GUess.. who's back..DUdes??

Hey hey! i'm back from YOuth camp in Melaka... Had smashing time!!... It's buffet eveyday! Buffet breakfirst, lunch, and dinner!!.. ohh,. ate so much till my waist got bigger! muahahaa! MEt a lot of ppl too.... Esp, those dudes in my apartment.. We had great time of worshipping at night wif the guitar.. hahaa.. The whole camp site is a resort.. There's go-kart, kayaking, bball court.. much much more... and even a replica of a wooden ship! cool! a swimming pool.... is i guess pretty murky.. and i don't know y ppl still like swimming in it.. errr.. thank God i didn't jumped into the pool.. if not i might get rashes over! hhahaaha.. THey got even really weird names for the teams..Sci-Fi Squadron, Comedy Crew(haha very funny!), Drama Queens, SUspense Gang(my team) etc.etc.. ANd the end, we ended up 2nd... (we expected first!) And Ps.Julie was great! Really annointed pastor.. Although i felt sleepy at times during sessions, but i can see that God speaks through her.. HEr sermons are so relevant to me.... Thank GOd for pastors like her..

I still have doubts about God's plan for me.. MAybe it's just my selfish desire... I asked God to changed my heart..for when the heart is changed, then the feeling will change too.. I feel troubled at times... but on and on... i felt this peace inside of me.. MAn, the peace is there.. but i'm still struglling to believe... This shows how much i need GOd.. we're all struggling humans needing GOd's mighty hands to cover us wif His love.. NOw, i'm still not sure about His plans.. 50/50 shall say.... I met a youth leader too who's back from US studying... He told me bout US...bout keeping your faith alive.. He told me tat u need to make this last year here as a preparation spiritually.. U need to prepare yourself spiritually for they're lots of temptation over there... He added that u'll feel lonely admist the ppl.. sometimes u might think that u're the only CHristian around... He told me too that u'll get disappointed.. (depending on where u are, as in hopefully u land in a good CHurch and CF) of the CHristians there.. (not being stereotype).. THey are CHristians only by name.. but live a pagan life...He told me to keep your faith alive in times of loneliness and never give in to the crowd.. Stand for Jesus.. MAn, i've got like 1 year left here in M'sia. After tat, i'll be over there.. I' better prepare myself spiritually and to grow in GOd...I'm gonna expect great things from GOd in year 2006 as 2005 is coming to an end. let me not forget of the blessings i had in tis year.. of God's faithfulness to me...

MErry CHristmas DUdes and DuDettEs!

Hohoho.,. MErry Christmas ppl! IT's the season tobe jolly! BE merry, don't be sad even u don't get any presents for it ain't bout presents but it's about love and sharing! Went to church this morning for CHristmas service.. then went home for a rest...then later at night, went to PJ again to celebrate CHristmas wif relatives..I ate a lot and we had fun wif carols... Hmm i kinda guess my CHristmas is pretty simple.. just went for church musical.. and for service, party wif relatives.. and tat's bout it.. But 1 thing's for sure.. CHristmas is all about Jesus!! IT's remembering His birthday, the 25th of December some 2000years ago.. yup tat's wat Christmas is about! I've done my luggage packing.. I'll be off 2moro 4 youth camp in Air Keroh, Malacca..Guess it's gonna be fun.! I'll be back on thursday.. I'll pray for a heart that's ready for God's intervention durin camp.. Oh well, i better sleep early..now,..it's gonna be a long day 2moro... God BLess ya folks!!

Guess after CHristmas comes the 26th of December... The day the tsunami struck Asia...Let us remember the victims.. Let us pray 4 them..the friends and families of those who perrished last year.. I even watched documentaries of the tsunami... MOm told me it actually swept a train carriage packed wif ppl for some 100-200 metres.. A Sri Lankan parent said tat they would rather lose their house then to lose their children.. Guess the 26th of December will hurt them the most of this tragic incident..
"Lord, comfort those who are broken at heart.. and i pray that YOu'll be close to their cries and sorrows.. and their mourning... Though they might know YOu, i pray that YOu will speak to them words of comfort this very instance.. Tell them about the peace YOu are giving them.. Bless them and give them a roof over their heads,clothes to wear, and food to nourish them.. AMen... "

The Lord is close to the broken hearted..

Merry CHristmas dudes!!

Ho.. ho..ho!!! CHristmas is in the house dudes! Merry CHristmas.. be blessed and be merry! hahhhhaa.. CHristmas is a time of love and sharing, forgiveness and reconciliation..... It's not about presents, santa, turkey..but it's about celebrating and remembering Jesus' birthday some 2000 years ago.. Jesus was born on the 25th December..Let us now spread the joy of CHristmas and to tell about the TRUE MEANING of Christmas! IT's about Jesus' birthday! LEt's celebrate it wif a blast dudes!

The whole day i've been lazing around again.. gosh i better not waste time.. and spend more time wif God.. I'm feeling real tired now.. gtg now.. i want to spend CHristmas wif Jesus now.. in solitude.. Then i'm goin 2 church and celebrate it wif joy!! Blessed CHristmas guys!!! Let there be love amongst brethren!!

Blessed CHristmas Eve!

Hey dudes, wassup?? The whole day was kinda normal.. Fetched Mom and bro to Summit 4 a movie.. and then i went to Pyramid... THen got home and rest, then of to Summit again to fetch Mom and bro again... Then i drove to church about 7:20pm... Thank GOd i managed to reach at time...TOday was a blast! Just came back from church's CHristmas Musical.. It was.. man!! Awesome! everything was great... esp the choir! Later we went for Mamak session in Centrepoint b4 sending frens back.. And i reached home about like 1am.., Thank God, my parents are asleep,if not.. they'll be questioning me of my late return,... hahah guess wat?? IT's CHristmas Eve and CHristmas is 2moro!!Happy BIrthday Jesus!

Ahhh.... rock climbing was fun.. I went wif my cell group to 1U this wednesday... It was tiring but i've got a good experience... I scratched my hand on the rough wall..OUch.. hahha After a few climbs, my arms got tired.. and guess wat? My muscles actually got tensed!! so we guys, compared them... ahhahaha! Nothing better to do!

As i was driving home just now, i talked to God about many things.. I told Him that i wanna serve Him and be busy for Him.. THe response was like.. Doors will be open 4 u to do so.. As a matter of fact, serving Him is not nessacary in church... Living a good testimony, praying for someone, helping others are serving Him too..THough ppl might not realise it, but God does and He takes it into account..YUp, GOd is a GOd of hearts, He doesn't care about our ablities but of our hearts.. As long as we have a heart to serve... God will be pleased wif it.. A fren told me about a story of a US pastor who once wanted to serve in church.. B4 he was a pastor, he asked a leader whether that he could serve, His reply was.. to vacuum all the carpets, clean all the chairs..(there was thousands of chairs), clean the toilets, wipe the toilets.etc.etc.. Tis dude here, did this for 3 years.. b4 he became a pastor.. Wat i learnt from this is that i've to have the servant's heart.. a heart that is simple and sincere.. aiming to please my Maker......No matter wat i do, i choose to please Him. YUp, tat's right..It's 2:09am now..... i've got to go..Blessed CHristmas Eve folks!

FAithful YOu are..

Hey dudes, wassup?? Tis whole day's like other days b4.. Being in KK one whole day wif my bro.. ahh thankfully he ain't naughty... although occasionly he disturbing me...hehehe Been lazying around the whole day...At night bout 8:45, i went to the club again.. Again to the gym.. Met the same uncle again in the gym... THe uncle and me talked about his dream to open a bakery shop.... Well, he has a dream.. i told him to go for it.. even though there's obstacles...

It all starts wif a dream.. If you hav a dream,( a dream that glorifies God, u know that it's from Him, u know that's ur purpose for u) then go pursue it!! GO for it!! With God's strengh working through our weaknesses.. i believe, dreams will come to pass..Tat's wat i'm goin through now.. I've got a dream.. I believe it's from Him... I pray tat the doubts will go and the confidence will set in.. YOu see, i hav doubts and every time i asked for God's confirmation and signs.. And every time i get those signs but i still doubt.. becos i think that this dream here is a little selfish from my point of view..Gosh.,. life's like tat.... It's about a person trying to live each day.. LIfe ain't easy brothers..! The Lord can't promise a life free of afflictions and troubles.. but He promises to give us the comfort in life... He's like the car suspension.. smoothing the ride of a car moving over rough and rocky terrain..

I've been so, dry lately... I've been wasting my time away wif other worthless, unbenificial things...like TV and internet..etc.. I got to get back to the basics.. My first love wif God.. Got to spend more time wif my Friend.. my Lord...I've learnt wat this song means... It talks about a person being transformed in life..now tat he's free to live life and to embark on an adventure.. and adventure of life God has set for him.. Perhaps life is like an adventure? a marathon? SOmething tat requires endurance to endure?


NO Regrets by Jennifer Knapp

Should i be bold enough to speak
In tis moment?
A reverent heart must surely be unbroken

With no regrets
SHould i be,
With no regrets
In my head,
Faithfully shared,
SHould i be rich or poor and scattered in my dreams?
With all the figures that surround me
live unguarded

And free from the worry
free from the darkness that lives in me
Free to embark on the passion that
YOu've favorable fashioned in me..

Should i be rich?SHould i be poor? What will become of me in 10yrs time? WHere will i be? Who will i be wif? These are the questions i ask the Lord..Maybe, i've to stop dwelling in the future but live in the present.. and to continue on this journey.. Knowing that He'll see me through His grace and love and faithfulness.. Cos i know tat He is ever faithful and loving..

hmm..

Guess it's just another mundane day in KK.. Did some house chores like laundry and cleaning fans.. Hmmm guess i'm adddiceted to computer games again.. Gosh.. it's so boring but i feel the need to play it.. Oh man.. it's wasting my time and i gotta control it and do something else that's more benificial. THen later at night, i went to the clubhouse for some workout.. Thankfully, the dance dance hall is enpty! alright the air-cons are on and i did some break dancing.. woohooo! Man, i gotta improve in my balancing if i wanna be a good bboy..hehhehe Well, practice makes perfect.. ANd the gym was like.. almost no one there!! I met this uncle who looks super fit but is above 40 in age.. We talked about stuff like CHristmas and then i bid him farewell.. GOt to the sauna and jumped to the shower... Drove home and now i'm here in front of the computer.. huh,.. really got nothing better to do but just type crap.. haahaha.. 2moro, i'm going for rock climbing wif some church frens in 1U. Hope to enjoy myself and not havin the fear of heights though... Btw, it's pretty expensive .. rm10 an hour!!!

--patience--

WEnt to get my IC done tis morning in Shah ALam.. took number at 7:39am, got it done by 1:35pm.. Gosh!! So long!! At least it's not like in PJ where the queue stretches for 200m!! and takes 45minutes for u to actually get ur number!!! MAdness!!! At least it's faster here in SHah ALam.. ehhehe.... Break dance class was fun.. Need more practice.. Thank God, the pain on my back got better.. My right hand feels numb too....

As i was goin from class, i thinked about wat GOd is working through me now.. He's shaping me to be a better being... like a clay shaped into a vase with perfection under the skillful hands of the Potter... Yup, He has a great plan for me and i choose to pursue it... Guess i need not worry bout 2moro for 2moro will worry about itself.. Ya...worry not.. I think God gave me "patience" as a gift.... I've been experiencing many situations where it requires patience.... holding in the temper and not bursting, not sounding the horn when caught in a jam..,waiting for things to be done.. etc.etc...

Man, i'm real tired now... I woke up since 6am.. and wish to end tis day wif God.. Guess i'm gonna turn of the lights, draw the curtains, look up the night sky and sing a song for Him.. nites...

kev, happy 18th...

Wat a day 2day... Went to church and it's the last youth church 4 tis year.. 2day's service was abou ppl giving thanks and at the close of the service..SHe called out the "December babies".. I was the first... (heheh can't help it, the cameras were flashing at me.. hahahhaa) Then later we went to SS2 4 lunch.. THen at 5 something went for swimming in KK clubhouse..Guess wat, i found out that the clubhouse has a dance studio!! Wooohoo! it has air-con too making it super cooling for a guy who sweats too much like me! Now i know where to practice for free!! Praise GOd tat all of a sudden, my Sony CLie is working again!! Yay!! It's like oh man,... the touch screen is not haywire but back to normal!! Praise God!! Thank YOu!!! Just when they told me to replace the touch screen (which costs rm360!!!!) it was working again!! HAhAH thank YOu Lord!!

It's just 9 minutes past 12 and i'm 18th!! Yay1! Another year older, another year.. wiser( i hope).. It's goood to know that r birthday is here.. Makes u think of GOd's plan 4 ur life.. As long as u're still alive, God has a purpose 4 u.. tat's right, I'm still alive and kicking! waiting for my life's purpose to be fulfilled.. Learnt bout tis when i was reading a book called--"Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. Yup, it's all about living ur life as a CHristian and finding one's purpose God has in store us.. It's goood to be a CHristian, to have hope and a future... becos' it's all in the hands of God.. Like wat Ps Julie told us 2day.. wat every CHristian shud discover is their life's purpose... I felt this statement somewat true and profounding.. Yup, GOd has a great plan for me... and i've discovered it already.. NOw i'm letting Him shape me till like how a Potter shapes His vase into perfection...

Christmas mood

Friday- What a long day was it.. I was at coll since 7:15am.. waiting for ppl to turn up for bball... As usual.. M'sian timing.. Anyways, we had a fun time painting the CF camp banner and bball to--eventhough i got thrashed twice! Sigh...Then i took the bus to PJ at 3 something... LAter i drove to Giant KJ to get some nuggets for 2nite's Cell Christmas Party.. Hahahah we had a smashing time at cell..seeing some dudes eating "wasabi tuna sandwich" as penalty! hahahaha.. They even went to the toilet to throw up!! I can still remember the look on their red faces!!! hahhhaa.. real funny!

Saturday-- nothing much...cleaned up my room in Grandma's place since i'm not really staying there anymore... just on fridays i'll be there.. Went to 1U again and had some dinner.. Hhahha seriously nothing much to say bout 2day...

It's the season to be jolly.... falalalalalala. yay!! It's great to that Christmas is just around the corner.... It's gonna be fun! Everyone seems to be real busy but i seem to be too free... Hmm i wonder wat r they up to.. I hope that busyness wouldn't break the CHristmas in them... as in not forgetting the "One True Meaning" of CHristmas... It's the day the Greatest Savior of mankind was born.. 25th December some 2000 years ago.. Yup, it's Jesus' birthday! Christmas is a time of rememberance of the Lord's coming and appearing as flesh before man... It's a day of joy and a day of hope.. Maybe i need some hope in my life.. Need the faith to believe the inconceivable..yeah....and never doubt too...

AwESOMe!!!

Followed Mum to PJ today.. took her car and left for 1U at 11 something... I met a fren back from Australia.. (practically he got the whole ALias season 4 DVDs wif him!! muahahaha!! borrow fomr him!!) Bowling was fun today!!! hhahaha.. never knew i'm good at it!! Hhahaha!! i got my first strike too!! Seriously!! If u r feeling the "holiday blues", then go for some bowling and some burgers!! hahaha Be sure to take some frens to tag along too! After that, i bought some Christmas gifts.. met CHris and Shannon who had just finished Narnia at GSC.. I get to see the whole ex-CF ppl too! It's great to see them again.. ahahaa.. Later i met a fren who's back from Australia.. We talked old times as we sat on a bench.. As we were talking tis i saw another familiar face! SHe was like looking back at me in familiarity.. Hmmm looks familiar.. Said "hi" and i remembered her name! Hahah Praise God for good memory when i needed it most.. It's funny.. i met so many ppl and old familiar ppl too today! All in 1U! Praise GOd for lost contacts.. meeting again.. hahhaa

I'm gonna finish Numbers by the end of tis month!! Gotta finish it! I dun wanna break my promise! Pretty weird though...Hols pass real fast..! It's like yesterday my hols started, and now, it's december! Christmas is near! Gosh! Time really flies esp when u're having fun.. Not to mention there is a time for everything though.. a time everything.. a time to rest, play, joke, etc..etc.. Time is limited.. and our time here on earth is limited,, NO one lives forever here on earth.. Tat's y i wanna make my life count for Him... We dun hav much time here on earth.. WE gotta enjoy every single moment of it(good clean fun)! WE got only one life, let's aim to do good wif it! To live it for Jesus!! It's YOu i live for everyday Lord!! He's the reason i'm still alive now and kicking! Woohooo!! Praise Jesus! Let us now live it for the King! TO do great things for Him, for we hav just ONE LIFE, LIVE IT FOR THE KING!!!

---GOd is still the same yesterday, today and forever.. He's a miracle God.. and is working in me now...for HIs promises will come to pass, same goes for you if u acknowledge Him..

-burger and BoWLing-

Hey ppl!.... Lazed around the whole day in KK today.. Due to boredom, i did some laundry and did some TOEFL preps.. Played guitar in what of the most unusual places.. the toilet..It's pretty cool ya know.. THe acoustics..hehhehe... I think the neighbors could hear me singing wif the guitar.. Hhahaha... super fun and another crazy thing to do too!! Did some balancing on my head..OUch...it hurts on my head though.. but as the saying goes..."no pain, no gain".. Hhaha break dance takes time and patience... Played bball wif myself again.. Feel so bored playing wif myself.... SIgh.. Need some competition to make me play better... hhaha even though i'm not that good at it.! hahhaa..!

I've been reading Numbers... the first few chaps... i Plan to finish it by the end of this month.. I've ald promised to.. It's great to be a CHristian.. EVeryday seems to be a day of new hope and joy...! IT's like u r no longer being in bondage to wat u're struggling in..U're free! Do wat u want.. but make sure it's pleasing to the Lord's sight.. Do wat is pleasing to His name.. 2moro, i'm joining my youth to go for tis thing called "burger and bowling" (basically, chilling out having some burgers and do some bowling).. at 1U.. Hmmm sounds interesting... hahhaaha...

Ahhh nothing much to say lately.. THank GOd that He healed my toe... it doesn't hurt tat much now..Well, tat's all folks! God BLess and take care.!

Hey..!!!

Hmmm got nothing much to say..... Tis whole day's been revolving around Sunway.. I dropped Mom and Bro at Sunway Lagoon in the morning. I walked around Pyramid for a while and went for a hair cut(Mom's been nagging me of and on to do so) in one of those saloons.. NOw, i feel that my head is lighter...due to my hair trimming.. Hahahah... Later i drove back to KK and went 4 some bball..Later drove back to Pyramid to pick them up.. Then went back to KK ... Few hours later drove back to Sunway for break dance class.. Wow! 6 times i've been driving to and fro SUnway..!! World Record!! hahhaa .. GOt to learn how to stand on my head.. Gosh.. my head hurts when i'm doin that.. They taught me another move too... but i seem not to get the hang of it......hahhaha...It's funny only 4 guys turned up today..WHere's everyone??

Nothing much to say. I'd promised to finish the book of Numbers by the end of this month.. I've just finished Leviticus though.. hahhaa.. Anyways... gtg now..

oHH sILLy ME!!

Friday- I went to PJ in the morning... real early in the morning.. My old skool CF is having a "slumber camp" in a house in Tropicana.. SO, why not? Give those dudes a visit.... Hehehehe.. gave y fren a call telling her that i'm coming.. It's funny i still remember where her house is since the last time i've been there was 2 years ago... Thank God for good memory when i needed it most.. heheheh.. THen i parked my car and rang the door bell.. A "kakak" came out and opened the door for me.. It's bout 8;05pm now.. Then strange thing is, where's everybody? WHere's everybody's sleepers and shoes at the doorway?? IT's real quiet.. The maid told me to wait... Strange the house changed a lot the last time i came here.. I checked out the family photos and strange enough none of the faces look familiar... Weird... I asked the maid where is everybody? "ISn't there suppose to be a party here?" "How many ppl r here?" She told me that there are 4 ppl in the house...and that the HOUSE 2 DOORS AWAY HAD A PARTY LAST NIGHT WITH MANY PPL! Gosh!! I'm in the wrong house!! hahahaha!!!! Wat 7 minutes of guessing and wondering! HahahH!!!! Immediately i told her that i'm in a wrong house and said sorry! I wore my shoe and i saw a man at the gate (whom i assume must be the man of the house)... said sorry and walked out of the house with.. to my amazement a little embarassment.. Walked 2 doors away.. and rang the bell..THis time, it's for sure to be the right house... hhahahaha... Had a great time catching up wif some old frens and Pn Julie.. Had a nice breakfast .. THere were about 40ppl for the camp.. They laughed at my experience just now.. hahahahhah! Worship, Word, and then i left bout 12 to 1U to watch Narnia wif my cell group..

As expected, M'sian timing in action.. 2 fellas were late! Their excuse? "Overslept!" Oh my goodness! Then i went to the toilet and later i went to the screening room, strange enough, the i couldn't find them.. as i was told where they were sitting.. The whole row was full.... I found a sit at the side.. Weird enough, i wonder.. what was showing is the battle.. in wat seems to be the climax of the show.. Huh,, Why is the battle at the first part of the movie?? NOT AGAIN!!! I'M AT THE WRONG PLACE!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!! I asked the doorman where is the 12;45pm screening... Hhahaa it's the room next to this! ahhhh SILLY ME! Two crazy things at the same day!!! 4 hrs apart! hahahah!! tis is life... Lots of fun things that happen! Thank You LOrd for lighting up my life! Went to Burger King for some snacks after the movie.. Went to Grandma's at bout 5 something.. WHole day out... plus i'm sleepy plus there's cell group at nite.. Hahaha..

Saturday.. NOthing much.,WEnt to church for jamming session..Pretty cool.. not many ppl were there... and i've learnt new things too! haahha!!. Bummed till it's 4 in Grandma's then drove back to KK.. I'm still trying to work on my break dance.. It takes practice and lots of patience... I've got bruises everywhere.. pain too...OUch...

Narnia is a 7 volume children's fantasy book.. Written by C.S Lewis..A Christian himself, his story is about Good vs, evil, forgiveness between 4 siblings.. The story itself has many Christian values.. And yes, God did spoke to me in the movie.. The battle scene,.. is like the battle between the good and evil... God was like "The war is on, are you in" Immediately, i knew my duty as aChristian, we're soldiers of Christ and that we're here to fight against the "Enemy" and his forces... All His plans for me are for His glory, not mine.. yeah,, i gotta believe in His plan for me and claiming it for His glory! Amen to that! Another part of the story is when Aslan, the talking lion died in behalf of Edmund, the boy who was suppose to die of his wrong doings.. Aslan sacrificed himself so that Edmund could live. Jesus sacrificed Himself so that u and me could live.. Alsan resurrected the following day, Jesus ressurected on the third day of His death.. Amen to that... what a powerful show this is!.. Another thing i realised is that the love and forgiveness between the 4 siblings... between Peter, the elder bro wif Edmund, younger bro...

Yeah.. tat's waht i hav to share this past few days... God Bless ya folks..Know that God is real...He is real! He is here wif u right now.. !

HIs LOve!

Yo wassup dudes..!! It's bout 1;28am now.. Breakdance class was cool,.. they taught us 6-step (trying to look cool doing it even though i'm doin it wrong) today.. and chair freeze.(still can't get the hang of it).. My hip kinda hurts doing the freeze... But it's kinda cool though.. ONe day i'll be hip-hoping with the NY kids, spreading the Gospel to them..Yeah! Gospel through hip-hop..!

I wanna be the best for God.. The best student, the best bball player, the best break dancer.. It's like a dream too hard to achieve.. But we're called to the best in whatever we do for God.. Oh, help this struggling child of Yours.. pls, Lord.. Next year's gonna be the last year of being around.. Year 2006, the year i'm gonna get busy for GOd. The year i'm going to expect great things from Him.. Oh pls, show YOur glory,Lord. I need Your power in my life... I want to see a revival in my life.. I'm really looking forward in how God's been shaping me now.. We're like the clay, under the skilled hands of the Potter, we're shaped into a beautiful vase.. That's wat i want to be... "a clay for YOur moulding"..

I read SOng of SOngs this morning.. And in this book, the phrase "DO not arouse love until it is the right time" is repeated numerous times.. I felt God speaking to me in this.. Don't arouse love untill GOd says "Hey, it's the right time now. Go.." Yup, i know this isn't the right time for me now... and that in times like these, we as singles, should enjoy the gift of being single.. A time of self discovery and a time of preparation for the "one" He has installed for us....

His Love by Hillsongs

His light is over me,
Flooding over me,
NIght is lifted,
Heaven over me,
Flooding over me,
I can't contain it,

My cup overflows,
My cup overflows,

Praise the Lord with all my heart,
Praise Him for He has done great things,
His banner over me is lOve,
His banner over me is love,

You brought the sunshine in,
Turn the dark to day,
Made the shadows flee away,
You opened up my eyes,
To a new and living way,
Dawning of a brand new day....


Praise the Lord, for He has done great things.. I thank YOu for sustaining me through tough times... I'm grateful that i'm here, still alive and kicking.. As long as i'm still alive, You have a purpose for me....

-emptiness-

Woke up at Grandma's place today... TOday was special.. Today's the day of the one girl that brought me up since i was like 5 years old..It's Grandma's birthday.. I went down and gave her a hug and wished her happy birthday.. I could see the joy in her face.. Hahaha.. kinda breaks my heart seeing her being smile in joy. Later Dad came by to take me to PC fair in KL.. SPent like 4 hours there and bought some stuff. Been practicing my breakdance... It's not as easy as u think though.... but i wanna improve myself in it.. I wanna hip-hop wif the kids in US and tell them bout the gospel.. yeah,... Street Gospel.. Bringing the gospel to the streets through hip-hop..sounds kinda cool though..

There's nothinng much to say bout how i am these past few days.. I feel kinda empty.. inside of me.. i long for some sort of peace and satisfaction.. I long for the LOrd's touch.. I still here HIm whisper to me so gently... but i don't know y i feel insecure and kinda feeling that i need to break free of something.. Maybe i've not been spending too much time wif God.. and that maybe He wants me to return to HIm and to be filled once again.. I feel kinda empty now... Longing for the Lord to fill me up.. fill my cup till it overflows..

I've been thinking about this song.. it kind of reflects wat i'm goin through now..

Jesus I am thristy,
Won't You come and fill me,
Earthly things have left me dry,
Oniy You can satisfy,
All I want is more of YOu,

All i want is more of You,
ALl i want is more of YOu,
NOthing i desire Lord
But more of YOu,
All i want is more of You,
All I want is more o YOu,
Nothing i desire Lord
But more of You
More of YOu...

I really need the Lord's touch once again.. needing Him to fill me till my cup overflows...

Ruturn to thy rest..

My younger bro stayed wif me 2day in KK.. Woke up at 9;45... Well, i was at home the whole day till dad and mum came back and took us out for dinner. Thank God, my bro wasn't up to his "naugthy mode".. He's been an angel the whole day.. although sometimes, he would disturb me... Been practicing the basic stands.. and (this time not the stomach) my wrist hurts.. esp when wif the turtle... Ouch...

God's been challenging me to spend time wif Him.. The hols could be a time of refreshing and a time of backsliding.. Well, i'm kind of a little to the refreshing part in a scale of 7/10 now... I'll try to finish (i mean i promised) Numbers by the end of this month.. A promise i made wif God after He challenged me to do so... Ya.. Well, to all of u out there, who's having a tough time,, rather stressful one.. know that God is ready to give you(thy) rest.. Here's some nice verses..
Psalms 29:11. Matthew 11:28, Matthew 6:25-34..

Guess, i'll go turn off the lights, open the curtains, grab my guitar and serenade God now.. Nites..

No one loves me like YOu

GUess it's just another day for me. I was planning to go to church 2day for lunch wif pastor.. but i backed out last minute.. felt tired after this morning of bball. My arms and shoulders still hurt right now. Bruises everywhere too. OUch.. I think i'm not using this hols very well. Been on9 almost all the time.. Need to do more benificial things though... It's great that i've been back on writing my journal again after not writing for a few months.. It's good to keep track of how i felt and of personal testimonies all recorded.

I think i'm gaining more wisdom from GOd. despite of my lack of spending time with Him, i sense Him telling me to take courage in doing things for Him. I think back to last month.. i heard a song on the radio, sung by Whitney Houston.. The chorus goes....Be bold, courageous..... Somehow... i didn't knew y this really struck me.. Then i felt something telling me.. BE BOLD. Yes, be bold..Maybe i'm not bold enough sometimes in doing God's will.. I see the oportunity sometimes, but i'm not bold enough to go for it. Maybe i'm afraid that i might not achieve it and that i might fail getting it. Maybe sometimes, i got to stand up for the faith and to take charge. Go for it! Go when God says GO! Yes, this i got to learn.

This song reminded of my first love wif God and through all these time, His love never changed for me. ..

No one loves me like You, by Jars of CLay..

Collapsing was much softer,
Still falling always hurt,
Only after sensing Your love,
For always ever burnt,
You justified my folly,
My affluent disguise,
Removed revealing nothing,
Yet nothing unforgiving lies,
Unforgiven lies,

No one loves me like YOu,
No one loves me the way that You do,
No one loves me like You,
No one loves me the way, the way that You do.....

To touch the rose unfearful,
Is to meet the thorn,
And pierce the heart's emotion,
And feel the emptiness no more,
Emptiness no more....

Took some time I've fallen....


It's been sometime now Lord, since i'd experienced my first love for YOu. Bring me back to our first love... Your love for me hasn't and will never change.. I want to be like David, the man after Your own heart.. Bring me back to You....

OUch, my hip hurts...

What a nice day it is today. Woke up at bout 9 and the first thing i did was on9.. hahaha. i need to cut down on internet and do more benficial things like reading the bible, building my spiritual muscles. AMen.. Recently, i've been goin to the gym in KK clubhouse.. I want to be fit physicallly and spiritually for the Lord. That's doing God's will, being healthy physically and spiritually. The whole day's been normal for me. NOthing special. Being bored and wanting to be a "good son", i did the laundry and cleaned the front yard so to impress mum when she comes home wif... Hheeh Thankfully, i have mum's car to drive around 2day. Drove around KK and to the clubhouse. THen later i drove to breakdance class.. Class was real cool though.. THey thought us to balancing.. Learnt some new moves- some-- shoulder stand, which caused my hip ot hurt! Ouch... thank God it's not that bad now! hahha.. and i found out later, that all the hip-hop music is CHristian, and i found out that the owner of the center is CHristian.. hahha.. It's good.. THat's wat i wanna do, holy hip-hop. dancing with street kids and then sharing the gospel with them. THis kind of ministry is called "Street Gospel" and is pretty common in US... Yay! when i'm there, hope i can do this kind of ministry with the kids..hahaha THat's why i'm learning breakdance now!

God's been talking to me.. He calls me gently,asking me to spend time wif Him.. He asked me gently to devote at least 30 minutes HIm. Although i get distracted and i would procrastinate on doing quiet time, He'll constantly, gently ask me to spend time with HIm., Gosh waht a gentle GOd we have! And after quiet time, He would thank me and congratulate me for doing quiet time.. Wow, i hav a appreciative God.. It's good to be a Christian, being a child of GOd. I feel a sense of belonging with HIm and to fellow CHristians. Aslo, as a Christian, He told me that we are bearers of His name and must conduct ourselves well, to reflect His standads. Yeah, I've been wearing a cross... ANd He told me that when u're wearing it, you're carrying My name...
This song here reminds me of how we freely surrender to the Lord.. A song of surrender and having a "God-chaser" attitude in it.. Guess i have to learn what being desperate for God and surrendering to God means..

You're all I need, Planet Shakers

YOur grace is all i need,
YOur love is all i ever wanted,
Your presence in my life,
Jesus Your touch is my desire,

My heart it sings for You,
My every breath is Yours my Jesus,
I live to worship You,
Jesus YOu're everything,

You are all i want,
YOu are everything i need,
My soul thrist for YOu,
You are more than life to me,

You're all i need, (x3)
Jesus.....


God's been good to me. His plans are coming to pass... I willingly give to YOu Lord..

Don't pass me by..

It's good to be back in PJ again. Friday was real fun, went to coll at 9 something anda waited till it's bout 1 something for comm meeting. Then i went to cell at 8;30pm but tis time's it's in my boss' house..hhahhaha. Pretty weird becos the college kids' and the high skool kids are having cell at simoultaneously. It's kinda fun esp during worship.. where i got to play the guitar wif a pianist.. yay! jamming session. hahaha

Then today, i woke up in Grandma's house bout 7 and got ready for an old time sport! Football!! woohoo!! It's kinda fun becos i get to meet wif my old buddies back in high skool... hahah we had a smashing time even though the field is muddy.. esp at the front of a goal post! I can't stop laughing at the guys trying to kick the ball into the goal since the puddle of water will block the ball from going in. Hahaah real funny when Naresh fell into some mud!! hahahah...
I started breakdance class last monday in sunway... Those guys thought me how to stand on two hands.. doing the frog stand.. but for the turtle stand, i don't seem to get the hang of it.My stomach hurts.... i can't even strecth , i was aching all over... ahhhh . the streching reminds me of taekwondo class in which i stopped 4 years ago!! ahhhh NOw i know how low my fitness level is... ahhhh

I'm still having doubts abut God's plan for me.. I express my unbelief to HIm and am confused sometimes. I cry out to God and ask for His guidance. If it's isn't from YOu, then take it away then. If it's YOur plan then , i asked Him for HIs peace.. and everytime He seems to give me the peace.. Sigh we're all struggling beings and when we're down, we'll turn the Lord for help and His guidance... I asked God for more confirmations and signs.. and i think that i notice the confirmation but i feel something holding me back.. I realise that this "holding back" thing is resultant of not moving on in my spritual life. He wants me to grow spritually and bring me to a higher level of faith in Him.. A higher spritual level with the Lord. ya, i need to spend more time wif Him durin the hols... Here's a song that really touched me..

DOn't pass me by.. by Planet Shakers

My heart it longs,
My soul it thirst for more,
For more of You,
I'm reacing out,
I'm waiting here for more,
For more of You,

Cos all i want is You,
And all i need,
Is to be here with YOu,

I'm hungry for YOur fire,
I'm desperate You're my one desire,
Jesus please don't pass me by,
I need YOu more than ever,
I'm thristy for a touch from heaven,
Jesus please don't pass me by...

Don't pass me by Lord,
I'm desperate for You..

I'm hungry for You,
So hungry for YOu...

I'm hungry for You, that's waht i need to be,, I pray that the He will give me the desire to be hungry and desperate for Him.. Lord, please give me the passion for Your name..

Fren Forev3r..

Today has been normal.. I've been to church.. Earlier this day (1:28am) Gavin called me asking me to print the cell ad for church... Ahhh y this kinda time even though your printer isn't working...!!! ahhhhh Anyways, i woke up and took the deligience to print it!! Hahah real funny though!! it's looks like a criminal warning with the "WANTED!" word and our pics black and white! hahaha!! Real funny! Was laughing till i'm wide awake!

This whole day was kinda normal.. I've been to the gym and worked out till my arms ache.. Need to get back in shape for breakdance.. To keep fit to do GOd's will! Amen! Be healthy physically, emotionally and spritually.. God's been great to me.. Too good till i'm speechless..! I can't explain His goodness..,.. You've too experience it 4 urself and you'll get what i mean..

Here's a song that really touched me..

What a Friend I've Found.
by Delirious?

What a Friend I've found,
Closer than a brother,
I have felt Your touch,
MOre intimate than lovers,

Chorus;
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,
Friend Forever,

What a hope I've found,
More faithful than a mother,
It would break my heart,
To ever lose each other,

This song really made me ponder of how close and personal God can be.. Closer than anything else... He's close to you too right now.. What a Friend I've found...

Of Friday fun..

Friday was one day of fun! CAlled jo where he is in the morning..Guess what he was in JO's house.. oh wait,(Joseph Leong's house).. I picked Chris up and went straight to jo leong's house. Btw, i'll be in PJ because of cell at night! hahaha.. As we arrived, we had some homemade waffles and a little chat. Shannon, Pi Yao and Huay LIan is there too.. Kinda gave me a shock when they said that they're there since 8am! hahaha weird dudes...Oh man, they wanna play some dota..( don't really like it) but i just wanna hav fun anyways.. I dunno i love fridays so much.. First, it's the last day of the weekdays, second, it's CELL !! woohoo!!! Cell is great!! IT's the time of fellowship and fun all the way till it's late at night! hahaha! I dunno why my guitar skills has improved so much! hahah i could play so much better! Thank GOd! Then we went to Tmn Paramount for some boring dota... ahh real suck in it.. Anyways, it was fun! Later i gave CHris a lift to his workplace in Tmn Tun. SO, working in a skate shop eh?? Hmmm i saw him sweeping the floor, i bid farewell with a wish of "have fun with the floor dude!!!" ..Btw, pretty good pay though, rm5 per hour!! wow!! better than Starbucks.. Nice.. He'll better treat me lunch someday! CHris.. u owe me big time! Then it was cell at 8:30. As usual i'm the first to arrive at 8:15.. M'sian timing.... CG leader's always late! Way to go Angeline!! hahaha!! Word was on "Greater Love", worship by Jeff.. We shared of how we're attracted to the opposite sex.. Hahaha. Gavin loves professional looking girls.. with the chopstick on the hair!! hahahaha!!! Weird dude.. Then it's mamak session at the cliche Sri Kayu.. all the way till it's midnight.

NOthing much happened today( saturday), I drove back from Grandma's alone in the afternoon.. My head kept playing this song, Amazed.. Gosh it's a pretty good song.. Makes u wonder of the greatness of God's love for us.. Yeah.. i've said it and i'll sait again.. God's love is the best.. It's called "agape" the Greek word for love...which literaly means God's unconditional love for us, humans.. Amen to that... How great and how deep His love for us could be.. I will always choose God's love than anything else. No one else loves me as much as God.. He loves you more than others do.

"Greater love has no one like this, that He lay down His life for His friends"- John 15:13

This verse here reminds me of how one could lay down his/her life for his/her frens.. It's a sacrfice of one's life for the sake and out of the love for others he/she loves.. The same too goes for Jesus who died on the cross some 2000 years ago for the love of the world... ppl of the past, present and the future..

Amazed

I woke up at bout 6am something and went back to bed again, and been waken up by dad at 7;45am just to ask me to fix the pc up.. Gosh, i went on9 for a while and then went back to bed again.. Hahah bed's my best fren now. The whole day's been fine, and i went for some "yamcha" session with Jason, a church fren in Ehsan(the mamak stall at the 2nd roundabout) at bout 9:30pm. Got some nice western food in mamak and later i rushed home at 10:15pm to catch up with Alias. ANd here i am now it's 12 something and i'm listening to Amazed now by Ross Parsley.. It's pretty different from the Desperation one. THis one's has strings and is less rockish, more classical and acoustic.. My kind of music.. the soft and acoustic kind.. Not too much of electric guitar...Through this song, the lyrics seem so simple, so clear.. the song writer expressing his amazement of God. It's good. It made me ponder of the wideness, deepness and the greatness of God's love for all of us.

IT's good to hear GOd's favor to be upon us. It's good that God desires to give us the est. But sometimes, i feel that i don't deserve and i began to wonder what would other ppl think of me. They might wonder how in the world did i get such blessings. I feel that i need to give it all away because the blessings are too much that i couldn't even contain it. But sometimes i wonder, couldn't be unfair to the others?? I mean ppl might get jealous of me for having being blessed abundantly by God? Then a voice told me... that i shouldn't worry about them for He has the best installed for them if they choose to follow Him. Amen to that! God's been telling me many stuff that i forget some of them. During this day, GOd's been telling me to spend time with Him. I neglected, but a whisper told me to at least commit 10 minutes of undivided attention for Him. It's good. It's good that He encourages me to spend time with Him. He seems so gentle to me.After i finished with the 10 mins or so, i felt a sense of peace and He seems to thank me for spending time with Him, How appreciative anc gentle our GOd is! AMen!

I've got lots to learn from God, i need to fire up my spiritual life so that i'll be spiritually fit and be able to let GOd work through me. It takes time, says the Lord, much patience is required, much perseverance, but hey! the rewards are bountiful! The Lord is faithful! AMen to that! I guess i'm awestruck by Him now.... It's good. God has the best installed for us, it's just that we need to fully surrender to Him and allow Him to work in our lifes...

Here's a all time classic:

Potter's Hands
by Darlene Zschech

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour,
I know for sure, that all of my days are held in Your hands,
Crafted into Your perfect plan,

You gently call me into Your presence,
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit,
Teach me dear Lord,
To live all my life through Your eyes,

I'm captured by Your holy calling,
Set me apart, I know,
You're drawing me to Your side,
Lead me Lord, I pray,

Chorus;
Take me , mould me,
Use me, fill me,
I give my life to the Potter's hands,
Call me, guide me,
Lead me, walk beside me,
I give my life to the Potter's hands.


Somehow, this song seems to have so much relevance to me. I'd never really knew what this song meant untill recently. It's a song of total surrender and trust to God. It's good to have a great God!

Whew..!!! I'm back!

Gosh! i'm finally home, back in KK after a having a nice time in Genting with the CF bunch. We stayed at Ria Apartments from 14th-16th .. What a smashing time it is!! I've got lots of pic and videos.. ANd even a some rapping we recorded while in Siva's car.. Thanks bro for fetching me home! Hahaha!! what a time we had! On the first night, we had some fettuchini.. (some spaghetti with some white sauce). Siva, Weeks, and Adrian were getting into the Italian mood with some putting on some weird Italian accent which sounds like a wannabe!! hahaha! Weird dudes! The next day, the advisors came over for a visit. Ms.Khor was real funny. We discussed about next sem's schedule. MAn, we've got lots of ideas. Later at night, we got some disco in the house..The music was playing and everybody got into the disco groove.. I didn't know that Adrian could do the split!! hahaha!! I've got ur video man!! Then later we got some burgers for supper.. Though some of the meat were burnt, but we sure had a grea supper! Praise Jesus!!!

The one thing that i've learnt from this trip is the confirmatin of God's plans for me. On the second day, in the afternoon, Joel told us to get together and pray. He added that those of us that think that God spoke to you and have doubts, speak to God and ask Him whether it's from Him or that we're just making it up. I remembered my doubt, and i aske GOd to send me a confirmation in this.. or if isn't from You, then take this desire away. As we're praying, Joel asked me to lead in prayer, suddenly i felt a very strong feeling (kinda like a big whooosh into my heart) and i knew instantly that this is God's confirmation. I still have a little doubt now but i'm certain that this voice is clearl from God. AMen! God sent me a confirmation! Still, if this desire isn't from Him then i freely give it away to Jesus. I hope to see more confirmations and signs from GOd so that i will constantly remember God's plans for me. Indeed Jeremiah 29:11 is a good verse. Plans that will prosper us and not harm us,., These plans here are of God's and it is for us. I stronly urge u guys, to always trust in the Lord, for He has the best installed for us.

Glad to be in coll, again..

Hey, i'm in coll now and it's 8:21am now!!! hahaha.. i was here since 7:45am after Dad dropped me here. NOw i'm seeing M'sian timing in action.. Suppose to wait for the CF ppl at 9am.. I know many will be late and many will come at 9:30am! Hahahahaha.. M'sian timing! Gosh, it's so quiet here in coll.. since the happening ppl from AUP are on holidays, only the miserable a-lvls are having classes!!! ahaha too bad guys....I wonder when's the finals results coming out??? I hope to get good grades and get that scholarship again! hehehehe..... Hmm i don't wat to do now.. I'm bored.. what must i do?? Can i type watever i wanna type on here b4 i get bored?? Ahhhh help me.. i'm bored now!! ahhhhhhh

Sunday, what a day!

I was waken up by mom today.. We're leaving for church at 8:30am now.. We went to church.. and then to KL for some curry fish head in Stadium Merdeka. Then to back home at 2;15pm.. Wow what a day! Then i decided to visit Good Tidings Youth..hmmm y not?? SInce i've got nothing better to do then! Too Free!! hahaha! They were one funny bunch!! Laughing all the way!! hahaha! It's a blessing visiting churches, because you get to see fellow Christians and how they enjoy themselves at church. YOuth was over at 4:30pm and i decided to do some adventuring in Sri Muda.. Hehehe checked out the skool .. gosh it's as big as my old school..... The funny thing is that the sewage is right opposite SMK Sri Muda!!! hahaha pity fellas!!! hahaha! WEll my old skool is right opposite the LRT tracks so we'll hear trains squeaking on the tracks at intervals of 10 mins! hahaha.. Ex- Taman SEAns are immune to LRTs... hehehe!!! Tmn SEA rocks dudes! Anyways, messed up with the pc again.. now the monitor goes like'.. blank screen and says'--" Over Frequency" Gosh!! I called Gab and asked him for help.. He doesn't know! Ahh Thank God Hoong Ern was on9!! Haha!! The PC expert!!! hahaha! Settle prob! Now i'm guessing how to fix the settings again!! sigh.. Lord, help me! I'd just finished packing my bags for 2moro's trip to Genting with the CF bunch. Haha...

God's been great to me! He's telling me many things.. Trust in Him and never doubt.. It's good.. GOd's great! Ahhh i'm so frustrated!!! i tried to fix the pc but am tired now.. perhaps next time la... hehehe... I'd downloaded this song..

Amazed.. by Desperation

Verse,
You dance over me,
While I am aren't aware,
You sing all around,
But I never hear the sound,

Chorus,
Lord, I am amazed by You,(x3)
How You love me,
Lord, I'm amazed by You (x3)
How You love me,

Bridge,
How wide,
How deep,
How great,
Is Your love for me.

Yeah this is a great song which is simple and plain but strong in meaning. God's love is the best far any other man could provide. Amen to that. God's love is unconditional. He loves you and me for no particular reason, He just loves us. Now that's divine love for you. Today's sermon by Ps Julis is about Greater Love. God loves us mysteriously that we couldn't even comprehend His love. Perhaps this song really completes today's message....

huh... finally made it!

I'm finally back here in KK!! It's 12;44am now and it's like err.. i'm not really sleepy now but just exicited that i'm here on the internet!! yay!! Yesterday's cell was great eventhough most of the members seem to "ponteng" cell just for Planet Shakers concert! I'm happy i didn't go for it! Amen! GOd somehow is testing me to see how commited i am to serving Him..(i'm supposed to play guitar for cell) or just go for the concert for the hype! Hah! i passed the test! I went for cell and am proud of it! Praise God! Just 6 of us turned up.They said that my guitaring has improved too! hehehehe.. We had great laughs too!! hahaha i'm still laughing at the "boyfriend" jokes all the way till mamak session! ahahaha!

But later during this afternoon, i chatted with a fren regarding the concert, It seems that wat bothers her is that the ppl seem to praise God due to conformity. They jump and get excited becos of the music not becos of God. They jump and get excited becos everyone else is jumping too. I have nothing agaisnt jumping, but it's just that sometimes', ppl go there for the music and hype but not of God. Have you heard about the song, "When the music fades"? It's written by Matt Redman after he fully understood what worshipping God is all about. The song really spoke to me..esp the verse...YOu're looking into my heart.. Yes, it doesn't matter if we jump or raise ur hands, all that matters is that our heart is longing to worship GOd.. Yup, it's the heart that counts. God really spoken to me so powerfully this past few days.. I guessed the concert really got me getting serious with God again. Now i know that He has a great plan for all of us, plans that will prosper and not harm us..( Jeremiah 29;11..) Now i need to spend more time with Him and to read His word everyday. We need to fire up our spiritual life with God in order to hear His voice clearly.. for if we're close to Him, certainly His voice will be clearer.

Recently, i've been thinking about Proverbs 31:10 onwards.. It's about "A Wife of Noble Character". It talks about a woman that is virtuos in everyway, wise, hardworking and so on. But what really struck me is at the verse 31-32 "Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Reward her for all she has done.Let her deeds publicly declare her praise." Gosh.. I pray that God will bless me with a wife like that! hahaha. In fact, God has the best one installed for us and it's up to us to follow His will. Hahaha. this Proverb really spoke to me and to always trust the Lord in this particular area of my life. There's even a Christian Women's ministry named after this.. "Proverbs 31 Ministries".. Gosh, I pray that God will bless us guys with a wife that is virtuos and that God will prepare me for whoever it is... oh man! it's 1;28am now and there's church 2moro!! gtg now!!! be sure to check this site out.. www.crosswalk.com It has pretty good articles and devotionals in it! Till then, GOd BLess!

Another day...

I went to Planet Shakers concert again in Pyramid.. hehehe.. Today's concert is kinda fun too..though i thought there is the black pastor from US like yesterday again.. but it was fun.. But this time, i got tired from jumping.. My thighs hurt when i jumped, but it was fun.. not the music but of God's presence being so alive in the hall.. His presence just saturates in that place.. indeed it was a place of divine appointment and adoration with our Maker.. Earlier this day, i went to PJ to visit grandma and later drove to 1U.. Hmm i'm so free in this hols,, but i still remembered what Joel said, hols could be a time of fun (balancing play and quiet time) but can be time of addiction too.. (u might tend to stray away from God when u're too preocupied with your own hol schedule).. yeah know that guys.. As i drove home from 1U, i saw this dude wearing blue shirt walking so cooly down opposite SMK DJ.. immedietly i recognised this dude,,, hhahaa James Quah! hahah watcha doin with the bag?? I tried to get his attention since i was drivig away... Then i gave him a call and offered him a ride back to BU..,heheheh we had a great time of bball and "yam cha" session in McD's..

Hmm i'm not really sure bout God's plan for me.. It's my desire too,. but is it the voice i'm making up again?? I'm confused sometimes, but now, i hav to catch up with my spiritual life with GOd.. for when i'm close to Him, i will get to recognise His voice even clearly! For it is said, that the sheep can recognise the Shepherd's voice and respond by following their Shepherd.. This is the same for us CHristians, we have the unique ability to recognise God's voice eventhough we are confused,, u'll just know it... Hmm that's wat i'm trying to do now.... Read the bible and to spend more time with my Lord.. Well, i got to sleep now.. wakin up real early 2moro.. 6:30am!! Ahhhh!!

Jesus rocks!! BIG TIME!!!

Mark picked me up at the bball court near my place.. Later he went to Sri Muda to meet up with the Good Tidings YOuth.. Great! I finally know how to get to Sri Muda and found ot where SMK Sri Muda is!! hahaha..Gosh!! I just came back from Planet Shakers Concert!! It rocked!! TOTALLY!! God is in da house!!! hahahaha !! We jumped so much and screamed so much till we're totally in to JESUS!! Woohoo!! I'm not feeling tired now... Just feel like jumping an praising GOd all night!!! Yeah! God totally rocked the concert!! All praise to God!! Hallelujah! Thanked GOd for MArk for fetching me to and fro from KK! Thanks Bro!

In the concert, i felt God talking to me.. "Believe in my plans for u, don't doubt, just believe.."
I was like, r You serious?? I just got to have the faith in Him! That's why need to get back on fire for the Lord.. Just need to fire up my spiritual life again.. To be on fire for JC once again.. so that He can prepare me for His plans for me..for i don't want to mess up in life.. Just got to surrender to Him.. We all have to proclaim His plans (purpose) for our lifes.. Yeah!! Proclaim it for Jesus!! It's your life's calling! Do it for Jesus because He loves you and chooses you for this specific calling for your life! Amen!

Dear God, I pray that YOu'll work through my life.. All i have, i freely surrender to YOu.. for YOu know what's best for our lifes.,,, Life ain't easy, I pray that from this point on, You'll have Your way in us.. Lead us through YOur grace and mercy and the faith to believe in YOur promises.,,, Let us recognise the voice of the Shepherd and follow YOu all the days of our lifes.. and ultimately for eternity in Heaven.. You will surely comfort us with YOur staff and protect us from the Enemy.. Tonight, speak to me so powerfully that I'll not run away from YOu but towards YOu.. Bless this night and I pray that You'll give us a good night's rest.. Amen...

Another DAY..

Wat a day it is.. in KK for one whole day.. kinda normal though.. just that i didn't spent time with God. Gosh.. i hav to finish the bible during the holidays! Well, i went to the clubhouse again at 4 something with my bro. I went to the gym and later to the pool!! GOsh,,, my hands are aching then! Oh man... Worst still my bike is jammed up and the back wheel can't move. Arghhh!!! I chatted on skype with Wei Soon in Russia just now.. eventhough i can't hear his voice clearly.. but i'm glad to hear him in his original self- all crappy, 24/7..

This day is pretty normal though.. nothing much happened, just that i went on9 for countless times this day.. A fren told me that during the hols, we musn't be addicted to something, if not we'll tend to have this addiction as a distraction. Hmm ryhmes right? hehehehe.. Hmm great there's planet shakers concert 2moro! in Sunway Pyramid at 7;30pm! woohoo!! Thank GOd for Mark!! He agreed to gimme a lift from KK! yay!!! Hehehe.. I'm fine now.. GOd's been good to me..

Cheer up!

I'm on laptop now.. the deskop wants me to register Windows.. since i don't hav the registration code.. i dunno wat to do now... sigh... Hmmm... i think i came up with another song again.. I haven't came up with the lyrics again but i got the rhythm.. Hmm i'm still thinking bout that guy at club adminring my hair.. Hey i'm not gay!! i'm just thankful that ppl like my hair!! hahaaha !! ok ok just joking..

Church was great today! Pastor Vincent talked bout Jehovah Rapha- meaning God the healer of wounded hearts.. Kinda really spoke to me cos this whole week i'm kinda down,.. and confused.. Ya. God really spoke to me.. Yet He challenged me to believe in Him.. the one plan for me.. which i find too hard to believe.. it's kinda like wat i wanted.. but i'm kinda confused whether it is the voice of God or not..i just need the peace of God now,. and His confirmation.. He seems to say to me... I'm going to reveal it to you slowly... You'll know my plans for u.. it just takes time.. and lots of preparation.. Hey, guys, if u feel really down, Psalms 34;18 is for u... God is close to the broken hearted.

bAck to normal life agAiN...

Woke up at 6 something 2day, and later i fell asleep not wanting to do my quiet time.. Then later at 7:30am i called shannon bout the bball game.. ANd went back to sleep again.. Btw, i'm in grandma's in PJ..hehehehe.. IT's fun to be in PJ again. MEeting up with frens chris and shannon who r now in form 6 in Tmn SEA.. Gosh i miss those days at skool!!! CF was great and ppl were funny!! Esp me!! heheheheh! Well, i went to the bball court in Tmn Megah.. Not surprised not to see those two fellas there yet.. since they invited me for a game at 8am.. It's 8:15am now.. Sigh.. m'sian timing.. Guess wat??They're still sleeping!!! Argghhhh!!!! ANyways, we had fun at 9am.. hahaha.. It's good to be back in PJ again..brings back the sweet memories... of my High Skool days...Mom and Dad came back from Vietnam 2day. As usual, i'm the taxi driver and had to fetch them from KLIA.. real fun u know!! I haven't drove this fast b4!! Just need to feel the need for speed. Later i went to the clubhouse again.. and the same receptionist dude.. told me that he bought Sunsilk! ( he asked me the other day, saying wat makes my hair so long and straight? so i said. use sunsilk. the blue one!)-- seriously! i'm not joking! If u hav hair issues, use sunsilk!! esp the blue one!! Really makes ur hair soft and smells real good too.. haha.. Btw, i went to 1U yesterday with my cell group.. not all showed up.. just 6 of us.. including huay ming's fren.. daniel.. we watched chicken little( eventhough i had zorro in mind).. anyways, it was kinda funny but the plot is a little..errrrr weird?? Go watch chicken little 4 urself!

Gosh,, i'm so confused with the voices inside of me.. At times.. this voice told me something,, and at times,, another voice told me the other.. Gosh..! I've been through times like these.. and i dont kknow what to do?!!! I'm confused! I need to listen to the voice of truth! I don't wanna be pretending that alls well ends well... I need to listen straight from God... and learn to surrender to Him....

Of gyms and funny hair

Just came back from Kota Permai, Awww.. i'm so tired! Having exercising in the gym, my body aches at some parts now. Hmm guess i better workout. becos' breakdancing requires some level of fitness. Gosh... Am goin to 1U later for cell outing.. Guess we're gonna watch Zorro 2 and.. I'm kinda broke!!! sob.. sob.. Most of my money went to food and stuff over the pass few days.. Hmm i finally managed to recruit some guys 4 breakdance class.. Guess we're gonna check that out next week though. Hehehe can't imagine me doin all sorts of funky moves!! Esp when u go to US, having to see some chinese guy breakdancing! hahaha! Btw, the ladies at the club reception said that i have nice, long, straight hair.. hehehe (i'm not joking!!) hehehe finally found some ppl who likes my hair hahaha!! ;-)

Hey a new song!

Hey, in moments of solitude, i grabbed the guitar and began to sing a new song to Jesus.. It took me like 20 minutes to write it.. This song really reflects God's plan and purpose for my life. Yet in my heart i'd never really surrender to Him.. but am trying too. I'll sing this song when we meet k?? Haven't gave this song a name yet... Drop me some suggestions on naming it k?


Intro; C,Em, Cmaj7

Jesus Christ, my Savior,
Jesus Christ, my Lover,
Jesus Christ, I love You,
With all my heart,

Pre-C: Am7, Em7, C, D

Though I might not understand Your plans for my life,
Though I might struggle in life, yet You whisper to me so gently,
Saying rest in My love, come on back to Me,
Now I seem to understand and desire for more of You,

Chorus: key of G
I choose to follow You in my life,
I choose to lay it all down for the cause,
For You are faithful and ever loving,
Let me fall in love with You one more time.

Solitude

It's so quiet here in KK. Home alone, with my parents in Vietnam and my bro at grandma's. I'm here alone in KK being a security guard of the house.. sigh.. Anyway, i can do wat i want in times like this like singing and playing the guitar real loud! yay! Woke up at 10 tis morning, and the first thing that came to mind was the something that keeps bothering me.. Anyways, i slept in the hall it's kinda cooling with the TV in front of u keeping u company. hehe just in case i woke up at the middle of the nite wif nothing 2 do. Guess i'll be learning breakdance during my hols.. at one near pyramid.. since Eximius in my church teaches hip-hop only.. hmm when i go to US, i'll get to minister to the kids, through hip-hop. kinda like a streeet ministry.. pretty cool huh? hehehe.. It's a hip-hop ministry.. Street Gospel!

In times of solitude, i began 2 talk 2 God more.. He seems so personal than ever b4.. Being lonely, i grab the guitar and sing a new song to God. (something i've not done b4).. and u get to feel the sweet presence of God around u. waht a nice experience. I played bball last nite.. Though i was not alone on the court, i began to ponder how great God is.. (don't ask me why) . As i shoot the ball, i look up to the nite sky, and began to imagine, there's someone up there looking down at me with a smile. Wow, how wonderful and loving my Heavenly Father is. Sometimes, God thanked me for doin something that requires patience... like fetching my bro in BU from KK!! and fetching my frens back.. He kinda like said, "Hey, thank you for fetching.. certainly your patience is rewarded." Wow, how thankful our God is.. being so loving and kind. And in moments of solitude, i began to realise God's love is far greater than any other man. His love is unconditional and never failing. Gosh, i have the best lover in the world!! Far greater than any other person could give. God's love is the best! haha, there's many more to learnt from God, and much to surrender to Him. Life is a race..(a marathon) and we just have to finish it with God's strengh. Yeah Amen!

wat a day..

Woke up at 8 2day.. at grandma's house.. Man, the first thing i thinked about was, Jesus.. and the my dream girl.. (whoever God has for me).. I've been wondering this past few days, what's God's plan for me.. Studying in US and maybe not returning to M'sia and thus working there.. Whether i've be single or married. Hmm whether.. i'll call US my home.. and settling there.. God's reply was.. don't think so far into the futute, don't worry about the future.. Let 2moro worry bout itself.. Yeah Amen.. that's what Apostle Paul said..

Hmm i'm feeling really lonely now.. All alone at home in KK with no one in the house.. except me and Jesus.. that's all.. Hmm real lonely.. Then in moments of solitude, i can do things i haven't got a chance yet.. in the house!! Play guitar real loud while walking around! haha so fun! Play guitar in the toilet( Woohoo!! real acoustics man!) But seriously, i love being in solitude.. In times like these, i can speak to God in total silence.. Hmm great experience... and when my parents are away, i learn to take care of my bro and i began to realise that petrol isn't cheap! Man. just pumped 2day! real expensive! shucks... I'm fine so far.. and wait.. Guy Sebastian concert was nice! Guy appeared in the sunday service with white long sleeve shirt, black tie.. and... tight pink jeans!! hahaahah!! Got lots to say.. but i wanna go hav quiet time now.. gtg guys it's 12.57am now! God Bless!

Lost.......

Whew, i just came home! Really relieved that i'm finally here typing. Woke up at 7:52am with my mom knocking at my door, "we're leaving at 9".. Gosh! leave so early!??!! Actually my parents are goin to Vietnam today!! Yes!! FREEDOM!! CAR FOR A WEEK! Hallelujah! Then we went to special trip just to Bandar Utama just to drop my brother off in fren's house.. shucks... what a loong drive.. then, it's of to KLIA.. Hug mom and wished her have a nice trip, with a "sad face".. (my heart is pumping with JOY!!!!) So, i took the car and drove home.. I used the Shah Alam exit. and i realised i was lost!!! ahhh!!! i shud have used the Seafield exit back to KK.. oh man! Now the stadium is on my left and i drove around.. wondering where am i.. as a matter of fact, i'm not familiar with Shah Alam. Gave my father a call.. and he mumbled and told me to take follow the Green Highway sign hoping to get back to the hiway.. told me not to follow the blue sign.. .. But there isn't any green sign!! so i followed the blue sign and ended up in Pusat Bandar Shah Alam.. oh man.. i'm lost.. then i prayed and i followed a sign which leads me to KL.. shucks!! Oh man, this time i'm really lost.. felt that i'm all alone in the car.. with no one to show me the way back home.. I prayed... Managed to make it to the Federal Hiway. Then, wow!! that building looks familiar!!! ahaha!! i know this place!! (can see Carrefour at the other side of the road at my right!!!) Yay!! I'm home..!! (in a way) and then it's another 20 mins back to KK.. Total travelling time from KLIA, lost in shah alam, and back to KK. approx- 45-50 mins!! I shud have listened to my parents instructions on how to go home.. but i've replied with ignorance.. sigh.. learnt my lesson.. hehe

Well, thought of the day folks.. God told me something.. In life, if you take the wrong turn, (wrong turn to Shah Alam exit) and you might end up lost.. (lost in shah alam) and you might began to worry( worried when i was on the way to KL)... You begin to feel alone, with no one to lead you (no one's in the car with me). You pray, so that God might lead you back to the right path.. and He will lead you back and you begin to feel relieved.. ( whew! i saw Carrefour!) He will bring you back to the right path.. (found my way back in sunway) with His comfort and peace.. You might stray away from God, not wanting to listen to His instructions.. ( ignored my parents' instructions) and might go your own path.. ending up lost and feeling alone. Always know that God is ALWAYS with YOU.. Just surrender to Him and He'll bring you back to the right way.. Perhaps i need to surrender to God all of my desires and worldly plans.. for He knows best.. yeah that's rite.. We will never regret following His ways.. for Father knows best!

Guy Sebastian concert 2moro.. it's free! and i pray that many will come to know Christ and to give their all to Him.. yeah Amen.. gtg now.. God Bless!

You're Beautiful, it's true,

Hey guys, i'm not at college today. I woke up at bout 8:30 and went straight to the pc. Internet addict? I turned on my MSN and Sharon came on9 moments later. We talked about New York, and this turn out to be a so called "New Yorkers for Dummies" crash course. Told me that McD is called Mickey Ds in NY!! haha.. DUFF- Designated Ugly Fat Friend. ABC- American Born Chinese, and here's my favourite, FOB-Fresh Of Boat!!! hahahaha! Funny new yorkers! Later, i went for some bball at bout 1:30. Ignoring the drizzle, i tried my best to act cool doing all sorts of weird twist and turns, i had never mastered.. Bball, even the girls in NY are better than me.. :-( Oh well, all of us have our own talents and spritual gifts from the Lord! Amen? In half an hour's time, it bagan to rain heavily. Ignoring that, i took my ball and walked home.. I looked to the sky, and kissed the soft sweet air...( hearing the birds chirping) I said to myself, "ahh how beautiful and simple life is..ahh". And then "You're beautiful, you're beautiful, it's true.." ahh that song sprang out from the depths of my memory bank.. Immediatly i remembered the singer stripping of to his undies and run around in the middle of the rain.. while he sings the chorus... Oh man, shucks....

Thought of the day folks, God has been telling me to surrender things to Him.. of course it's hard for me.. but it's for the better of me. He will never force me and leaves it to my own choice.. Well, He told me not to rush in life and start to take it at a more slower pace with Him always on my mind. It's raining not as heavily as i thought that it would be.. and i began to ponder how majestic God is.. He is all powerful and indescribable.. yet He doesn't force us to follow His ways. Sigh it's hard to surrender certain parts of my life to God. I'm still struggling with this for almost 3 years now.. It's hard.. Wish that i have a close friend to share all my probs with and to be acountable to. To all out there, if you're struggling to follow God's way, I strongly encourage you to surrender to HIm.. It might be hard, but always learn to ask God to lead you through His grace and mercy... for we are all struggling beings and not perfect in any way. Well, Physics 1 is on this friday, 8-11am.. gtg now.got to study.... God Bless

Guess what??

Guess what?? I'm still in college!! Can't u believe it?? Sigh, no transport home.. waiting for mummy to pick me up.. at bout say, 8 something.. Oh man.... So, world religions was pretty easy today.. amazingly, i managed to answers ALL THE QUESTIONS!! Woohoo! Praise God!!! Well, paper ended at 3 and after it, i thanked my lecturer, Mr Chris Cheah.. Yeah show some sign of gratittude eventhough your lecturer might be boring. Later i went to oasis. finding out that there were no INTIans there except Taylor's CG. I chilled there till it's 4 16 and i went of to the library. ANd now, it's 7pm and i'm at com 19 typing.. Hmm maybe it's not that bad after all, since it's the second last day of college for me.. staying back late has a purpose after all. I met with a friend again after meeting him in Asia cafe.

Thought of the day, earlier this day, GOd told me to surrender certain things to Him.. Well, it was hard, and i sound real selfish when i replied God. I'm, still struggling in certain areas of life. like reading the Bible and having the discipline of doing quiet time. We all have our own struggles and somehow, after contemplating on the troubles i have, i turn to God. it's like a routine thingy, where i Trouble->Contemplate-> Depression->God.. Hmm sounds real familiar to me.. Well, what i've learnt is that I does not seem to start from contemplating and worrying . just look to GOd.. DOn't look horizontally at the probs, just look up vertically: towards God! hmm and another thing is that, don't compare yourself with others.. everyone is made equal with each of us having a spiritual gift from God..
Picture this: Two sticks of different heights being stuck on the ground vertically.. Look horizontally, it's of different height.. but look from the top.. it's just two even circles on the ground.. and this is how God looks at each of us.. from the top.. as equals... This wonderful illustration was told by my dear fren, wei soon who is now in Russia with weeks doing medicine.. God Bless u guys!

hmm it's 7.20 now.. and ,, hey!! there's Guy Sebastian is perfoming live and it's FREE!!! It's on the 39th of Oct. Sunday, 8pm.. if u wanna go, tell me asap... cause i need to get the free passes 4 u guys! k??
untill then, God Bless!

It's r3al hard..

I'd woke up early this morning(7;30 am when i looked at the clock after staring at my room's ceiling for . i think 10 minutes) even it's a holiday.. guess it's my biological clock that "woke me up".. Hmm i'm kinda gonna miss college cause the 2-month long break is around the corner.. (for some it the holidays might have started.. it's just that there's 2 days of finals and that's it!!) What am i gonna do during this long time of break?? I want to go 4 a MIssion Trip again.. say, to Terengganu again just like earlier this year(january) . U can never stop learning when u're on a mission trip.. I'd learnt many things.. but the most profound and highlight of the trip was "spritual warfare". As Christians, we r constantly on war with the Enemy.. he will never stop attacking us untill his time is up.. It kinda spooked me and my frens out when we felt we were spritually attacked. Hide not, confront we will! We''d learnt that we have the power of God and we as CHristians are above the Enemy, fear not we will.. that's the most profound thing i've learnt throughout the trip.

I wonder how's Wee Kee and Wei Soon in Russia now (they're there 2 study medicine). It's late october now.. and the siberian winter is gonna freeze them!! I wonder if they miss the good days at CF where we had our "Guy's Fellowship" (kinda like a guy accountabiliy group) and met up in all sorts of weird places like the block -D guys toilet!! :-p Well, God is everywhere though! Wei Soon, me, wee kee(weeks), chris, joseph and zhi loon.. we shared our probs.. ranging from girls to guitar! in the process .. we don't seem as strong as we look. We r all humans and have our own sturggles. It's only by God's Grace that keeps us through.. that's right.. Hmm guess i won't be seeing them much these days.. Jo is in college with me. Chris, Zhi Loon in form 6, wei soon and weeks in Russia.. I treasured those days in skool where life was so simple .. where the food is cheap but the exams are frustrating esp. the spm trials!! Miss those days where we stayed back to study together a, sleeping on the tables underneath the fan! Love those days!! Real nostalgia! Gosh it's just like last year and time has flew so fast!

Hey, i've been thinking about US. It's a nice place to be but I think I'm gonna miss m'sia. I asked a fren whom have been to US .. SHe said that it's a nice place to be and today.. saying that's a "really great experience" (pronounced with great awe).. Mom told me that you'll won't miss m'sia and won't even want to return.. that's what dad said too. I might not be returning to M'sia due to job opportunities unless it could be S'pore. I'm still thinking on how to accumulate enough cash to make up for tuition fees when I'm there. And b4 i leave, i want to c my non-Christian relatives and frens saved. I might not be seeing my frens again.. my old classmates.. Eventhough i'd lost contact with my old classmates, but what i can do now is to pray that other Christians might share the Gospel with them. Well, it's hard to leave M'sia... I'm gonna miss u guys! sob.. sob.. College, CF, Church.. the 3Cs! That's why it's real hard for me.. But i know that it's God's plan for me. Test is coming next week and i pray that God will take away this heartache away and let me concentrate on it.. yeah It's hard.. but it has to be done.. Lead me Dear Lord with Your Grace and Mercy..for it's hard..

Rainy day..

Gosh, it's been raining since 4 ( i think).. today was fine, daddy flew to Laos for a business trip.. and mama took daddy's car.. this means that mummy's car is mine 4 3 days!!! mauahahahaha!!! Praise God!! haha,
Guess what? i had phy test 3 today, pretty hard though( guess i'm gonna flunk in it) sigh, :-(
Neways, at least i got the car and i get to drive home early!! wooohoo!!! Praise God! it's so nice to drive to college! (but the parking is another story.. hehe) After, phy test ended at 2, i went to oasis for camp committee meeting... got to see the first faces of our camp t-shirt (all sorts of cool designs done by citirne and eve)..
after that went to mamak till it's 5 something, and we all went home..
and now i'm here in front of the comp typing this.. hmmm since it rained, it's gonna be cooling in the night! yes! can play bball at night! woohoo!! well, there's finals next week, and gosh! there's a lot to revise on World Religions and physics. better study now!

oh well, GOd Bless!

REal Bor3d!

Sigh... :- ( , it's been since 12 i'm still in col! real bor3d man! I dunno what to do except study.. (got physics test 3 2moro , pls pray). anyways, i've been thinking about the book i read last year ----- "boy Meets Girl" by JOshua Harris..

talks about a young christian guy (the author himself) about how he courted his wife through CHristian COurtship.. sounds old fashion eh?
not... he says that realtionships should be GOd-centered and not of personal desires, but of GOd's.. hm sounds quite true.. he talks about the "do's and the don'ts" during a premarital realtionship... as in during the courtshipo process.. hmm sounds right..

Well, i've been listening to a song.. and Proverbs 31 sprang out from the lyrics.
In complete curiousity, i opened my Bible and found out that it talks about "Who can find a noble woman". (gosh i hope GOd does find one for me.. ;-p). Say, i'm not really desperate now.. but it makes u wonder, 10 years down the line, who am i gonna wake up wif, to share life with, start a family wif hmmm..

well, whatever it is, He knows best.. . it's 6.34 now.. and dad is gonna come bout 7 something.. .. gtg, got physics test 2moro... pls pray..

God Bless,
Kev..

History Maker...

hey Jesus Freaks!! This song has been ringing in my head on & on. Hmm maybe God is telling me something.. U're a History Maker! Yeah amen to that ! So, Friday was good even though it's the last CF 4 tis sememter..( 2months without Cf.. sigh).. Nvrm , there's still church.... heheh (I'm from Glad Tidings PJ btw,).. prayer meeting in Oasis was so good, i even get on my kness and wept and wept. wuh,,, presence of God is so strong!

hmm can't imagine it's 3 girls bday this particular weekend.. Huay Ming(CG member,13th Oct), Tze Nie(fren from my skool CF,14th oct ) and Angeline(shcuks, my CG leader!, 20th oct).. man,, what r we guys gonna get the>??
Soft toys? chocolates? Pls gimme some advise.. WHat do girls want 4 their bday?

Hmmm.. i sent them weird e-mails, hinting that their bday is near( like.. Hmm,,, i wonder who's bdy is it 2moro???) hehe sounds fun eh??

Be sure to check this site out.. www.everystudent.com if u're free..

My finals is in 1 week time, pls pray for me.. need to pull up my GPA and that i'll won't be lazy... sigh.. OH well, God Bless folks!

-Jesus Freak-

It's been a while.....

Man. it's been like loooooong time since i'd last updated my blog..


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oh weeelll, God Bless ya ppl!

Oh man, i'm in Starbucks... again..

Oh man, I'm here again in Starbucks Amcorp Mall, and I'm here yesterday too just b4 chruch.. THis time, I'm not buying anything.. (too expensive) just sitting here hoping that they won't chase me out.. Oh man, I'm so scared that they'll won't come to me and ask.. "Sir would you like anything?" (subtly telling me NO FREE INTERNET HERE!) this happened to me in Starbucks Summit.. but so far, these ppl here in this starbucks seem not to ask me anything yet.. Hmmmm all you need is a pretty thick face.. and a lot of nerves and ignorance( avoiding they'll stared at you for not buying anything).. gulp.. hahaha Free internet in starbucks.. I was here since 2 something after attending a MAss in SFX( St. Francis Xavier) for an assignment on our World Religions course.

Gosh, it makes me wonder when I'm by myself, I realise God talking so clearly to me. Moments of solitude (I was driveing alone last night) I began to realise that I might not belong in this country anymore, going off to the States and might not be coming back due to job oppourtunities.. Lord, I realise that i have less than a year left in this country.. Good bye M'sia.. Lord, b4 i leave let me leave with doing Your work here b4 i go. Teach me dear GOd. Well, b4 i leave, i better share the Gospel with some college dudes and pray for my non-Christian relatives and friends.. Who knows I might not see my friends anymore..

Physics = Mystery..

I used to be crazy about physics, questioning nearly everything I see around me. Why is the earth round? About centripetal and centrifugal concepts... I even argue about the fundamental theories of Physics.. But now, the "genius" days are over I can't question no more and I'm weak in a subject I once am so Gung-ho about. I'm "studying" physics now, doing tutorials (worst still, there's Phy test this Friday). Enough of that. Let's not focus on our struggles with own strengh for there is strengh from above! When you think that you're sturggling in something you call as tough and beyond hope of mastering it,remember, God is able to help you. Just open our mouth, ask Him. Help is on the way.

Remember Phllipians 4:13 - I can do all things thorugh Christ who strengthens me.

Pray, acknowledge His power! Amen!

Bored.com

I feel so bored.. Stranded in college, it is not untill 6 something or so, that my father will fetch me... sigh, I'm in the library now staring at the screen nwondering what to write.. I FEEL BORED.... Class was over at 4pm and it's nearly 6 now.. What am I doing?? I FEEL BORED....

Class at 10...

Been into too much computer latelty. Not studying at all ( or a little).. Sigh, I need to pull up my grades this semester to at least GPA of 3.0.. God help me! Oh well, I'm in the library now "studying" Physics. BTW, I'm taking Physics 1 and World Religions this semester... and hey, guess what? Physics class has just 6 students! Muahahah get all the attention you want! Oh well, gtg now.. God Bless!

The holidays are over!!!

Sad day, the two-week holiday is over! I'm gonna face the exam results tommorow.. Sigh, God grant me the peace.. Well, the holidays are quite boring though.. worse still, I didn't find something crazy to do, like spending a night in IKEA.. Sigh, oh well, that will be the November-December holidays.. I hope that my new time table will be super cool, with classes ending at 10 on Fridays, so that I could enjoy the weekends early!!

How am I? Oh ya, fine.. Cliche answer eh? Well, I don't know what to say, but I found two new hobbies! Reading and downloading audio clips. Pretty fun though.. Oh well got to go! God Bless!

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Haha! It's over! Hello HOLIDAYS!!

Can't you believe it? It's the holidays! Finals are long gone! Muahahaha! Thank God for helping me!! Since it's the holidays, dude, let's do something crazy.. Say, spending a night in 1 Utama? Or maybe Ikea!! Hehe, they got nice beds to chill on! Yeah, how bout that? Well, if u feel bored of the holidays, be sure to call me! hehe...

Jesus Freak! Yeah!

Yo Jesus Freaks!! Check this out! www.jesusfreak.net Really cool ya know!! Sigh no cell today due to the haze! Man, thank God the haze is getting better. The Haze index is 200 something for PJ and KL. That's kind of better if compared to yesterday! It was 500 something!! Man!! Thank God for making things better! Fuhhhh.. man, I can smell the holidays coming! Tomorrow is the last paper for this semester! English paper.. shucks!! A lot of writing in that paper....

Friends, don't be afraid of the Gospel, live for Jesus and do not be ashamed of Him! Amen! Live For Jesus!! Testify His love wherever there is a chance! Tell your friends about J.C (Jesus Christ) because if you don't God will judge you on that day ( Judgement Day).. So, I don't wanna get scolded by God.. I hope He'll say this to me; "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

Friends, contemplate about this. Live for Jesus! Testify His Love! Amen!

In Starbucks now...

Haze.. Haze.. It's killing me.. I'm so bored, played games till I'm bored, and at the end.. I'm here in Starbucks since 4:45.. Spend some Rm 8 on a really bitter cappucino.. Really expensive..! Wee Kee told me there is WiFi connection in his place.. shucks! I should have been to his house and surf the net for free! Ahhh! There goes my RM 8!!

Chemistry = Mystery

Chemistry, mystery.. rhymes right? Yeah it was tough! Really.. My chemistry finals was just over. It was so tough that during the test, a guy somewhere behind me was cursing the Chem lecturer. I agree she is partly to be blamed for being so lousy in her teaching. I'm not gonna continue Chem 2 under her
I'm gonna do it in US instead.

Real Acoustics...

I'd just found my new hobby... Playing guitar and singing in the toilet! Think I'm crazy? Not! It's fun! Very fun! You can hear you and your guitar echoing.. Wow, I felt like a singer in a recording studio! Serious! Give it a try! You'll feel like a star! ( I felt like one just now). I had LAN test today.. from 12pm-3pm. I'm not aiming for an A but I just want to pass that's all. Lousy LAN, it doesn't effect your CGPA and it's not transferable ( except that some American University that accepts it). Ahhhh.. exams are next week.. and I pray that God will make me hardworking to study and not to be lazy.. Sigh, I need to do well in my exams.. Please pray along ya? Calculus and Sociology this Monday, Chem on Thursday and finally English on Saturday! Please pray for me!!! Alright gtg now, God Bless!!

Studying "deligiently"

Wuh, it's 6:11pm and I'm still in the library (was here since 12pm). Mols, constants, calculations.... pretty gruesome huh? I still got like 9 more chapters to go for my Chemistry.. God help me!! Hmmm got nothing much to say, but if you're struggling in your chemistry, be sure to check out: www.webelements.com . Oh well, as usual I'll be in the library until it's 8 something when mummy takes me home... sigh.. What loooooong hours in the library. The next time, I'llm

Exams......sigh

Hey, it's my first time using this! Really cool huh? Name's Kevin and yes, I am a Jesus Freak. I don't care what you think of me but I just can't help it! I'm a JESUS FREAK! Amen to that!!! It's 1:16pm now and I'm in the college library now with my friend Jonathan snoring away in front of me, really noisy girls chatting non-stop.. The librarian doesn't seem to care about the noise.. Libraries.... Exams are around the corner (next week) and I'm struggling with my subjects, sigh. I'm taking Sociology, Calculus 1, English Composition, LAN!!! (lousy lecuterer with broken English) and General Chemistry ( another lousy lecturer with broken English)..When will INTI ever give us good Chemistry teachers??!!!! INTI, if you don't do something about that, I mightas well transfer to Taylor's ADP next semester!!! It's really cold now in the library... better get use to it because I'm transfering to US next Fall (hopefully New York.. hehe.. )Oh well got grades to pull up. got to go! God BLess!

Still in college..

Hard to believe I'm still in college, still in the college. Only a dude like me could endure long hours in the same place without getting bored. Cool huh? That's just me! It's 8:12pm now and am waiting for Mummy to pick me up. Tried to study hard with LAN and Chemistry. With God's grace, I managed to cover ( I consider just enough though supernerds might call it a little) "quite a lot" of topics! Praise God!! Hallelujah! Kassim my friend from Bangkok is deligiently writing his Sociology essay in front of me. Gosh.. people are really studying hard to pull up their grades! As Christian students, we stdy for God. To give Him the glory through our studies and through what we do. Sigh, help me Lord in my studies... I need You in my studies. Give me Your strengh! I'm listening to Matt Redman (The Wonderful Cross) now. Really inspirational of how Jesus died for us.. A sinless, yet willing to pay the sacrifice for our sins. I am not hear to preach about Jesus but to convert Atheists into Believers. That's right. If you are not yet a Chrisitan, I really hope that you really reconsider who Jesus is. He is not another gung-ho religious- dude- who- is- so- excited- to -die. He had died for our sins, bringing us, humans closer to God. That's right. Amen.

Here are some links you might find interesting: www.rejesus.co.uk , www.everystudent.com