No one loves me like YOu

GUess it's just another day for me. I was planning to go to church 2day for lunch wif pastor.. but i backed out last minute.. felt tired after this morning of bball. My arms and shoulders still hurt right now. Bruises everywhere too. OUch.. I think i'm not using this hols very well. Been on9 almost all the time.. Need to do more benificial things though... It's great that i've been back on writing my journal again after not writing for a few months.. It's good to keep track of how i felt and of personal testimonies all recorded.

I think i'm gaining more wisdom from GOd. despite of my lack of spending time with Him, i sense Him telling me to take courage in doing things for Him. I think back to last month.. i heard a song on the radio, sung by Whitney Houston.. The chorus goes....Be bold, courageous..... Somehow... i didn't knew y this really struck me.. Then i felt something telling me.. BE BOLD. Yes, be bold..Maybe i'm not bold enough sometimes in doing God's will.. I see the oportunity sometimes, but i'm not bold enough to go for it. Maybe i'm afraid that i might not achieve it and that i might fail getting it. Maybe sometimes, i got to stand up for the faith and to take charge. Go for it! Go when God says GO! Yes, this i got to learn.

This song reminded of my first love wif God and through all these time, His love never changed for me. ..

No one loves me like You, by Jars of CLay..

Collapsing was much softer,
Still falling always hurt,
Only after sensing Your love,
For always ever burnt,
You justified my folly,
My affluent disguise,
Removed revealing nothing,
Yet nothing unforgiving lies,
Unforgiven lies,

No one loves me like YOu,
No one loves me the way that You do,
No one loves me like You,
No one loves me the way, the way that You do.....

To touch the rose unfearful,
Is to meet the thorn,
And pierce the heart's emotion,
And feel the emptiness no more,
Emptiness no more....

Took some time I've fallen....


It's been sometime now Lord, since i'd experienced my first love for YOu. Bring me back to our first love... Your love for me hasn't and will never change.. I want to be like David, the man after Your own heart.. Bring me back to You....

OUch, my hip hurts...

What a nice day it is today. Woke up at bout 9 and the first thing i did was on9.. hahaha. i need to cut down on internet and do more benficial things like reading the bible, building my spiritual muscles. AMen.. Recently, i've been goin to the gym in KK clubhouse.. I want to be fit physicallly and spiritually for the Lord. That's doing God's will, being healthy physically and spiritually. The whole day's been normal for me. NOthing special. Being bored and wanting to be a "good son", i did the laundry and cleaned the front yard so to impress mum when she comes home wif... Hheeh Thankfully, i have mum's car to drive around 2day. Drove around KK and to the clubhouse. THen later i drove to breakdance class.. Class was real cool though.. THey thought us to balancing.. Learnt some new moves- some-- shoulder stand, which caused my hip ot hurt! Ouch... thank God it's not that bad now! hahha.. and i found out later, that all the hip-hop music is CHristian, and i found out that the owner of the center is CHristian.. hahha.. It's good.. THat's wat i wanna do, holy hip-hop. dancing with street kids and then sharing the gospel with them. THis kind of ministry is called "Street Gospel" and is pretty common in US... Yay! when i'm there, hope i can do this kind of ministry with the kids..hahaha THat's why i'm learning breakdance now!

God's been talking to me.. He calls me gently,asking me to spend time wif Him.. He asked me gently to devote at least 30 minutes HIm. Although i get distracted and i would procrastinate on doing quiet time, He'll constantly, gently ask me to spend time with HIm., Gosh waht a gentle GOd we have! And after quiet time, He would thank me and congratulate me for doing quiet time.. Wow, i hav a appreciative God.. It's good to be a Christian, being a child of GOd. I feel a sense of belonging with HIm and to fellow CHristians. Aslo, as a Christian, He told me that we are bearers of His name and must conduct ourselves well, to reflect His standads. Yeah, I've been wearing a cross... ANd He told me that when u're wearing it, you're carrying My name...
This song here reminds me of how we freely surrender to the Lord.. A song of surrender and having a "God-chaser" attitude in it.. Guess i have to learn what being desperate for God and surrendering to God means..

You're all I need, Planet Shakers

YOur grace is all i need,
YOur love is all i ever wanted,
Your presence in my life,
Jesus Your touch is my desire,

My heart it sings for You,
My every breath is Yours my Jesus,
I live to worship You,
Jesus YOu're everything,

You are all i want,
YOu are everything i need,
My soul thrist for YOu,
You are more than life to me,

You're all i need, (x3)
Jesus.....


God's been good to me. His plans are coming to pass... I willingly give to YOu Lord..

Don't pass me by..

It's good to be back in PJ again. Friday was real fun, went to coll at 9 something anda waited till it's bout 1 something for comm meeting. Then i went to cell at 8;30pm but tis time's it's in my boss' house..hhahhaha. Pretty weird becos the college kids' and the high skool kids are having cell at simoultaneously. It's kinda fun esp during worship.. where i got to play the guitar wif a pianist.. yay! jamming session. hahaha

Then today, i woke up in Grandma's house bout 7 and got ready for an old time sport! Football!! woohoo!! It's kinda fun becos i get to meet wif my old buddies back in high skool... hahah we had a smashing time even though the field is muddy.. esp at the front of a goal post! I can't stop laughing at the guys trying to kick the ball into the goal since the puddle of water will block the ball from going in. Hahaah real funny when Naresh fell into some mud!! hahahah...
I started breakdance class last monday in sunway... Those guys thought me how to stand on two hands.. doing the frog stand.. but for the turtle stand, i don't seem to get the hang of it.My stomach hurts.... i can't even strecth , i was aching all over... ahhhh . the streching reminds me of taekwondo class in which i stopped 4 years ago!! ahhhh NOw i know how low my fitness level is... ahhhh

I'm still having doubts abut God's plan for me.. I express my unbelief to HIm and am confused sometimes. I cry out to God and ask for His guidance. If it's isn't from YOu, then take it away then. If it's YOur plan then , i asked Him for HIs peace.. and everytime He seems to give me the peace.. Sigh we're all struggling beings and when we're down, we'll turn the Lord for help and His guidance... I asked God for more confirmations and signs.. and i think that i notice the confirmation but i feel something holding me back.. I realise that this "holding back" thing is resultant of not moving on in my spritual life. He wants me to grow spritually and bring me to a higher level of faith in Him.. A higher spritual level with the Lord. ya, i need to spend more time wif Him durin the hols... Here's a song that really touched me..

DOn't pass me by.. by Planet Shakers

My heart it longs,
My soul it thirst for more,
For more of You,
I'm reacing out,
I'm waiting here for more,
For more of You,

Cos all i want is You,
And all i need,
Is to be here with YOu,

I'm hungry for YOur fire,
I'm desperate You're my one desire,
Jesus please don't pass me by,
I need YOu more than ever,
I'm thristy for a touch from heaven,
Jesus please don't pass me by...

Don't pass me by Lord,
I'm desperate for You..

I'm hungry for You,
So hungry for YOu...

I'm hungry for You, that's waht i need to be,, I pray that the He will give me the desire to be hungry and desperate for Him.. Lord, please give me the passion for Your name..

Fren Forev3r..

Today has been normal.. I've been to church.. Earlier this day (1:28am) Gavin called me asking me to print the cell ad for church... Ahhh y this kinda time even though your printer isn't working...!!! ahhhhh Anyways, i woke up and took the deligience to print it!! Hahah real funny though!! it's looks like a criminal warning with the "WANTED!" word and our pics black and white! hahaha!! Real funny! Was laughing till i'm wide awake!

This whole day was kinda normal.. I've been to the gym and worked out till my arms ache.. Need to get back in shape for breakdance.. To keep fit to do GOd's will! Amen! Be healthy physically, emotionally and spritually.. God's been great to me.. Too good till i'm speechless..! I can't explain His goodness..,.. You've too experience it 4 urself and you'll get what i mean..

Here's a song that really touched me..

What a Friend I've Found.
by Delirious?

What a Friend I've found,
Closer than a brother,
I have felt Your touch,
MOre intimate than lovers,

Chorus;
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,
Friend Forever,

What a hope I've found,
More faithful than a mother,
It would break my heart,
To ever lose each other,

This song really made me ponder of how close and personal God can be.. Closer than anything else... He's close to you too right now.. What a Friend I've found...

Of Friday fun..

Friday was one day of fun! CAlled jo where he is in the morning..Guess what he was in JO's house.. oh wait,(Joseph Leong's house).. I picked Chris up and went straight to jo leong's house. Btw, i'll be in PJ because of cell at night! hahaha.. As we arrived, we had some homemade waffles and a little chat. Shannon, Pi Yao and Huay LIan is there too.. Kinda gave me a shock when they said that they're there since 8am! hahaha weird dudes...Oh man, they wanna play some dota..( don't really like it) but i just wanna hav fun anyways.. I dunno i love fridays so much.. First, it's the last day of the weekdays, second, it's CELL !! woohoo!!! Cell is great!! IT's the time of fellowship and fun all the way till it's late at night! hahaha! I dunno why my guitar skills has improved so much! hahah i could play so much better! Thank GOd! Then we went to Tmn Paramount for some boring dota... ahh real suck in it.. Anyways, it was fun! Later i gave CHris a lift to his workplace in Tmn Tun. SO, working in a skate shop eh?? Hmmm i saw him sweeping the floor, i bid farewell with a wish of "have fun with the floor dude!!!" ..Btw, pretty good pay though, rm5 per hour!! wow!! better than Starbucks.. Nice.. He'll better treat me lunch someday! CHris.. u owe me big time! Then it was cell at 8:30. As usual i'm the first to arrive at 8:15.. M'sian timing.... CG leader's always late! Way to go Angeline!! hahaha!! Word was on "Greater Love", worship by Jeff.. We shared of how we're attracted to the opposite sex.. Hahaha. Gavin loves professional looking girls.. with the chopstick on the hair!! hahahaha!!! Weird dude.. Then it's mamak session at the cliche Sri Kayu.. all the way till it's midnight.

NOthing much happened today( saturday), I drove back from Grandma's alone in the afternoon.. My head kept playing this song, Amazed.. Gosh it's a pretty good song.. Makes u wonder of the greatness of God's love for us.. Yeah.. i've said it and i'll sait again.. God's love is the best.. It's called "agape" the Greek word for love...which literaly means God's unconditional love for us, humans.. Amen to that... How great and how deep His love for us could be.. I will always choose God's love than anything else. No one else loves me as much as God.. He loves you more than others do.

"Greater love has no one like this, that He lay down His life for His friends"- John 15:13

This verse here reminds me of how one could lay down his/her life for his/her frens.. It's a sacrfice of one's life for the sake and out of the love for others he/she loves.. The same too goes for Jesus who died on the cross some 2000 years ago for the love of the world... ppl of the past, present and the future..

Amazed

I woke up at bout 6am something and went back to bed again, and been waken up by dad at 7;45am just to ask me to fix the pc up.. Gosh, i went on9 for a while and then went back to bed again.. Hahah bed's my best fren now. The whole day's been fine, and i went for some "yamcha" session with Jason, a church fren in Ehsan(the mamak stall at the 2nd roundabout) at bout 9:30pm. Got some nice western food in mamak and later i rushed home at 10:15pm to catch up with Alias. ANd here i am now it's 12 something and i'm listening to Amazed now by Ross Parsley.. It's pretty different from the Desperation one. THis one's has strings and is less rockish, more classical and acoustic.. My kind of music.. the soft and acoustic kind.. Not too much of electric guitar...Through this song, the lyrics seem so simple, so clear.. the song writer expressing his amazement of God. It's good. It made me ponder of the wideness, deepness and the greatness of God's love for all of us.

IT's good to hear GOd's favor to be upon us. It's good that God desires to give us the est. But sometimes, i feel that i don't deserve and i began to wonder what would other ppl think of me. They might wonder how in the world did i get such blessings. I feel that i need to give it all away because the blessings are too much that i couldn't even contain it. But sometimes i wonder, couldn't be unfair to the others?? I mean ppl might get jealous of me for having being blessed abundantly by God? Then a voice told me... that i shouldn't worry about them for He has the best installed for them if they choose to follow Him. Amen to that! God's been telling me many stuff that i forget some of them. During this day, GOd's been telling me to spend time with Him. I neglected, but a whisper told me to at least commit 10 minutes of undivided attention for Him. It's good. It's good that He encourages me to spend time with Him. He seems so gentle to me.After i finished with the 10 mins or so, i felt a sense of peace and He seems to thank me for spending time with Him, How appreciative anc gentle our GOd is! AMen!

I've got lots to learn from God, i need to fire up my spiritual life so that i'll be spiritually fit and be able to let GOd work through me. It takes time, says the Lord, much patience is required, much perseverance, but hey! the rewards are bountiful! The Lord is faithful! AMen to that! I guess i'm awestruck by Him now.... It's good. God has the best installed for us, it's just that we need to fully surrender to Him and allow Him to work in our lifes...

Here's a all time classic:

Potter's Hands
by Darlene Zschech

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour,
I know for sure, that all of my days are held in Your hands,
Crafted into Your perfect plan,

You gently call me into Your presence,
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit,
Teach me dear Lord,
To live all my life through Your eyes,

I'm captured by Your holy calling,
Set me apart, I know,
You're drawing me to Your side,
Lead me Lord, I pray,

Chorus;
Take me , mould me,
Use me, fill me,
I give my life to the Potter's hands,
Call me, guide me,
Lead me, walk beside me,
I give my life to the Potter's hands.


Somehow, this song seems to have so much relevance to me. I'd never really knew what this song meant untill recently. It's a song of total surrender and trust to God. It's good to have a great God!

Whew..!!! I'm back!

Gosh! i'm finally home, back in KK after a having a nice time in Genting with the CF bunch. We stayed at Ria Apartments from 14th-16th .. What a smashing time it is!! I've got lots of pic and videos.. ANd even a some rapping we recorded while in Siva's car.. Thanks bro for fetching me home! Hahaha!! what a time we had! On the first night, we had some fettuchini.. (some spaghetti with some white sauce). Siva, Weeks, and Adrian were getting into the Italian mood with some putting on some weird Italian accent which sounds like a wannabe!! hahaha! Weird dudes! The next day, the advisors came over for a visit. Ms.Khor was real funny. We discussed about next sem's schedule. MAn, we've got lots of ideas. Later at night, we got some disco in the house..The music was playing and everybody got into the disco groove.. I didn't know that Adrian could do the split!! hahaha!! I've got ur video man!! Then later we got some burgers for supper.. Though some of the meat were burnt, but we sure had a grea supper! Praise Jesus!!!

The one thing that i've learnt from this trip is the confirmatin of God's plans for me. On the second day, in the afternoon, Joel told us to get together and pray. He added that those of us that think that God spoke to you and have doubts, speak to God and ask Him whether it's from Him or that we're just making it up. I remembered my doubt, and i aske GOd to send me a confirmation in this.. or if isn't from You, then take this desire away. As we're praying, Joel asked me to lead in prayer, suddenly i felt a very strong feeling (kinda like a big whooosh into my heart) and i knew instantly that this is God's confirmation. I still have a little doubt now but i'm certain that this voice is clearl from God. AMen! God sent me a confirmation! Still, if this desire isn't from Him then i freely give it away to Jesus. I hope to see more confirmations and signs from GOd so that i will constantly remember God's plans for me. Indeed Jeremiah 29:11 is a good verse. Plans that will prosper us and not harm us,., These plans here are of God's and it is for us. I stronly urge u guys, to always trust in the Lord, for He has the best installed for us.

Glad to be in coll, again..

Hey, i'm in coll now and it's 8:21am now!!! hahaha.. i was here since 7:45am after Dad dropped me here. NOw i'm seeing M'sian timing in action.. Suppose to wait for the CF ppl at 9am.. I know many will be late and many will come at 9:30am! Hahahahaha.. M'sian timing! Gosh, it's so quiet here in coll.. since the happening ppl from AUP are on holidays, only the miserable a-lvls are having classes!!! ahaha too bad guys....I wonder when's the finals results coming out??? I hope to get good grades and get that scholarship again! hehehehe..... Hmm i don't wat to do now.. I'm bored.. what must i do?? Can i type watever i wanna type on here b4 i get bored?? Ahhhh help me.. i'm bored now!! ahhhhhhh

Sunday, what a day!

I was waken up by mom today.. We're leaving for church at 8:30am now.. We went to church.. and then to KL for some curry fish head in Stadium Merdeka. Then to back home at 2;15pm.. Wow what a day! Then i decided to visit Good Tidings Youth..hmmm y not?? SInce i've got nothing better to do then! Too Free!! hahaha! They were one funny bunch!! Laughing all the way!! hahaha! It's a blessing visiting churches, because you get to see fellow Christians and how they enjoy themselves at church. YOuth was over at 4:30pm and i decided to do some adventuring in Sri Muda.. Hehehe checked out the skool .. gosh it's as big as my old school..... The funny thing is that the sewage is right opposite SMK Sri Muda!!! hahaha pity fellas!!! hahaha! WEll my old skool is right opposite the LRT tracks so we'll hear trains squeaking on the tracks at intervals of 10 mins! hahaha.. Ex- Taman SEAns are immune to LRTs... hehehe!!! Tmn SEA rocks dudes! Anyways, messed up with the pc again.. now the monitor goes like'.. blank screen and says'--" Over Frequency" Gosh!! I called Gab and asked him for help.. He doesn't know! Ahh Thank God Hoong Ern was on9!! Haha!! The PC expert!!! hahaha! Settle prob! Now i'm guessing how to fix the settings again!! sigh.. Lord, help me! I'd just finished packing my bags for 2moro's trip to Genting with the CF bunch. Haha...

God's been great to me! He's telling me many things.. Trust in Him and never doubt.. It's good.. GOd's great! Ahhh i'm so frustrated!!! i tried to fix the pc but am tired now.. perhaps next time la... hehehe... I'd downloaded this song..

Amazed.. by Desperation

Verse,
You dance over me,
While I am aren't aware,
You sing all around,
But I never hear the sound,

Chorus,
Lord, I am amazed by You,(x3)
How You love me,
Lord, I'm amazed by You (x3)
How You love me,

Bridge,
How wide,
How deep,
How great,
Is Your love for me.

Yeah this is a great song which is simple and plain but strong in meaning. God's love is the best far any other man could provide. Amen to that. God's love is unconditional. He loves you and me for no particular reason, He just loves us. Now that's divine love for you. Today's sermon by Ps Julis is about Greater Love. God loves us mysteriously that we couldn't even comprehend His love. Perhaps this song really completes today's message....

huh... finally made it!

I'm finally back here in KK!! It's 12;44am now and it's like err.. i'm not really sleepy now but just exicited that i'm here on the internet!! yay!! Yesterday's cell was great eventhough most of the members seem to "ponteng" cell just for Planet Shakers concert! I'm happy i didn't go for it! Amen! GOd somehow is testing me to see how commited i am to serving Him..(i'm supposed to play guitar for cell) or just go for the concert for the hype! Hah! i passed the test! I went for cell and am proud of it! Praise God! Just 6 of us turned up.They said that my guitaring has improved too! hehehehe.. We had great laughs too!! hahaha i'm still laughing at the "boyfriend" jokes all the way till mamak session! ahahaha!

But later during this afternoon, i chatted with a fren regarding the concert, It seems that wat bothers her is that the ppl seem to praise God due to conformity. They jump and get excited becos of the music not becos of God. They jump and get excited becos everyone else is jumping too. I have nothing agaisnt jumping, but it's just that sometimes', ppl go there for the music and hype but not of God. Have you heard about the song, "When the music fades"? It's written by Matt Redman after he fully understood what worshipping God is all about. The song really spoke to me..esp the verse...YOu're looking into my heart.. Yes, it doesn't matter if we jump or raise ur hands, all that matters is that our heart is longing to worship GOd.. Yup, it's the heart that counts. God really spoken to me so powerfully this past few days.. I guessed the concert really got me getting serious with God again. Now i know that He has a great plan for all of us, plans that will prosper and not harm us..( Jeremiah 29;11..) Now i need to spend more time with Him and to read His word everyday. We need to fire up our spiritual life with God in order to hear His voice clearly.. for if we're close to Him, certainly His voice will be clearer.

Recently, i've been thinking about Proverbs 31:10 onwards.. It's about "A Wife of Noble Character". It talks about a woman that is virtuos in everyway, wise, hardworking and so on. But what really struck me is at the verse 31-32 "Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Reward her for all she has done.Let her deeds publicly declare her praise." Gosh.. I pray that God will bless me with a wife like that! hahaha. In fact, God has the best one installed for us and it's up to us to follow His will. Hahaha. this Proverb really spoke to me and to always trust the Lord in this particular area of my life. There's even a Christian Women's ministry named after this.. "Proverbs 31 Ministries".. Gosh, I pray that God will bless us guys with a wife that is virtuos and that God will prepare me for whoever it is... oh man! it's 1;28am now and there's church 2moro!! gtg now!!! be sure to check this site out.. www.crosswalk.com It has pretty good articles and devotionals in it! Till then, GOd BLess!

Another day...

I went to Planet Shakers concert again in Pyramid.. hehehe.. Today's concert is kinda fun too..though i thought there is the black pastor from US like yesterday again.. but it was fun.. But this time, i got tired from jumping.. My thighs hurt when i jumped, but it was fun.. not the music but of God's presence being so alive in the hall.. His presence just saturates in that place.. indeed it was a place of divine appointment and adoration with our Maker.. Earlier this day, i went to PJ to visit grandma and later drove to 1U.. Hmm i'm so free in this hols,, but i still remembered what Joel said, hols could be a time of fun (balancing play and quiet time) but can be time of addiction too.. (u might tend to stray away from God when u're too preocupied with your own hol schedule).. yeah know that guys.. As i drove home from 1U, i saw this dude wearing blue shirt walking so cooly down opposite SMK DJ.. immedietly i recognised this dude,,, hhahaa James Quah! hahah watcha doin with the bag?? I tried to get his attention since i was drivig away... Then i gave him a call and offered him a ride back to BU..,heheheh we had a great time of bball and "yam cha" session in McD's..

Hmm i'm not really sure bout God's plan for me.. It's my desire too,. but is it the voice i'm making up again?? I'm confused sometimes, but now, i hav to catch up with my spiritual life with GOd.. for when i'm close to Him, i will get to recognise His voice even clearly! For it is said, that the sheep can recognise the Shepherd's voice and respond by following their Shepherd.. This is the same for us CHristians, we have the unique ability to recognise God's voice eventhough we are confused,, u'll just know it... Hmm that's wat i'm trying to do now.... Read the bible and to spend more time with my Lord.. Well, i got to sleep now.. wakin up real early 2moro.. 6:30am!! Ahhhh!!

Jesus rocks!! BIG TIME!!!

Mark picked me up at the bball court near my place.. Later he went to Sri Muda to meet up with the Good Tidings YOuth.. Great! I finally know how to get to Sri Muda and found ot where SMK Sri Muda is!! hahaha..Gosh!! I just came back from Planet Shakers Concert!! It rocked!! TOTALLY!! God is in da house!!! hahahaha !! We jumped so much and screamed so much till we're totally in to JESUS!! Woohoo!! I'm not feeling tired now... Just feel like jumping an praising GOd all night!!! Yeah! God totally rocked the concert!! All praise to God!! Hallelujah! Thanked GOd for MArk for fetching me to and fro from KK! Thanks Bro!

In the concert, i felt God talking to me.. "Believe in my plans for u, don't doubt, just believe.."
I was like, r You serious?? I just got to have the faith in Him! That's why need to get back on fire for the Lord.. Just need to fire up my spiritual life again.. To be on fire for JC once again.. so that He can prepare me for His plans for me..for i don't want to mess up in life.. Just got to surrender to Him.. We all have to proclaim His plans (purpose) for our lifes.. Yeah!! Proclaim it for Jesus!! It's your life's calling! Do it for Jesus because He loves you and chooses you for this specific calling for your life! Amen!

Dear God, I pray that YOu'll work through my life.. All i have, i freely surrender to YOu.. for YOu know what's best for our lifes.,,, Life ain't easy, I pray that from this point on, You'll have Your way in us.. Lead us through YOur grace and mercy and the faith to believe in YOur promises.,,, Let us recognise the voice of the Shepherd and follow YOu all the days of our lifes.. and ultimately for eternity in Heaven.. You will surely comfort us with YOur staff and protect us from the Enemy.. Tonight, speak to me so powerfully that I'll not run away from YOu but towards YOu.. Bless this night and I pray that You'll give us a good night's rest.. Amen...

Another DAY..

Wat a day it is.. in KK for one whole day.. kinda normal though.. just that i didn't spent time with God. Gosh.. i hav to finish the bible during the holidays! Well, i went to the clubhouse again at 4 something with my bro. I went to the gym and later to the pool!! GOsh,,, my hands are aching then! Oh man... Worst still my bike is jammed up and the back wheel can't move. Arghhh!!! I chatted on skype with Wei Soon in Russia just now.. eventhough i can't hear his voice clearly.. but i'm glad to hear him in his original self- all crappy, 24/7..

This day is pretty normal though.. nothing much happened, just that i went on9 for countless times this day.. A fren told me that during the hols, we musn't be addicted to something, if not we'll tend to have this addiction as a distraction. Hmm ryhmes right? hehehehe.. Hmm great there's planet shakers concert 2moro! in Sunway Pyramid at 7;30pm! woohoo!! Thank GOd for Mark!! He agreed to gimme a lift from KK! yay!!! Hehehe.. I'm fine now.. GOd's been good to me..

Cheer up!

I'm on laptop now.. the deskop wants me to register Windows.. since i don't hav the registration code.. i dunno wat to do now... sigh... Hmmm... i think i came up with another song again.. I haven't came up with the lyrics again but i got the rhythm.. Hmm i'm still thinking bout that guy at club adminring my hair.. Hey i'm not gay!! i'm just thankful that ppl like my hair!! hahaaha !! ok ok just joking..

Church was great today! Pastor Vincent talked bout Jehovah Rapha- meaning God the healer of wounded hearts.. Kinda really spoke to me cos this whole week i'm kinda down,.. and confused.. Ya. God really spoke to me.. Yet He challenged me to believe in Him.. the one plan for me.. which i find too hard to believe.. it's kinda like wat i wanted.. but i'm kinda confused whether it is the voice of God or not..i just need the peace of God now,. and His confirmation.. He seems to say to me... I'm going to reveal it to you slowly... You'll know my plans for u.. it just takes time.. and lots of preparation.. Hey, guys, if u feel really down, Psalms 34;18 is for u... God is close to the broken hearted.

bAck to normal life agAiN...

Woke up at 6 something 2day, and later i fell asleep not wanting to do my quiet time.. Then later at 7:30am i called shannon bout the bball game.. ANd went back to sleep again.. Btw, i'm in grandma's in PJ..hehehehe.. IT's fun to be in PJ again. MEeting up with frens chris and shannon who r now in form 6 in Tmn SEA.. Gosh i miss those days at skool!!! CF was great and ppl were funny!! Esp me!! heheheheh! Well, i went to the bball court in Tmn Megah.. Not surprised not to see those two fellas there yet.. since they invited me for a game at 8am.. It's 8:15am now.. Sigh.. m'sian timing.. Guess wat??They're still sleeping!!! Argghhhh!!!! ANyways, we had fun at 9am.. hahaha.. It's good to be back in PJ again..brings back the sweet memories... of my High Skool days...Mom and Dad came back from Vietnam 2day. As usual, i'm the taxi driver and had to fetch them from KLIA.. real fun u know!! I haven't drove this fast b4!! Just need to feel the need for speed. Later i went to the clubhouse again.. and the same receptionist dude.. told me that he bought Sunsilk! ( he asked me the other day, saying wat makes my hair so long and straight? so i said. use sunsilk. the blue one!)-- seriously! i'm not joking! If u hav hair issues, use sunsilk!! esp the blue one!! Really makes ur hair soft and smells real good too.. haha.. Btw, i went to 1U yesterday with my cell group.. not all showed up.. just 6 of us.. including huay ming's fren.. daniel.. we watched chicken little( eventhough i had zorro in mind).. anyways, it was kinda funny but the plot is a little..errrrr weird?? Go watch chicken little 4 urself!

Gosh,, i'm so confused with the voices inside of me.. At times.. this voice told me something,, and at times,, another voice told me the other.. Gosh..! I've been through times like these.. and i dont kknow what to do?!!! I'm confused! I need to listen to the voice of truth! I don't wanna be pretending that alls well ends well... I need to listen straight from God... and learn to surrender to Him....

Of gyms and funny hair

Just came back from Kota Permai, Awww.. i'm so tired! Having exercising in the gym, my body aches at some parts now. Hmm guess i better workout. becos' breakdancing requires some level of fitness. Gosh... Am goin to 1U later for cell outing.. Guess we're gonna watch Zorro 2 and.. I'm kinda broke!!! sob.. sob.. Most of my money went to food and stuff over the pass few days.. Hmm i finally managed to recruit some guys 4 breakdance class.. Guess we're gonna check that out next week though. Hehehe can't imagine me doin all sorts of funky moves!! Esp when u go to US, having to see some chinese guy breakdancing! hahaha! Btw, the ladies at the club reception said that i have nice, long, straight hair.. hehehe (i'm not joking!!) hehehe finally found some ppl who likes my hair hahaha!! ;-)

Hey a new song!

Hey, in moments of solitude, i grabbed the guitar and began to sing a new song to Jesus.. It took me like 20 minutes to write it.. This song really reflects God's plan and purpose for my life. Yet in my heart i'd never really surrender to Him.. but am trying too. I'll sing this song when we meet k?? Haven't gave this song a name yet... Drop me some suggestions on naming it k?


Intro; C,Em, Cmaj7

Jesus Christ, my Savior,
Jesus Christ, my Lover,
Jesus Christ, I love You,
With all my heart,

Pre-C: Am7, Em7, C, D

Though I might not understand Your plans for my life,
Though I might struggle in life, yet You whisper to me so gently,
Saying rest in My love, come on back to Me,
Now I seem to understand and desire for more of You,

Chorus: key of G
I choose to follow You in my life,
I choose to lay it all down for the cause,
For You are faithful and ever loving,
Let me fall in love with You one more time.

Solitude

It's so quiet here in KK. Home alone, with my parents in Vietnam and my bro at grandma's. I'm here alone in KK being a security guard of the house.. sigh.. Anyway, i can do wat i want in times like this like singing and playing the guitar real loud! yay! Woke up at 10 tis morning, and the first thing that came to mind was the something that keeps bothering me.. Anyways, i slept in the hall it's kinda cooling with the TV in front of u keeping u company. hehe just in case i woke up at the middle of the nite wif nothing 2 do. Guess i'll be learning breakdance during my hols.. at one near pyramid.. since Eximius in my church teaches hip-hop only.. hmm when i go to US, i'll get to minister to the kids, through hip-hop. kinda like a streeet ministry.. pretty cool huh? hehehe.. It's a hip-hop ministry.. Street Gospel!

In times of solitude, i began 2 talk 2 God more.. He seems so personal than ever b4.. Being lonely, i grab the guitar and sing a new song to God. (something i've not done b4).. and u get to feel the sweet presence of God around u. waht a nice experience. I played bball last nite.. Though i was not alone on the court, i began to ponder how great God is.. (don't ask me why) . As i shoot the ball, i look up to the nite sky, and began to imagine, there's someone up there looking down at me with a smile. Wow, how wonderful and loving my Heavenly Father is. Sometimes, God thanked me for doin something that requires patience... like fetching my bro in BU from KK!! and fetching my frens back.. He kinda like said, "Hey, thank you for fetching.. certainly your patience is rewarded." Wow, how thankful our God is.. being so loving and kind. And in moments of solitude, i began to realise God's love is far greater than any other man. His love is unconditional and never failing. Gosh, i have the best lover in the world!! Far greater than any other person could give. God's love is the best! haha, there's many more to learnt from God, and much to surrender to Him. Life is a race..(a marathon) and we just have to finish it with God's strengh. Yeah Amen!