Happy CHinese New YEar dudes!!!

Yoyoy wassup dudes??! The hols are here finally!! 1 week of fun and collecting ang pows! hehehee.. College has been fun.. Now we have a break dance gang.. Members: 2-5ppl, Practice, some evenings, "president": Jackson. hahhaa.. It's fun breaking and learning new moves.. Yeah, this is wat i wanna do, hip-hoping in NEw York and then telling them bout JC.. Kinda like a street gospel thingy.. Oh man!! Sounds so cool!! Ok ok, enough of that... so, classes ended early 2day.. Everybody was like in a holiday mood, i bid my lecturer farewell and left comp class at 9:30!! ahaha... CF was great today.. I played the guitar.. NOt so good though.. i played the wrong chords man!! THen i followed a fren to Sri Muda for some bball.. Ahh, as usual, i get thrashed again! sigh.. Wat to do??? My bball skills rots! I went for some mamak session with some KK dudes just now.. Mark and Beng Wei was there.. Plus 2 more dudes.. Mark told me that they're playing fireworks near his place.. i walked back home only to find out that my mum's car is out of order!! I walked back to mamak and they were missing!! Shucks!! THey left me!! Now, i'm in the process in packing my luggage.... I'm leaving for Taiping 2moro at 6am man!! I just can't wake up...

Lately, i doubt a lot..Many a times i cried out to God, whether this is from Him or not.. And my reply was, Trust.. Guess it's a tough word for me to follow...I'm not a guy that is good at things.. I'm not so good in sports and i'm kinda like "Jack of all trades, master of none.." sigh.. I lack in many areas of my life. I guess this is a humbling time for me.. I feel that God's constantly testing me almost all the time.. To trust in Him,. Seriously, i see myself as a weakling.. streching out for GOd's gentle hands to pull me out from the the doubt i am in now... I asked GOd many times, why choose me for this task? You've got the wrong guy.. He had chosen me, even since the whole began, even before i was ever born, He knew me well,...He had set a plan to prosper me.. All He said is that all He wants is my heart.. He doesn't care about our ability but our avaiability..Rhymmes right?? hehehhee.. Sigh,... i'm just gotta trust God..I'll just see how He's gonna work in this "weak and struggling child" of His.... IF it's from HIm, then it'll stay for a long time.. if it's not, then it'll go in a little while longer... I feel so weak now... All i have to give is my heart..."For if there is a change of heart, there will be a change of feelings.." This is wat my Youth Pastor told us in a camp.. Really relevant to me. It's like it struck my heart. Gosh, God speaks! And speaks with a blast too! Like a sword piercing your heart.. real hard that it just gave you a "mega nudge".. That's what i get sometimes..I wish God will do that to me again.. I don't want to believe in a lie..All i want is to live in His ways, to put a smile on His face..Everytime i look up, want to see God's smile on me..on the people of this world that He loved so much..It's just all about God, i've got to decrease, so that He'll increase in me....
Lord tonight, i call upon Your peace to be upon me. Let me fall in love with You once again..Bring me back to the Secret Place..

Awesome W33k!

Hey wassup dudes! This whole week's been really awesome.. It's Intima Week where clubs set up booths to promote their clubs.. Had real fun taking care of the CF booth. Met a lot of ppl this week! About 60 newcomers signed up for CF! Praise the Lord! I got a shock on MOnday's SUn newspaper.. My fren got on the front page wif her face full of clippers!! hahaha... That was the previous week's FlyFm crew who did a roadshow in coll. REal shock man! Anyways.. on friday, CF started their first meeting.. Many ppl came 4 it! And i was in a real hurry to set up things in time.. Praise the Lord, everythings done almost on time.. I stayed in coll till 5 something and then followed a fren to PJ.. Got church that nite.. hehhee.. I went to church but i felt real tired.. There's this pastor from India gave a pretty good sermon.. but my eyes were like can't keep open.. I was so tired..!!! So sorry Lord!! I got back to Grandma's place and crashed..! Wuh..so sleepy..!

Then on Saturday... i woke up at 7 and got ready.. I called Joseph for transport...As usual, he's still asleep.. and we'll be late for coll.. I took bout 15 minutes to walk to his place.. and later we were speeding of to coll. We had a nice time painting 2 banners and i stayed in coll untill it was 6!! Gosh i got no transport and coll looks so deserted on Saturdays.. Thank GOd i've got my laptop to keep me company!!

LAtely, i don't feel much of God..Too much emotions going on..And i come to realise that we do not need emotions to determine our spiritual life. It's the faith that counts.. ANd i began to realise that Chinese NEw YEar is around the corner.. and it'll be my last here... so is CHristmas, and my birthday.. Everything seems to be the last one for me this year b4 i leave for US next year.. GOsh.. i hav only a year left to do something for GOd here.. I might not get a chance to fly back becos of expensice air tickets and might remain there for 3 years..! But GOd is the same everywhere.. no matter where i go, His WOrd is a Lamp unto my feet.. directing my every paths. All i got to do is to surrender my ways and to obey HIm..

NIce 13th Friday... hahahhaa

Friday 13th??! Hahaha, waht nonsense! THat's superstition! Nothing bad happened to me or to my frens.. COm'on guys, don't be superstitious!! hahaa... Friday was fun! My computer class ends at 10 and i'd hanged around campus..AHhh so bored.. Did some calculus in the ADP office.. untill a fren came finding me... Actually i sent the wrong sms .. and i apologized.. hehe sorry for causing any confusion.... Then there was tis FlyFm crew who were challenging the students to do crazy things from eating cat food, guy-waxing leg-while-singing, eating salted eggs wif the shell still on.., bball shooting and lots more.. 3 of us were caught and "forced" to do the skipping rope.. It's guys vs.girls in this.. And sad to say.. me and a fren being such "gentlemen" let the girls beat us.. And there were lots of crazy challenges kinda like "I bet u will" on MTV.. Hahaha onli tis is less crazy.. A fren of mine sacrificed his pants for rm50.. Another won rm26 in some clippers-on-face game.. Haha.. i even get to meet some Persian students.. we told them that we shud play bball once in a while.. Then i went to PJ.. Actually i was planning to visit my old skool CF and do a little catchin up.. BUt i was told that it's canceled.. Oh man.. Perhaps some other time la.. hhehee.. Then later at night i went for Cell Group in SS2.. Ahh... it's the first one of this year and i'm glad that i'm here.. eventhough, my guitar playing was not that good... hehhee.. sorry guys..We threw a surprise Birthday party for a fren 2day.... hahaha.. Went to mamak till it's midnight and a fren gave me a lift to Grandma's home.. Ahhh it's good to be here again... In this room i've been sleeping for the past 5 years... I did a little flashback on my high skool years and the years i've been growing up in Grandma's place... God's been faithful throughout my high skool years.. He still is now..

Then on saturday.. i spent the whole day at Grandma's, fetching my bro, and then later drove back to KK.. At night, i called some frens 4 bball, but non are free.. Oh well, it's me again.. alone on the court... wif the night sky,onli me , the ball and the hoop.. Lonelines.. hehhee ..

Been thinking on how God's gonna bring me through to my years in US.. It's my last year here, and i might not be coming back for the next 3 years over there becos of air tickets are expensive... I wonder how will i be.. HOw are things gonna be like.. I'm still confused about things... Doubt in it once in a while..But a few nights ago, during bible study, i read about "spiritual confusion".. It says on how confuse at times.. Confuse about God's voice.. However, it further says that God will make Himself even clearer after we being confused.. He'll make His voice and plans for us even clearer for us to see..It kinda struck me even though i'm sleepy at that time.. BUt i know, GOd will make things clear for me.. ...

Oh SiLLY Me!!!

Hey guess what?!!! hahhahaa, my TOEFL score isn't 203,!!! it's the range between 203 to 260!!! hahhahaa Oh i felt like a "dungu" worrying the whole day yesterday!! Oh man!!! Oh u silly kevin! Anyways, today was a very err.... awkward day.. My parents' car broke down in the middle of no where.. and i got to drive to them and buy petrol.. It took me bout 20minutes to reach there.. But i got them Engine Oil, instead of petrol!! Then i drove back to KK again and bought petrol.. Have to fill it up in water bottles since they don't sell containers!! Ahh!! It's the first time i was petrol.. It's yellow in color and very liquid... I thought it's kinda thick..! hahhaa... The whole process of rescuing them took me bout 1:45 hours! sigh.... I'm late for meeting too!.. THen later i drove to Subang Parade but parked in Carrefour.. We chatted and planned for this CF's schedule and bout camp.. THen the Nilai dudes came.. we.. chatted longer and discussed many things... At bout 6, we went for steamboat.. (buffet!!) It was good man, but i was kinda full though.,. I had a great time getting to know the INTI Nilai CF ppl and got all of their MSN contacts! muahaha... I fetcthed some of them to the KTM station and drove home...

Yeah, there's no need to worry becos it only makes things worst..! Seriously, what i've learnt yesterday, i hope that it will be a lesson well learnt and not to forget it.. Hahaa, GOd is too good to me.. ANd about "rescueing" my parents, i'd learnt patience and not to throw my temper around.. Yup, it's good that GOd is teaching me things... Blessing me with the Fruits of the Spirit.. Amen... Well, it's the "Year of Increase" this year, that's my church's theme of this year.. I want to see God increase me in every areas of my life, including my CGPA!!! hahaha.. THank You, Lord for being just the way YOu are, all loving, forever gracious..

You know better than I, taken from the animation: Joseph, King of Dreams..

I thought i did was right,
I thought i had the answers,
I thought i chose the surest road,
But that road brought me here..

SO i put up a fight,
And told u how to help me,
NOw just when i had given up,
The truth is coming clear,

YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let go the need to know why,
FOr YOu know better than I..

If this has been a test,
I cannot see the reason,
BUt maybe knowing i don't know,
Is part of getting through,
I tried to do what's best,
And faith has made easy,
To see the best thing i can do,
Is put my trust in You..


I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky,
I saw a bird and thought that i could follow,
BUt it was You that taught that bird to fly,
If i let You reach me, will YOu teach me..

FOr YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let the need to know why,
I take what answers YOu supply,
YOu know better than I,
You know better than I....

Indeed, God knows better than we all do... The path we choose might seem the best for us, but sometimes, GOd wants us to take another path, another direction.. It might seem strange.. but, in the eyes of God, HE sees that it is the best for us.. He has the best things in store for us..He has a plan for all of us..

--For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.--
Jeremiah 29:11

Year of Increase indeed!

Hey! It's like 12:31am now.. I'd a nice time 2day goin to KL to take my TOEFL test.. I arrived at the centre at bout 11 something and went in to the room with a heart that needs GOd's strengh and comfort. It took me like 3 hours to finish it. Then, when i finished my essay, i saw, the unofficial score ...203/260??!!!( excluding essay with a max marks of 40, therefore, 40+260=300) What??!!!!!I just hope that my essay would pull up my score untill it is sufficient enough to meet my Uni's requirement.. THe test was like quite moderate and i double checked my reading section. Oh man!! What happened dude??!Y is it so low??! I've been speaking English since i was a kid and am quite ok with tis language.. Y so low score??! Anyways, i left the centre and took the monorail to Imbi.. My mind was too preoccupied with my score.. I got down the station, bought some snacks, looked around and went back to the monorail with a ticket to KL Sentral. As was in the monorail, i realised that i was heading the wrong direction. Sigh, wat's goin on man?? Y am i such a "dong" 2day?? Then i finally reached KL sentral and took the LRT to the station closest to Mid VAlley... Waited for quite a long time and resulted in taking the cab instead... Haha, he asked for RM5.. Reason?"New Year la" Double sigh... Oh man... wat's goin on dude?? I went to MPH to find a college text bout found nothing, then to some computer stores and can't find what i wanted..(a slim case for my laptop).. Man., i took the bus back to the LRT station and went KJ.. Took mum's car and drove to Chris' place. told him wat's on my mind and we prayed for one another... It was really refreshing. LAter drove to Grandma's.. SHe was really excited when she sees me.. SHe's living alone now.. since my Uncle moved out.. GOsh, she must be real lonely now... That's y i'll stay with her every Fridays when Celll Group starts... Took a quick dinner and dropped Chris at SS2 and went to KJ Station to take the bus to Sunway.. Btw, Break dance class was real fun today!! Thought us how to do back and front flips (the lower kind) and find that our backs and heads hurt a little.. in the learning process..hhehehehe.. Then later we had a little "bboy battle".. we challenged each other on turtle and frog stand.. Man, they were like cheating by disracting us.. we did the same too. hhehehe.. Then i talked to the person in charge of the centre, Joel.. He seems to be collaborating with CDFM (Christian Dance Fellowship Malaysia) and with Liang( a hip-hop dude from my church) and with Altered Frequency.. man., sounds cool and i really want to be a part of it..! hhahahha... Not to mention this is one of my break dance classes.. Mum wants me to study.. sigh....... Nvrm i can learn from friends and from videos then.. hahhaa.. I'm cool..

About worrying, i learnt that there are far more better things to think about than to worry,,.. I was worried about my Toefl score.. On my journey home,i saw a crippled beggar and a lonely old lady.. I saw the ppl's faces and i feel the need to pray for them.. Yeah, GOd's teaching me to see things through His eyes! it's good, it's good..Hallelujah.. Worry only makes things worst... It's like a spec of dust to the runner.. Can a speck of dust block a person from running?? Certainly not! Same goes for us... don't worry.. for it is worthless.. I've justs found out that Stony's toefl requirement is 213!! haha i tot it was 220 or 270!! Let's just hope now that my essay could pull upmy score untill it meets the 213 mark.. Please Lord.. Help me!!! LEt the examiner be lineant on my essay.. Now i'm feeling the peace.. hey, it's not that bad after all.. Well, thank YOu Lord that i can sleep in peace now.. thanks my Daddy up there.. hehehe...

Not feeling so good man.,...

i'm not feeling so good now.. Got a sore throat, headache and a cough... sigh....Plus my TOEFL is on Monday.. I need to be healed b4 that! God please heal your child here! This whole day's been pretty lazy.. Lazed around the house catching some naps and doin house chores..I've just came back from Good Tidings..they have this singer, Bobby Michaels from US...Pretty good singer with a passionate heart for GOd.....He shared about his experience on his overseas concerts and how GOd see him through... Pretty good testimony he shared.. He used to be a drug addict and a heavy drinker..Well, i was blessed going for it tonight...

I'm real sleepy now with a headache that's constantly "pushes my head to the sides".. like a heavy feeling on my head.. it hurts when we move our heads.. GOt a cough that gives out flems..In spite of this, it's only when i'm sick.,, perhaps most of the time, God speaks to me the most.. becos'
of that i've got no strengh to resist HIm... Yeah.. that's right.... lately, i think i need to spend more time wif God and that i'll hav a close intimate relationship wif Him..No doubt that He has a great plan for us, plans to prosper us and plans to do us good and to give us hope... Jeremiah 29:11 says so.. ANd there's even a song about it too.. Yeah.. the future's look uncertain.. only He knows better than me.. Only He knows what's best..

Loooooong Day man..!

hey dudes, i'm doin great know! What a long day today it is.. i'd returned home at about 9:50pm!! WHole day out in college!! The day started of me goin to SOCIT and having my Computer class.. from 8-10am.. this is my only class on fridays! THank God that Fridays are really free and fun! hhahaha....Then i'll be lingering in the concourse untill it's 1 something.. The funny thing today is that me and a fren brought our laptops and grabbed a chair and sat near the rear entrance of college.. Reason?? "Steal" starbucks' wifi!! muahahah!! Free internet!! She was playing maple story while i was downloading things.. hehehehe!! Many ppl were like wondering why are these 2 jokers with their laptops siting near the wall! ahahah.. who cares?? Free internet!! muahaha.. then later we went to McD's seats outside,, exactly behind starbucks!! Guess what> the signal was stonger!! muahahahhaha!!! THen i had a meeting in the library untill it's 3pm.. then i went to the canteen and mingled around there while watching the banners been drawn upon.. then James came over.. Found out that he's no longer in INTI but in Sunway colllege now.. Man, that gave me a little shock.. And we mingled longer in the canteen till it's 5:30pm.. then we walked to Pyramid.. (since i've got no transport untill it's like 8:30pm by Mum and nothing much to do anyways...) for like about 30 minutes.. hahaha.. nothing much to do there.. THen we "lepaked"in Starbucks.. it was really raining heavily..so, he couldn't get a taxi or walk back to INTI.. We're practically stranded..we stayed there till it's like 8:30 he went for a taxi and we say our farewells.. Now i was alone till it's 9:15 when Mum called me.. Thank God, i'm outta here! *sign of relief.. 2moro i'll be goin to Good Tidings in Sri Muda to check out this singer from US there.. hmmm sounds cool though.. hehheehe..

Nothing much to say here.. the best part is that when i'm walking with James to Pyramid when we talked about Jesus.. and shared a little.. it was a great experience to get to know each other better.. Yeah.. God BLess you dude! I've got my TOEFL test tis Monday in KL... Please pray for me.. it's pretty scary.. since it costs rm500 to register!! Ahh,, i fear the speaking section in this test.. God please help me...

hey tis is a good song...from Psalms 91.perhaps named after it though... for those of you out there.. God is your protector..He'll secure you under His arms..

Psalms 91 by Lincoln Brewster

I won't be afraid anymore,
Of the terrors by night,
Of the arrows that fly by day,
And though a thousand might fall by my side,
And though ten thousand may fall,
To Him i put all my trust...

Chorus*
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High,
shall abide in the shadow,
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High,
Shall abide in the shadow..

I will hide in YOur wings always,
Your angels stand by to keep me in all my ways,
ANd though a thousand may fall by my side,
I will say in Him I trust..

Chorus*

And though a thousand may fall by my side,
And though ten thousand may fall,
I will say of the Lord,
That in Him I put all my trust..

Year Of Increase!

Hey BLessed 2006 dudes! On New Year's Eve, i went to church for watchnite service... wat a great service it was! The pastorial team performed a super cool skit!! They dressed up like ppl from Matrix, with black jackets and sunglasses! hhahaa... ! Then it was a the countdown to 2006....This year's church theme is "Year of Increase" Yup, it's 2006 alright, it's gonna be a year of great expectations.. Yeah, 2005 is gone... Thank GOd for 2005, the college He brought me to and the friends i have.. Thank God for them.. COunt your blessings dude..... Then we had some snacks prepared by church.. Nah.,. it wasn't enough.. so me and some dudes went for mamak session in ss17.. It's pretty cool that even the mamak stall had their own fireworks!! hahah.. it was fun to watch.. but later i got a little annoyed by its loudness... We chatted till it's nearly 2am and it's time for me for the drive home.. Actually i felt like goin to Grandma's place but, something tells me to go back to KK.. On the way back, i was expecting a smooth almost, zero-traffic, to my amazement, there was a jam near Summit!! There was even a police roadblock!! hehhee.. nice..

2006 is my last year here in M'sia.. I'll be in US next year.. IT's the last year here, to do something for God, to impact lifes, b4 i leave this place.. It's year of preparation for the next.. It's a year, i'm gonna expect great things from God...i want to serve Him, to tell my frens bout Him...It's a year of increase.. THe following day, i went for sunday service.. again.. again, i had doubts and i felt troubled of GOd's plan for me.. i tend not to believe in it.. I told Him tat if it's not from Him, then take it away.. cos all i wanna do is to please HIm, to do HIs will... But then later, this voice spoke to me.. with peace.. It told me to believe in Him, for it's for His glory.. God told me to rest in HIm, not to feeel troubled.. Believe.. Let every part of me believe in HIm.. 100%.. 110%!! Believe in Him..trust.. and have peace in HIm... I felt peace in me.. God has ministered to me alright.. yeah... Funny though.. CHristian songs seems to speak to me.. like during the chorus...it seems like a verse speaks to me..It shoots me like a sword piercing my heart.. Never i felt like this b4.. Even during bible study, a verse just pops up to me.. it pierced me.. This song spoke to me.. the chorus says, Believe the unbelievable.. Receive the inconceivable..Really..struck me.. Maybe it's God speaking to me in many ways... Trust in Him..yeah.. Great Expectations...

Great Expectations by Stephen Curtis Chapman

The morning finds me here in heaven's door,
A place i've been so many times before,
Familiar thoughts and phrases start to flow,
And carry me to places that i know so well,
But dare i go where i don't understand,
And do i dare remember where i am,
I stand before the great eternal throne,
The one that God is seated on,

And I, I've been invited by the Son
Oh I, I've been invited to come and..

Believe the unbelievable,
Receive the inconceivable,
ANd see beyond my wildest imaginations,
Lord I have come with great expectations..


Of course He wants us to believe in HIm.. TO expect great things from Him...Yes, Lord, help me to believe... Give me the peace that transcends all boundaries.. AMen.