole began, even before i was ever born, He knew me well,...He had set a plan to prosper me.. All He said is that all He wants is my heart.. He doesn't care about our ability but our avaiability..Rhymmes right?? hehehhee.. Sigh,... i'm just gotta trust God..I'll just see how He's gonna work in this "weak and struggling child" of His.... IF it's from HIm, then it'll stay for a long time.. if it's not, then it'll go in a little while longer... I feel so weak now... All i have to give is my heart..."For if there is a change of heart, there will be a change of feelings.." This is wat my Youth Pastor told us in a camp.. Really relevant to me. It's like it struck my heart. Gosh, God speaks! And speaks with a blast too! Like a sword piercing your heart.. real hard that it just gave you a "mega nudge".. That's what i get sometimes..I wish God will do that to me again.. I don't want to believe in a lie..All i want is to live in His ways, to put a smile on His face..Everytime i look up, want to see God's smile on me..on the people of this world that He loved so much..It's just all about God, i've got to decrease, so that He'll increase in me....
Lord tonight, i call upon Your peace to be upon me. Let me fall in love with You once again..Bring me back to the Secret Place..

Awesome W33k!

Hey wassup dudes! This whole week's been really awesome.. It's Intima Week where clubs set up booths to promote their clubs.. Had real fun taking care of the CF booth. Met a lot of ppl this week! About 60 newcomers signed up for CF! Praise the Lord! I got a shock on MOnday's SUn newspaper.. My fren got on the front page wif her face full of clippers!! hahaha... That was the previous week's FlyFm crew who did a roadshow in coll. REal shock man! Anyways.. on friday, CF started their first meeting.. Many ppl came 4 it! And i was in a real hurry to set up things in time.. Praise the Lord, everythings done almost on time.. I stayed in coll till 5 something and then followed a fren to PJ.. Got church that nite.. hehhee.. I went to church but i felt real tired.. There's this pastor from India gave a pretty good sermon.. but my eyes were like can't keep open.. I was so tired..!!! So sorry Lord!! I got back to Grandma's place and crashed..! Wuh..so sleepy..!

Then on Saturday... i woke up at 7 and got ready.. I called Joseph for transport...As usual, he's still asleep.. and we'll be late for coll.. I took bout 15 minutes to walk to his place.. and later we were speeding of to coll. We had a nice time painting 2 banners and i stayed in coll untill it was 6!! Gosh i got no transport and coll looks so deserted on Saturdays.. Thank GOd i've got my laptop to keep me company!!

LAtely, i don't feel much of God..Too much emotions going on..And i come to realise that we do not need emotions to determine our spiritual life. It's the faith that counts.. ANd i began to realise that Chinese NEw YEar is around the corner.. and it'll be my last here... so is CHristmas, and my birthday.. Everything seems to be the last one for me this year b4 i leave for US next year.. GOsh.. i hav only a year left to do something for GOd here.. I might not get a chance to fly back becos of expensice air tickets and might remain there for 3 years..! But GOd is the same everywhere.. no matter where i go, His WOrd is a Lamp unto my feet.. directing my every paths. All i got to do is to surrender my ways and to obey HIm..

NIce 13th Friday... hahahhaa

Friday 13th??! Hahaha, waht nonsense! THat's superstition! Nothing bad happened to me or to my frens.. COm'on guys, don't be superstitious!! hahaa... Friday was fun! My computer class ends at 10 and i'd hanged around campus..AHhh so bored.. Did some calculus in the ADP office.. untill a fren came finding me... Actually i sent the wrong sms .. and i apologized.. hehe sorry for causing any confusion.... Then there was tis FlyFm crew who were challenging the students to do crazy things from eating cat food, guy-waxing leg-while-singing, eating salted eggs wif the shell still on.., bball shooting and lots more.. 3 of us were caught and "forced" to do the skipping rope.. It's guys vs.girls in this.. And sad to say.. me and a fren being such "gentlemen" let the girls beat us.. And there were lots of crazy challenges kinda like "I bet u will" on MTV.. Hahaha onli tis is less crazy.. A fren of mine sacrificed his pants for rm50.. Another won rm26 in some clippers-on-face game.. Haha.. i even get to meet some Persian students.. we told them that we shud play bball once in a while.. Then i went to PJ.. Actually i was planning to visit my old skool CF and do a little catchin up.. BUt i was told that it's canceled.. Oh man.. Perhaps some other time la.. hhehee.. Then later at night i went for Cell Group in SS2.. Ahh... it's the first one of this year and i'm glad that i'm here.. eventhough, my guitar playing was not that good... hehhee.. sorry guys..We threw a surprise Birthday party for a fren 2day.... hahaha.. Went to mamak till it's midnight and a fren gave me a lift to Grandma's home.. Ahhh it's good to be here again... In this room i've been sleeping for the past 5 years... I did a little flashback on my high skool years and the years i've been growing up in Grandma's place... God's been faithful throughout my high skool years.. He still is now..

Then on saturday.. i spent the whole day at Grandma's, fetching my bro, and then later drove back to KK.. At night, i called some frens 4 bball, but non are free.. Oh well, it's me again.. alone on the court... wif the night sky,onli me , the ball and the hoop.. Lonelines.. hehhee ..

Been thinking on how God's gonna bring me through to my years in US.. It's my last year here, and i might not be coming back for the next 3 years over there becos of air tickets are expensive... I wonder how will i be.. HOw are things gonna be like.. I'm still confused about things... Doubt in it once in a while..But a few nights ago, during bible study, i read about "spiritual confusion".. It says on how confuse at times.. Confuse about God's voice.. However, it further says that God will make Himself even clearer after we being confused.. He'll make His voice and plans for us even clearer for us to see..It kinda struck me even though i'm sleepy at that time.. BUt i know, GOd will make things clear for me.. ...

Oh SiLLY Me!!!

Hey guess what?!!! hahhahaa, my TOEFL score isn't 203,!!! it's the range between 203 to 260!!! hahhahaa Oh i felt like a "dungu" worrying the whole day yesterday!! Oh man!!! Oh u silly kevin! Anyways, today was a very err.... awkward day.. My parents' car broke down in the middle of no where.. and i got to drive to them and buy petrol.. It took me bout 20minutes to reach there.. But i got them Engine Oil, instead of petrol!! Then i drove back to KK again and bought petrol.. Have to fill it up in water bottles since they don't sell containers!! Ahh!! It's the first time i was petrol.. It's yellow in color and very liquid... I thought it's kinda thick..! hahhaa... The whole process of rescuing them took me bout 1:45 hours! sigh.... I'm late for meeting too!.. THen later i drove to Subang Parade but parked in Carrefour.. We chatted and planned for this CF's schedule and bout camp.. THen the Nilai dudes came.. we.. chatted longer and discussed many things... At bout 6, we went for steamboat.. (buffet!!) It was good man, but i was kinda full though.,. I had a great time getting to know the INTI Nilai CF ppl and got all of their MSN contacts! muahaha... I fetcthed some of them to the KTM station and drove home...

Yeah, there's no need to worry becos it only makes things worst..! Seriously, what i've learnt yesterday, i hope that it will be a lesson well learnt and not to forget it.. Hahaa, GOd is too good to me.. ANd about "rescueing" my parents, i'd learnt patience and not to throw my temper around.. Yup, it's good that GOd is teaching me things... Blessing me with the Fruits of the Spirit.. Amen... Well, it's the "Year of Increase" this year, that's my church's theme of this year.. I want to see God increase me in every areas of my life, including my CGPA!!! hahaha.. THank You, Lord for being just the way YOu are, all loving, forever gracious..

You know better than I, taken from the animation: Joseph, King of Dreams..

I thought i did was right,
I thought i had the answers,
I thought i chose the surest road,
But that road brought me here..

SO i put up a fight,
And told u how to help me,
NOw just when i had given up,
The truth is coming clear,

YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let go the need to know why,
FOr YOu know better than I..

If this has been a test,
I cannot see the reason,
BUt maybe knowing i don't know,
Is part of getting through,
I tried to do what's best,
And faith has made easy,
To see the best thing i can do,
Is put my trust in You..


I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky,
I saw a bird and thought that i could follow,
BUt it was You that taught that bird to fly,
If i let You reach me, will YOu teach me..

FOr YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let the need to know why,
I take what answers YOu supply,
YOu know better than I,
You know better than I....

Indeed, God knows better than we all do... The path we choose might seem the best for us, but sometimes, GOd wants us to take another path, another direction.. It might seem strange.. but, in the eyes of God, HE sees that it is the best for us.. He has the best things in store for us..He has a plan for all of us..

--For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.--
Jeremiah 29:11

Year of Increase indeed!

Hey! It's like 12:31am now.. I'd a nice time 2day goin to KL to take my TOEFL test.. I arrived at the centre at bout 11 something and went in to the room with a heart that needs GOd's strengh and comfort. It took me like 3 hours to finish it. Then, when i finished my essay, i saw, the unofficial score ...203/260??!!!( excluding essay with a max marks of 40, therefore, 40+260=300) What??!!!!!I just hope that my essay would pull up my score untill it is sufficient enough to meet my Uni's requirement.. THe test was like quite moderate and i double checked my reading section. Oh man!! What happened dude??!Y is it so low??! I've been speaking English since i was a kid and am quite ok with tis language.. Y so low score??! Anyways, i left the centre and took the monorail to Imbi.. My mind was too preoccupied with my score.. I got down the station, bought some snacks, looked around and went back to the monorail with a ticket to KL Sentral. As was in the monorail, i realised that i was heading the wrong direction. Sigh, wat's goin on man?? Y am i such a "dong" 2day?? Then i finally reached KL sentral and took the LRT to the station closest to Mid VAlley... Waited for quite a long time and resulted in taking the cab instead... Haha, he asked for RM5.. Reason?"New Year la" Double sigh... Oh man... wat's goin on dude?? I went to MPH to find a college text bout found nothing, then to some computer stores and can't find what i wanted..(a slim case for my laptop).. Man., i took the bus back to the LRT station and went KJ.. Took mum's car and drove to Chris' place. told him wat's on my mind and we prayed for one another... It was really refreshing. LAter drove to Grandma's.. SHe was really excited when she sees me.. SHe's living alone now.. since my Uncle moved out.. GOsh, she must be real lonely now... That's y i'll stay with her every Fridays when Celll Group starts... Took a quick dinner and dropped Chris at SS2 and went to KJ Station to take the bus to Sunway.. Btw, Break dance class was real fun today!! Thought us how to do back and front flips (the lower kind) and find that our backs and heads hurt a little.. in the learning process..hhehehehe.. Then later we had a little "bboy battle".. we challenged each other on turtle and frog stand.. Man, they were like cheating by disracting us.. we did the same too. hhehehe.. Then i talked to the person in charge of the centre, Joel.. He seems to be collaborating with CDFM (Christian Dance Fellowship Malaysia) and with Liang( a hip-hop dude from my church) and with Altered Frequency.. man., sounds cool and i really want to be a part of it..! hhahahha... Not to mention this is one of my break dance classes.. Mum wants me to study.. sigh....... Nvrm i can learn from friends and from videos then.. hahhaa.. I'm cool..

About worrying, i learnt that there are far more better things to think about than to worry,,.. I was worried about my Toefl score.. On my journey home,i saw a crippled beggar and a lonely old lady.. I saw the ppl's faces and i feel the need to pray for them.. Yeah, GOd's teaching me to see things through His eyes! it's good, it's good..Hallelujah.. Worry only makes things worst... It's like a spec of dust to the runner.. Can a speck of dust block a person from running?? Certainly not! Same goes for us... don't worry.. for it is worthless.. I've justs found out that Stony's toefl requirement is 213!! haha i tot it was 220 or 270!! Let's just hope now that my essay could pull upmy score untill it meets the 213 mark.. Please Lord.. Help me!!! LEt the examiner be lineant on my essay.. Now i'm feeling the peace.. hey, it's not that bad after all.. Well, thank YOu Lord that i can sleep in peace now.. thanks my Daddy up there.. hehehe...