J's with me BROTHER!!

* J= Jesus

Oh man, God is good! Yesterday I met in an accident, well a really minor one. A car crashed into my right rear side. She seems to go straight, but her lane is for only turning right. Yeah, she crashed into me because I have the right to turn right.. (OH I KNOW YOU'RE CONFUSED!)

Let's just keep it simple... She was in the wrong. She insisted me to pay her eventhough she crashed into me! We parted paths and went on home. But I didn't leave, I went back to the crash site and sketched a detailed map of the area. It appears that I was right all along! I gave her a call, and disagree with her.. So, the whole day has been frustrating.

I asked my friends to pray for me. I showed them what happen, and all of them agree that I am right. I was kinda pissed of at that girl ( don't worry, she's just a short one with tomboyish looks...don't think it's a hot chic!).

So I went to get the car and went to the police station with my two friends, Joseph and Jason (say, the J's eh?). I so happen to see that girl too. With a look of confidence, thinking of that she's so right she asked for my car plate number. Deep down I know that I'm right.

I prayed for God's peace and strength. I even asked for a kind and wise not a bias inspector to see this case. Earlier, I told my friends with enthusiasm, "I'm gonna get her and make her pay for it! J's WITH ME!!".. It's just me, when I'm enthusiasm and full of determination, I'll go on speaking like that.

Well, that tomboy went to the inspector first. It took about 20 minutes before she comes out. (Gosh! Isn't is that much to say when you're in the wrong?) After that it was my turn. The inspector seems like a nice dude with signs of white hair and wrinkles giving me an estimate of he being 50 something. He seems like a nice guy, he gave me a piece of paper and I drew and told him how exactly it happen. He happens to be busy on the phone. Well, nevermind.. I notice my friends appeared beside me.

The dude nodded and said that I was right. He asked the girl to come in. He then told her that she's wrong! (Haiyah!! Take that!!) Man, he's such a good dude, he pulled back the report and told her that you can settle this outside, exempting her from paying impound. Haha!! J answered my prayers! What a moment of relieve! GOD IS GOOD DUDES!!! HAHAHA J's for JESUS and HE IS REAL BABY!!!

Man! that's good, after that, I took her to my car wanting to show what she has done. The dent she insisted me to go to her brother's workshop to get it fixed. Immediately, I said no! My friends helping me too. This is my right and your wrong, I have the right to get where I wish my car to be fixed. I have this impression that she was doing some damage control, trying to play cheap with me. Well, the repair will cost around RM300.

We shook hands and parted. I told here to be expecting my mechanic's quotation within this week. After that, I took jo and jas to salmon steak to treat them for helping me. OH yeah! LORD HELP ME NOT TO BE GULLIBLE. I need you to be my advisor, my guide. HELP ME

Well, I'm gonna get the car fixed and make her pay for it! muahaha!

GOD IS GOOD!!! Hooray!! What a sign of relieve!

HALLELUJAH BABY!!!

"Finishing is better than the beginning"

Life is full of ups and downs, like a cosine or sine graph that waves constantly up and down. One minute everything is smooth sailing and then a split second comes, your life comes crushing down. Ever wonder that to everything that happens, there is a reason behind it?

Recently, I've been feeling way discourage about my academics. I might not be working as hard (partly of me to be blamed) but things seems to get worse and worse. I cried out to God only when my exams come and when there ain't any, I won't beg God like crazy. Sounds familiar isn't it? We treat God as if He is the "Ultimate problem solving machine" while we neglect His love and peace and joy that He'll so gladly give to us if we ask. Someone told me when we pray to God, don't look to got but LOOK AT GOD. Look at His beauty and splendor and His love for us. Hehe of course, I've been naughty sometimes... :-) Man, I've been playing too much PC games and my finals are like in two weeks time!

Well I've been reading Ecclesiastes since this week. And the first impression I got was that this book is primarily about "WISDOM". And this morning while I was seating on the "throne" (if you get what I mean, I bet you do that too every morning!) I came upon this specific verse saying.. "The finishing is more important than the beginning" and it has been ringing in my mind for the whole day everytime I fret about my studies. Currently I'm a second year (sophomore student) and am not doing so well. Maybe God is trying to cheer me up and to just press on and finish my degree for the finishing is better than the beginning.

A note of encouragement to those depress dudes out there like me, don't fret, just press on and end it with God in style!

Cool!

PTL!!!

Praise The Lord!!! Amen to that dudes and dudettes!! I don't what to say, but Praise the Lord.. Let everything that has breath praise the Creator forever! GOd is great and mighty! Words can't explain how wise is He who sits upon the throne, governing the universe and all the lifeforms on it. Praise the Lord forever and ever! Let every part of you praise Him from your arms, legs, head .. down to every cell in your body down to the nucleus of every cell!!! Praise His name for He is the great Jehovah, the Lord of the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end! Praise His name!!

National Dean's List 2008

Aww man, Kevin? National Dean's List 2008?? Haha! I know what you're thinking, a dude like me struggling with college especially Calculus! Hey it'll come true! God willing! If I work hard towards it, with faith and strength divinely given, hey! Why not? Perhaps a Nobel Price Laureate? Hey, I have big dreams man! Dream big, pray hard, work hard; there's a BIG GOD UP THERE! He'll never stop untill He has finished His divine plan for your life! Yes, and He is well working in me! Amen to that!

Life isn't about doing well in exams, getting good grades and getting into an Ivy League. Here's a question. What lies beyond that? Upon graduation, your focus will be on your career. Then, you will experience a paradigm shift to impressing your boss, getting a life partner, buy a big house, big car, CEO at 27 and retire at 30. What's next? Another, shift.. Another life transforming process. Now, your wealth will be invested into your health. And your aim could be living a healthy life, leaving a legacy and making sure your kids will not follow your mistakes and to live a good and prosperous life (hopefully they'll be better then you, in all aspects, not to make mistakes; as some would say having a high probability percentage due to traits inherited in their genes, courtesy of you) What happens next? You breath your last, the final puff of oxygen. From the very first you breath as a baby crying (a newborn baby's cry is seen as a good sign medically; that you are functioning properly). You closed your eyes. And the very moment you open it again... Where would it be? Reincarnation? Hell? Heaven? Ressurected? Having your physical entity being dimished? As a Christian myself, I believe that you'll be in God's arms. He'll give you a hug- like a brother, like someone you've known for so long, like a parent who'd waited patiently; expecting the return of a child :- "Well done my good and faithful servant" this will be the very words He'll speak to you. Oh yeah some folks might ask what language is He speaking to you? An African, a Japanese, a Portuguese and believers from all nations will be using a heavenly language only understood by those who speak it. Don't ask me. I've haven't been there, and I don't know what it sounds like.
And we'll be with Him forever and ever.. Sounds like a fairy tale right? Not! It's better than that! It might sound rather gay. ( for guys, you've probably heard of phrases like "Jesus loves you", "I love Jesus" or " Jesus is my Lover") You might think that Jesus is gay, or He is rather someone who loves everyone with no particular reason. You might even argue that He is loves everyone so that He could win people's hearts (kinda like lip service?). As a matter of fact, LOVE of Jesus is not a gay love or "one night stand love", it is a love that is absolutely perfect for us. He loves(perhaps it could be replace with; He's crazy over you!) us unconditionally. Not of the way you look like, who you are, your grades, your name. No! He accepts you just the way you are. Just the way you are.. He knows your heart's deep desires, your thoughts even right now when you read this. He is delighted over you. He even knew you even before you are born, he knows your name knowing what your parents will name you. He knows eveything. EVERYTHING.. Hey, not to scare you. Don't treat God like some Intelligence Agency, He just knows everything for He is God. Oh yeah, you might aslo heard of the "Holy Spirit/ Holy Ghost". Trinity? What nonsence is that? You might ask.. Well, you know chemistry, one matter could exist in three form? Solid, Liquid and Gas (yeah I know plasma, the forth state of matter, lets just leave this out for a moment). Same goes for the Trinity (which consists of God the Father aka Big Daddy aka Jehovah aka he has many names, Jesus and the Holy Spirit) all members of the Trinity coexist simoultaneously. Trinity =three in one. Get it dude?

Well, I hope you understand what I've been typing so far.. You've probably watched movies having actors and actresses so happen to curse using God's name.... Exorcism, or maybe the famed Da Vinci Code. You have plenty of questions. Wherever you're from, you could be God loves you just the way you are. Need more questions? Approach that Christian friend of yours. Ask him/her what's this Jesus thing all about. The answer is more than your question. Perhaps even deeper the meaning. Don't believe me? Give Jesus a try..

Doulos, what a blessing!!

Wassup Jesus lovers!! I'm so blessed coming back from a trip to doulos, the ship with a lot of books and chics!! hahaha Seeing people of different nations on that boat working 2gether bringing glory to God...It's good Praise God..NOw i really wanna join them,.. and if they're sailing to US, i'll ask them to drop me in NEw York next Fall!! haha.. Save money on air tickets!!! hhahaa... Pretty smart eh?? I can't wait to go to NEw York!! Only one more year.. Actually, i planned to leave on August 06 last year..but due to my bad grades... It's delayed 1 more year... shucks!! Maybe God wants me to stay longer.. It's not the right time now though,. Oh well, 1 more year GOd!! Bring me there!! When i was driving home, I talked to GOd about how cool Doulos is despite its old age.. my reply was; "Do you know what makes me happy? Seeing people of different backgrounds united serving me".. Yeah.. the crew was so diversed.. I shaked hand with an Italian dude, and saw chics from Finland, America, South Korea..., Aww man, chics on board!! woohoo!!

"The Interview with God"

Ever wished you could interview God? The One who made the universe and everything in it..The beginning and the end? aka. Da Man, Daddy, Friend, Brother, Father....He has many names though.. Well, i came upon this website "The Interview with God" check it out..and i was really touched with the poem there..

And there is the World CUp finals, the grand finale after a month long of fierce competition of football... My favourite team(brasil) is out courtesy of the French, that's why i want the French to lose and the Italians to win.. hahhaa... if not, the Italian mafia will treathen the French.. Nah, just joking!! hahhaa

Well, do pray for peace before, during and after the match.. Crazy things could happen...

Well, that's all folks see ya and God Bless and have a good match

FOOTBALL FEVER!!

Goodness!! It's finally here!! FIFA World Cup 2006!! It's the time where guys all over the world unite in spirit of brotherhood to witness the world's most famous pastime in action live in Germany!! Woohoo!! Not to mention it's the time where all girls out there dread, of losing their fathers/husbands/brothers/boyfriends/what-so-ever to football!! Oh yeah, guys unite for the World Cup!! Woohoo!!

Sweeter with You too!! hahahha

Aww man.. it's been such a looooooooooong time since i'd last wrote something here! Exams, Exams, assigments!! Don't blame me!! I'm not a super human you know! No time to blog too. Last week was like super hectic for me!! First there's this History Court trial where i'm the lead prosecutor..Mission?? Get a witch hanged from Salem!! The judge is who else?? Prof Borges with his "hammer" and his impersonation of judge adressing the court... With him saying.. "Order! Order!!!" We put up a great show.. esp when it comes to submit our "evidence" ranging from a voodoo doll, to a broom seat (u know? witches fly on brooms???!!!!) The whole "court" their heads off..And then there was the Defence attorney..Man!! SHe's good! Well, we lost but we had fun! It took 3 hours for the whole case.. We got so tired after that! Guess what?? I've got another assigment due on Friday!!. Sigh... We slept late at nights trying to finish up on our website for assignment... It was a last minute thing.... and we got 9/10!!! Praise the Lord! Then after that, there was finals!! Oh man! I'm seriously burnt out!! Sleeping late at nights and waking up early.. Finally the harder papers are finished.. Now i have a final paper on Monday.. I'm taking the whole day off for me!! hehehhee..

There was a time i went to church.. During prayer, i sensed something telling me... Look into Isaiah 55:5.."You will aslo command the nations, and they will come running to obey, because I, the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, have made you glorious.". Wow! What a revelation! Command the nations thingy.. THis is the first time (i think) that i got such super cool stuff from the bible that a voice just told me to turn to a random verse. Cool... heheh The Bible's an ocean of treasures.. Dig well and study it's treasures.. hehhehe God's been gracious.. Too good to me in my exams.. NOt to say that my papers were super easy... No there weren't.. (except calculus., it was moderate) esp CHemistry 2!! The whole class was like showing their sad faces after it... Seriously.. tough...But i managed to answer all of the questions... not sure off my answers.... they look like nonsense... Well, mom cheered me up today by printing me an email she got on9... It was a marked question paper with super hillarious, lame answers!! I laughed my head off till my stomach hurts!! mauahahhahahahaa!!! Seriously!!! Perhaps my paper wasn't that bad if compared to that email.. hahahahahha!!!

Untill then, it's getting late.,. My next paper is on Monday.. Then there is CF camp...Praise the Lord.. Easter's here too!!! THe day Jesus died on a Friday and rose on the third day (Sunday).. yeah... Tat's right.. Easter's got nothing to do with the bunny but it's actually about Christ's death and ressurection! Amen!!!

Faithful YOu are..

It's been such a looooong time since i last updated this.. Been busy but a little too lazy to update my blog.. hehhee.. Well, how am i the past few weeks?? Hmm.. fine i guess. Am still alive by God's grace... I've been juggling my time wif so many things untill i end up tired and slept.. Guess, life's pretty tiring now... But i'm still grateful that GOd's been good.. TOday, my whole calculus class had our test 2.. Yeah, look at our faces after it... Sigh.. We've been "murdered" mentally... Gosh... Calculus...Ppl were like talking to each other and lamenting over it.. Yeah, me too. It bothered me for almost the whole day. And after the trauma.. as usual i get the most "conviction" to study! I went 4 lunch wif Adrian and Phoebe.. in AYA CAfe.... We had fun sharing bout lots of stuff bout God, and girls.. hehehee (Phoebe of course mentioned bout guys!) Heheh, it was great! Then i chilled in Oasis till 2. and We had meetinhg till 4.. Then i went to the library to "study" upon conviction!! hhahaa.. Never really been studying though...

Anyways dudes, God's been great to me.. Seriously, i've been not spending much time with HIm. Yeha, i'm gonna do it after this.. I really need to study as in study and increase my CGPA b4 i leave for US... Yeah, increase too in spiritual growth.. I'm the King's kid.. and alll blessings will flow to us who love Him.. But sometimes.. the blessing's already there.. we just need to claim it.. TO work for it... Yeah,.. God's gave me something.. I just need to work for it, to claim ownership to it..!!

Man, i feel tired

It's been some time since i last updated my blog. I've been pretty busy though.. Tests, assignments0.. I even slept at 3 trying to finish studying my History. Gosh, i feel tired...My Tuesdays are a killer... lectures from 8-4pm.. No lunch breaks.. But thank God there's hourly breaks in which i tend to call it "extended breaks".. Instead of 10 min break, i'll strectch to 20minutes. Hehehe.. DUn blame me!! It's a long day for a dude like me.. Thank GOd i can have Mum's car untill Tuesday.. Yay!!!!

Yesterday was long.. i went to coll in the morning to paint banners and then went home to chill at bout 3pm. THen at 4:45pm, i left for church which starts at 5..(yeah, i know, i'm gonna be late). Worst still, a dude bang me from the back at the roundabout.. He seems real calm (so am i) and he paid me cash, gave me his number and namecard... Well, my car wasn't tat badly damaged.. Just a dent... But that dude's car bumper came off!! EVen worst still, there was a heavy rain later... Oh man, i'm gonna be super late 4 church. So i decided to lepak in Pyramid.. LAter i went for Orientation Nite in coll.. It lasts till 10 somethng. Later Jo, Joel, Daniel and me were at McD's.. We chatted for a while and gave an African fren, Louis a call..
We went over to his house and prayed untill it was 3am! Had loads of fun hearing his jokes esp, his immitation of a african american pastor preaching!! Hhahaa..

Been busy lately.. Got so many things to do.. I know that God's shaping me... Let us not get caught up wif our busyness untill we lose our focus on God.. Ultimately, God is everything that is good, He is way bigger than any of our probs and busyness... Yup, i know God's shaping me now.. Changing me for the better... It's good to live a CHristian life eventhough it's never easy.. It is filed wif hope and love that God provides.. Now, i need to spend more time wif God and to fall in love wif Him once again...

SO sweet wif YOu!!!

Hey dudes!! Wassup?? Yesterday was super taxing for me! Can u imagine? 8 hours of classes! From 8am-4pm.. Oh man.... Plus, i'd chemistry test and Calculus quiz..So much for the ADP (all day party). Gosh, but thank God that i got the strengh to carry on.. Even though i got tired, i'd just carried on.. Then after tat, i crashed in Oasis' sofa...Ahhhh peace.. I got a nap which i don't how long i slept, till Siva woke me up.. ANd then there was practice at night... Can't sing well, my voice.. sore throat.. Then i followed Gabriel to give me a lift home..

Today was not as tiring as Tuesday.. just got 4 hours of classes. Then i went to "jaga" the valentine's day booth till it's 2pm.. Got some ppl to sit wif me too hehee.. By God's grace, managed to get 7 ppl to order!! Woohoo! Hallelujah! After the me.. I dunno that the past few days, i've been walking up to strangers and having a chat wif them..I got to know 2 Dutch dudes. (we had chicken rice in Asia Cafe), 2 Africans brethens, A dude from HArbin,China and some girls from Indonesia.. MAn.. My socializing skills are improving! Hahaahah!!

God's been great to me.. At times, i just feel that He's silent, some other times, we get have quality Buddy times together!! GOd's great ya know.. I've been listening to "Sweeter" by Lakewood church TX for almost 20 times already!! I've not bored wif it!! It's a great song reminding me that our everydays are a blessing from Him.. Good days or bad days it seems from our own eyes, everyday is a day God gives to us wif delight. It makes me know that God's telling me: "Hey, have an awesome day today! It's my gift to you today, and tomorrow and 2moro..HAve a great day dude!!" Oh man! God is too good to me that i'm left speechless.. He's so graceful that i don't deserve all His blessings.. It's not of what i am but who He is that He wants to give me the best. Same goes for YOu too!!

Sweeter by Lakewood Church TX

Everyday with You Lord,
Is sweeter than the day before,
Everyday with You Lord,
Is sweeter than the day before,
Every morning i will worship,
Every evening i adore,
Cause everyday is sweeter,
Sweeter than the day before..

What a privilage to know YOu,
Like i know YOu,
To be loved like YOu love me,
WHat and honor to worship,
Truly worship,
From this heart that YOu have freed,

From the rising of the sun,
TO the setting of the same,

What a wonder to live life,
Really live life,
Overcoming everything,
What a reason to lift up,
Freely lift up,
Everyday my everything

Amen guys??!! God's great right! I've learning to not look at life's circumstance, but look up..there's God smilling down on u and me wif great delight!!!

Of CNY fun...

Hey!!! Wat a day is it for me... Woke up bout 11 something and lazed around..Then i left home at bout 4:30pm and went to PJ... Then i met up wif old high skool frens .. Actually we are having dinner atTelok Gong, but i'm in PJ now..I shud've drove straight from KK and not waste petrol!! ALl thanks to a fren saying that we're using federal hiway which we used Kesas..Man, i passed KK in my fren's car, but my car's in PJ!! Yeah, dinner was great.. We booked 2 tables, 11 ppl each... Crabs, fish, vege, taufu, noodles and err something else... I even met some new ppl.. the ones who r doin form 6 in my skool but previously from another.. We had dinner and chatted till it's 10 something...I followed Joseph in his car wif a whole lot of noisy bunch!! hahah !! THe fun part is, my naughty fren, decided to do some paparazzi business.. Since a fren of mine was driving alone wif his girlfriend, They were like!! WOhhH!!! Leaning on each other!!! My fren even showed his fist to us!! All of us were like laughing our head of in the car.. We even gave an applause for it!! Then we sped of.. Later when we saw them in the car again, they pretended like nothing happened!!! Haahahah!!! Wat a night of laughter!! We even crack jokes.. "Chemistry jokes!!!" Exothermic reaction!!! Hahahahhahaha!! GEt it???!! Then we reached PJ at bout 11 and i took my car at Atria.. Then to visit a fren's house.. Then drove to Asia Cafe and played some foosball wif the same bunch of ppl again!! We finally left at about 1 something... Wah!! 4pm-1am!! NOt bad... Wat a night of fun wif frens!! ahahaha

I think i'm not tat close to God these days, i get sleepy when i do my quiet time.. This is wat i've got to change,... I've better be attentive to HIs voice... THat sweet, gentle,loving voice. which calls out to me in the dark, in the solitude of night.. I love to turn of the lights, draw the curtains, look at the night sky and worship wif the guitar. Wat a nice experience.. the only thing is that it's so dark, i depend on the moonlight to shine on my guitar for me to play... If onli i can share this moment wif a close fren.. We chat and share about life's issues and to pray for one another.. I've got a Friend too that is so close to me... Too close, He's next to me now.. embracing me.. Yeah, Jesus is the best Friend anyone can have.. So personal that He knows everything and is interested on wat's goin on in Your life... I've missed moments like these... Maybe it's time for me to do this after this.... Jesus, what a Friend i've found...

Kev's back dudes!!!

Blessed Chinese New Year ppl!! I hope u all are having a smashing time playing fireworks and collecting angpows!! woohoo!!! I just came back from Taiping, arrived at about 8pm something!
Taiping was great man, though it was unsually quiet this year, but at least i enjoyed myself! On the first day of CNY, i visited a Phoebe's church in Taiping... Wuh,., she was worship leading wif the keyboard.. It was awesome to visit a church here in Taiping.. and i got to meet her dad and her youth pastor too! Due to intensed boredom, i followed my young cousins to the zoo at night!!! Well, it was fine, the zoo was as huge as i thought.. But it was dark, and i never got to see much... Some animals were not in action too, most were sleeeping!! Then on the next day, EVe, Mei Ling and I went decided to hav a jog around the Taiping Lake.. IT turned out to be a walk though.. We got to see some monkeys ( i got to see some wif red butts!! hahahha!!!) and lotus flowers(they aren't blooming yet) too.. Thank God it wasn't that sunny and we walked round the whole lake.. Pretty nice scenery.. Then we had some dim sum wif Eve's mum. yeah it was fun to meet up wif frens here in Taiping.. Hmmm i didn't ate that much this year, i ate a lot of meat, Steamboat.. but not too much CNY snacks. Hmm pretty weirdfor me this year.. The following day was a little boring, thank GOd i brought back my laptop and i got to watch an entire series of anime!!! ON Tuesday night, i followed my aunty and Grandma to a food court near the Lake and we ate till we were mad full!! OH man, the food was great, but the price is like of KL's!!! I really do miss my guitar back home..

NOt to mention, this is my last Taiping here for the next 2-3years...I'll be in US next year though.. I just got a whole year left here to do something for God, to leave an impact.. HE's teaching me to trust in HIm.I still doubt and am confused, but not as much as before... NOw i feel the peace and have hope.. Life has a reason to live.. Jesus is the reason that you and me are still alive now..As long as we're still alive,we hav a purpose in us that isn't accomplished yet.. I think this is a humbling time and a time of trust in HIm.. He's preparing me for the future...There's tis song that really cheered me up.. "Sweeter".. THe chorus goes- "Everyday with You, LOrd is sweeter than the day before.." Perhaps, God's telling me to enjoy HIm.. NOt to look at life's circumstance, but to just enjoy each day wif Him for each day is a blessing from Him..I just want my everyday to be sweeter wif Him..

Happy CHinese New YEar dudes!!!

Yoyoy wassup dudes??! The hols are here finally!! 1 week of fun and collecting ang pows! hehehee.. College has been fun.. Now we have a break dance gang.. Members: 2-5ppl, Practice, some evenings, "president": Jackson. hahhaa.. It's fun breaking and learning new moves.. Yeah, this is wat i wanna do, hip-hoping in NEw York and then telling them bout JC.. Kinda like a street gospel thingy.. Oh man!! Sounds so cool!! Ok ok, enough of that... so, classes ended early 2day.. Everybody was like in a holiday mood, i bid my lecturer farewell and left comp class at 9:30!! ahaha... CF was great today.. I played the guitar.. NOt so good though.. i played the wrong chords man!! THen i followed a fren to Sri Muda for some bball.. Ahh, as usual, i get thrashed again! sigh.. Wat to do??? My bball skills rots! I went for some mamak session with some KK dudes just now.. Mark and Beng Wei was there.. Plus 2 more dudes.. Mark told me that they're playing fireworks near his place.. i walked back home only to find out that my mum's car is out of order!! I walked back to mamak and they were missing!! Shucks!! THey left me!! Now, i'm in the process in packing my luggage.... I'm leaving for Taiping 2moro at 6am man!! I just can't wake up...

Lately, i doubt a lot..Many a times i cried out to God, whether this is from Him or not.. And my reply was, Trust.. Guess it's a tough word for me to follow...I'm not a guy that is good at things.. I'm not so good in sports and i'm kinda like "Jack of all trades, master of none.." sigh.. I lack in many areas of my life. I guess this is a humbling time for me.. I feel that God's constantly testing me almost all the time.. To trust in Him,. Seriously, i see myself as a weakling.. streching out for GOd's gentle hands to pull me out from the the doubt i am in now... I asked GOd many times, why choose me for this task? You've got the wrong guy.. He had chosen me, even since the whole began, even before i was ever born, He knew me well,...He had set a plan to prosper me.. All He said is that all He wants is my heart.. He doesn't care about our ability but our avaiability..Rhymmes right?? hehehhee.. Sigh,... i'm just gotta trust God..I'll just see how He's gonna work in this "weak and struggling child" of His.... IF it's from HIm, then it'll stay for a long time.. if it's not, then it'll go in a little while longer... I feel so weak now... All i have to give is my heart..."For if there is a change of heart, there will be a change of feelings.." This is wat my Youth Pastor told us in a camp.. Really relevant to me. It's like it struck my heart. Gosh, God speaks! And speaks with a blast too! Like a sword piercing your heart.. real hard that it just gave you a "mega nudge".. That's what i get sometimes..I wish God will do that to me again.. I don't want to believe in a lie..All i want is to live in His ways, to put a smile on His face..Everytime i look up, want to see God's smile on me..on the people of this world that He loved so much..It's just all about God, i've got to decrease, so that He'll increase in me....
Lord tonight, i call upon Your peace to be upon me. Let me fall in love with You once again..Bring me back to the Secret Place..

Awesome W33k!

Hey wassup dudes! This whole week's been really awesome.. It's Intima Week where clubs set up booths to promote their clubs.. Had real fun taking care of the CF booth. Met a lot of ppl this week! About 60 newcomers signed up for CF! Praise the Lord! I got a shock on MOnday's SUn newspaper.. My fren got on the front page wif her face full of clippers!! hahaha... That was the previous week's FlyFm crew who did a roadshow in coll. REal shock man! Anyways.. on friday, CF started their first meeting.. Many ppl came 4 it! And i was in a real hurry to set up things in time.. Praise the Lord, everythings done almost on time.. I stayed in coll till 5 something and then followed a fren to PJ.. Got church that nite.. hehhee.. I went to church but i felt real tired.. There's this pastor from India gave a pretty good sermon.. but my eyes were like can't keep open.. I was so tired..!!! So sorry Lord!! I got back to Grandma's place and crashed..! Wuh..so sleepy..!

Then on Saturday... i woke up at 7 and got ready.. I called Joseph for transport...As usual, he's still asleep.. and we'll be late for coll.. I took bout 15 minutes to walk to his place.. and later we were speeding of to coll. We had a nice time painting 2 banners and i stayed in coll untill it was 6!! Gosh i got no transport and coll looks so deserted on Saturdays.. Thank GOd i've got my laptop to keep me company!!

LAtely, i don't feel much of God..Too much emotions going on..And i come to realise that we do not need emotions to determine our spiritual life. It's the faith that counts.. ANd i began to realise that Chinese NEw YEar is around the corner.. and it'll be my last here... so is CHristmas, and my birthday.. Everything seems to be the last one for me this year b4 i leave for US next year.. GOsh.. i hav only a year left to do something for GOd here.. I might not get a chance to fly back becos of expensice air tickets and might remain there for 3 years..! But GOd is the same everywhere.. no matter where i go, His WOrd is a Lamp unto my feet.. directing my every paths. All i got to do is to surrender my ways and to obey HIm..

NIce 13th Friday... hahahhaa

Friday 13th??! Hahaha, waht nonsense! THat's superstition! Nothing bad happened to me or to my frens.. COm'on guys, don't be superstitious!! hahaa... Friday was fun! My computer class ends at 10 and i'd hanged around campus..AHhh so bored.. Did some calculus in the ADP office.. untill a fren came finding me... Actually i sent the wrong sms .. and i apologized.. hehe sorry for causing any confusion.... Then there was tis FlyFm crew who were challenging the students to do crazy things from eating cat food, guy-waxing leg-while-singing, eating salted eggs wif the shell still on.., bball shooting and lots more.. 3 of us were caught and "forced" to do the skipping rope.. It's guys vs.girls in this.. And sad to say.. me and a fren being such "gentlemen" let the girls beat us.. And there were lots of crazy challenges kinda like "I bet u will" on MTV.. Hahaha onli tis is less crazy.. A fren of mine sacrificed his pants for rm50.. Another won rm26 in some clippers-on-face game.. Haha.. i even get to meet some Persian students.. we told them that we shud play bball once in a while.. Then i went to PJ.. Actually i was planning to visit my old skool CF and do a little catchin up.. BUt i was told that it's canceled.. Oh man.. Perhaps some other time la.. hhehee.. Then later at night i went for Cell Group in SS2.. Ahh... it's the first one of this year and i'm glad that i'm here.. eventhough, my guitar playing was not that good... hehhee.. sorry guys..We threw a surprise Birthday party for a fren 2day.... hahaha.. Went to mamak till it's midnight and a fren gave me a lift to Grandma's home.. Ahhh it's good to be here again... In this room i've been sleeping for the past 5 years... I did a little flashback on my high skool years and the years i've been growing up in Grandma's place... God's been faithful throughout my high skool years.. He still is now..

Then on saturday.. i spent the whole day at Grandma's, fetching my bro, and then later drove back to KK.. At night, i called some frens 4 bball, but non are free.. Oh well, it's me again.. alone on the court... wif the night sky,onli me , the ball and the hoop.. Lonelines.. hehhee ..

Been thinking on how God's gonna bring me through to my years in US.. It's my last year here, and i might not be coming back for the next 3 years over there becos of air tickets are expensive... I wonder how will i be.. HOw are things gonna be like.. I'm still confused about things... Doubt in it once in a while..But a few nights ago, during bible study, i read about "spiritual confusion".. It says on how confuse at times.. Confuse about God's voice.. However, it further says that God will make Himself even clearer after we being confused.. He'll make His voice and plans for us even clearer for us to see..It kinda struck me even though i'm sleepy at that time.. BUt i know, GOd will make things clear for me.. ...

Oh SiLLY Me!!!

Hey guess what?!!! hahhahaa, my TOEFL score isn't 203,!!! it's the range between 203 to 260!!! hahhahaa Oh i felt like a "dungu" worrying the whole day yesterday!! Oh man!!! Oh u silly kevin! Anyways, today was a very err.... awkward day.. My parents' car broke down in the middle of no where.. and i got to drive to them and buy petrol.. It took me bout 20minutes to reach there.. But i got them Engine Oil, instead of petrol!! Then i drove back to KK again and bought petrol.. Have to fill it up in water bottles since they don't sell containers!! Ahh!! It's the first time i was petrol.. It's yellow in color and very liquid... I thought it's kinda thick..! hahhaa... The whole process of rescuing them took me bout 1:45 hours! sigh.... I'm late for meeting too!.. THen later i drove to Subang Parade but parked in Carrefour.. We chatted and planned for this CF's schedule and bout camp.. THen the Nilai dudes came.. we.. chatted longer and discussed many things... At bout 6, we went for steamboat.. (buffet!!) It was good man, but i was kinda full though.,. I had a great time getting to know the INTI Nilai CF ppl and got all of their MSN contacts! muahaha... I fetcthed some of them to the KTM station and drove home...

Yeah, there's no need to worry becos it only makes things worst..! Seriously, what i've learnt yesterday, i hope that it will be a lesson well learnt and not to forget it.. Hahaa, GOd is too good to me.. ANd about "rescueing" my parents, i'd learnt patience and not to throw my temper around.. Yup, it's good that GOd is teaching me things... Blessing me with the Fruits of the Spirit.. Amen... Well, it's the "Year of Increase" this year, that's my church's theme of this year.. I want to see God increase me in every areas of my life, including my CGPA!!! hahaha.. THank You, Lord for being just the way YOu are, all loving, forever gracious..

You know better than I, taken from the animation: Joseph, King of Dreams..

I thought i did was right,
I thought i had the answers,
I thought i chose the surest road,
But that road brought me here..

SO i put up a fight,
And told u how to help me,
NOw just when i had given up,
The truth is coming clear,

YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let go the need to know why,
FOr YOu know better than I..

If this has been a test,
I cannot see the reason,
BUt maybe knowing i don't know,
Is part of getting through,
I tried to do what's best,
And faith has made easy,
To see the best thing i can do,
Is put my trust in You..


I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky,
I saw a bird and thought that i could follow,
BUt it was You that taught that bird to fly,
If i let You reach me, will YOu teach me..

FOr YOu know better than I,
You know the way,
I let the need to know why,
I take what answers YOu supply,
YOu know better than I,
You know better than I....

Indeed, God knows better than we all do... The path we choose might seem the best for us, but sometimes, GOd wants us to take another path, another direction.. It might seem strange.. but, in the eyes of God, HE sees that it is the best for us.. He has the best things in store for us..He has a plan for all of us..

--For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.--
Jeremiah 29:11

Year of Increase indeed!

Hey! It's like 12:31am now.. I'd a nice time 2day goin to KL to take my TOEFL test.. I arrived at the centre at bout 11 something and went in to the room with a heart that needs GOd's strengh and comfort. It took me like 3 hours to finish it. Then, when i finished my essay, i saw, the unofficial score ...203/260??!!!( excluding essay with a max marks of 40, therefore, 40+260=300) What??!!!!!I just hope that my essay would pull up my score untill it is sufficient enough to meet my Uni's requirement.. THe test was like quite moderate and i double checked my reading section. Oh man!! What happened dude??!Y is it so low??! I've been speaking English since i was a kid and am quite ok with tis language.. Y so low score??! Anyways, i left the centre and took the monorail to Imbi.. My mind was too preoccupied with my score.. I got down the station, bought some snacks, looked around and went back to the monorail with a ticket to KL Sentral. As was in the monorail, i realised that i was heading the wrong direction. Sigh, wat's goin on man?? Y am i such a "dong" 2day?? Then i finally reached KL sentral and took the LRT to the station closest to Mid VAlley... Waited for quite a long time and resulted in taking the cab instead... Haha, he asked for RM5.. Reason?"New Year la" Double sigh... Oh man... wat's goin on dude?? I went to MPH to find a college text bout found nothing, then to some computer stores and can't find what i wanted..(a slim case for my laptop).. Man., i took the bus back to the LRT station and went KJ.. Took mum's car and drove to Chris' place. told him wat's on my mind and we prayed for one another... It was really refreshing. LAter drove to Grandma's.. SHe was really excited when she sees me.. SHe's living alone now.. since my Uncle moved out.. GOsh, she must be real lonely now... That's y i'll stay with her every Fridays when Celll Group starts... Took a quick dinner and dropped Chris at SS2 and went to KJ Station to take the bus to Sunway.. Btw, Break dance class was real fun today!! Thought us how to do back and front flips (the lower kind) and find that our backs and heads hurt a little.. in the learning process..hhehehehe.. Then later we had a little "bboy battle".. we challenged each other on turtle and frog stand.. Man, they were like cheating by disracting us.. we did the same too. hhehehe.. Then i talked to the person in charge of the centre, Joel.. He seems to be collaborating with CDFM (Christian Dance Fellowship Malaysia) and with Liang( a hip-hop dude from my church) and with Altered Frequency.. man., sounds cool and i really want to be a part of it..! hhahahha... Not to mention this is one of my break dance classes.. Mum wants me to study.. sigh....... Nvrm i can learn from friends and from videos then.. hahhaa.. I'm cool..

About worrying, i learnt that there are far more better things to think about than to worry,,.. I was worried about my Toefl score.. On my journey home,i saw a crippled beggar and a lonely old lady.. I saw the ppl's faces and i feel the need to pray for them.. Yeah, GOd's teaching me to see things through His eyes! it's good, it's good..Hallelujah.. Worry only makes things worst... It's like a spec of dust to the runner.. Can a speck of dust block a person from running?? Certainly not! Same goes for us... don't worry.. for it is worthless.. I've justs found out that Stony's toefl requirement is 213!! haha i tot it was 220 or 270!! Let's just hope now that my essay could pull upmy score untill it meets the 213 mark.. Please Lord.. Help me!!! LEt the examiner be lineant on my essay.. Now i'm feeling the peace.. hey, it's not that bad after all.. Well, thank YOu Lord that i can sleep in peace now.. thanks my Daddy up there.. hehehe...

Not feeling so good man.,...

i'm not feeling so good now.. Got a sore throat, headache and a cough... sigh....Plus my TOEFL is on Monday.. I need to be healed b4 that! God please heal your child here! This whole day's been pretty lazy.. Lazed around the house catching some naps and doin house chores..I've just came back from Good Tidings..they have this singer, Bobby Michaels from US...Pretty good singer with a passionate heart for GOd.....He shared about his experience on his overseas concerts and how GOd see him through... Pretty good testimony he shared.. He used to be a drug addict and a heavy drinker..Well, i was blessed going for it tonight...

I'm real sleepy now with a headache that's constantly "pushes my head to the sides".. like a heavy feeling on my head.. it hurts when we move our heads.. GOt a cough that gives out flems..In spite of this, it's only when i'm sick.,, perhaps most of the time, God speaks to me the most.. becos'
of that i've got no strengh to resist HIm... Yeah.. that's right.... lately, i think i need to spend more time wif God and that i'll hav a close intimate relationship wif Him..No doubt that He has a great plan for us, plans to prosper us and plans to do us good and to give us hope... Jeremiah 29:11 says so.. ANd there's even a song about it too.. Yeah.. the future's look uncertain.. only He knows better than me.. Only He knows what's best..

Loooooong Day man..!

hey dudes, i'm doin great know! What a long day today it is.. i'd returned home at about 9:50pm!! WHole day out in college!! The day started of me goin to SOCIT and having my Computer class.. from 8-10am.. this is my only class on fridays! THank God that Fridays are really free and fun! hhahaha....Then i'll be lingering in the concourse untill it's 1 something.. The funny thing today is that me and a fren brought our laptops and grabbed a chair and sat near the rear entrance of college.. Reason?? "Steal" starbucks' wifi!! muahahah!! Free internet!! She was playing maple story while i was downloading things.. hehehehe!! Many ppl were like wondering why are these 2 jokers with their laptops siting near the wall! ahahah.. who cares?? Free internet!! muahaha.. then later we went to McD's seats outside,, exactly behind starbucks!! Guess what> the signal was stonger!! muahahahhaha!!! THen i had a meeting in the library untill it's 3pm.. then i went to the canteen and mingled around there while watching the banners been drawn upon.. then James came over.. Found out that he's no longer in INTI but in Sunway colllege now.. Man, that gave me a little shock.. And we mingled longer in the canteen till it's 5:30pm.. then we walked to Pyramid.. (since i've got no transport untill it's like 8:30pm by Mum and nothing much to do anyways...) for like about 30 minutes.. hahaha.. nothing much to do there.. THen we "lepaked"in Starbucks.. it was really raining heavily..so, he couldn't get a taxi or walk back to INTI.. We're practically stranded..we stayed there till it's like 8:30 he went for a taxi and we say our farewells.. Now i was alone till it's 9:15 when Mum called me.. Thank God, i'm outta here! *sign of relief.. 2moro i'll be goin to Good Tidings in Sri Muda to check out this singer from US there.. hmmm sounds cool though.. hehheehe..

Nothing much to say here.. the best part is that when i'm walking with James to Pyramid when we talked about Jesus.. and shared a little.. it was a great experience to get to know each other better.. Yeah.. God BLess you dude! I've got my TOEFL test tis Monday in KL... Please pray for me.. it's pretty scary.. since it costs rm500 to register!! Ahh,, i fear the speaking section in this test.. God please help me...

hey tis is a good song...from Psalms 91.perhaps named after it though... for those of you out there.. God is your protector..He'll secure you under His arms..

Psalms 91 by Lincoln Brewster

I won't be afraid anymore,
Of the terrors by night,
Of the arrows that fly by day,
And though a thousand might fall by my side,
And though ten thousand may fall,
To Him i put all my trust...

Chorus*
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High,
shall abide in the shadow,
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High,
Shall abide in the shadow..

I will hide in YOur wings always,
Your angels stand by to keep me in all my ways,
ANd though a thousand may fall by my side,
I will say in Him I trust..

Chorus*

And though a thousand may fall by my side,
And though ten thousand may fall,
I will say of the Lord,
That in Him I put all my trust..

Year Of Increase!

Hey BLessed 2006 dudes! On New Year's Eve, i went to church for watchnite service... wat a great service it was! The pastorial team performed a super cool skit!! They dressed up like ppl from Matrix, with black jackets and sunglasses! hhahaa... ! Then it was a the countdown to 2006....This year's church theme is "Year of Increase" Yup, it's 2006 alright, it's gonna be a year of great expectations.. Yeah, 2005 is gone... Thank GOd for 2005, the college He brought me to and the friends i have.. Thank God for them.. COunt your blessings dude..... Then we had some snacks prepared by church.. Nah.,. it wasn't enough.. so me and some dudes went for mamak session in ss17.. It's pretty cool that even the mamak stall had their own fireworks!! hahah.. it was fun to watch.. but later i got a little annoyed by its loudness... We chatted till it's nearly 2am and it's time for me for the drive home.. Actually i felt like goin to Grandma's place but, something tells me to go back to KK.. On the way back, i was expecting a smooth almost, zero-traffic, to my amazement, there was a jam near Summit!! There was even a police roadblock!! hehhee.. nice..

2006 is my last year here in M'sia.. I'll be in US next year.. IT's the last year here, to do something for God, to impact lifes, b4 i leave this place.. It's year of preparation for the next.. It's a year, i'm gonna expect great things from God...i want to serve Him, to tell my frens bout Him...It's a year of increase.. THe following day, i went for sunday service.. again.. again, i had doubts and i felt troubled of GOd's plan for me.. i tend not to believe in it.. I told Him tat if it's not from Him, then take it away.. cos all i wanna do is to please HIm, to do HIs will... But then later, this voice spoke to me.. with peace.. It told me to believe in Him, for it's for His glory.. God told me to rest in HIm, not to feeel troubled.. Believe.. Let every part of me believe in HIm.. 100%.. 110%!! Believe in Him..trust.. and have peace in HIm... I felt peace in me.. God has ministered to me alright.. yeah... Funny though.. CHristian songs seems to speak to me.. like during the chorus...it seems like a verse speaks to me..It shoots me like a sword piercing my heart.. Never i felt like this b4.. Even during bible study, a verse just pops up to me.. it pierced me.. This song spoke to me.. the chorus says, Believe the unbelievable.. Receive the inconceivable..Really..struck me.. Maybe it's God speaking to me in many ways... Trust in Him..yeah.. Great Expectations...

Great Expectations by Stephen Curtis Chapman

The morning finds me here in heaven's door,
A place i've been so many times before,
Familiar thoughts and phrases start to flow,
And carry me to places that i know so well,
But dare i go where i don't understand,
And do i dare remember where i am,
I stand before the great eternal throne,
The one that God is seated on,

And I, I've been invited by the Son
Oh I, I've been invited to come and..

Believe the unbelievable,
Receive the inconceivable,
ANd see beyond my wildest imaginations,
Lord I have come with great expectations..


Of course He wants us to believe in HIm.. TO expect great things from Him...Yes, Lord, help me to believe... Give me the peace that transcends all boundaries.. AMen.